ONWARDS!!!!!

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I discovered fandom in 2001, and fell down the rabbit hole. I landed hard. My life got busy in 2002 onwards, and I all but vanished from fannish life. I was well and truly out by the summer of 2010, but when a friend nudged me to watch this new show called Sherlock that had just aired, I did. I loved it. 

I loved the relationship between Sherlock and John. I loved what they’d done with Watson! He had depths! He was a man of action, but he was obviously made of coiled, unspoken emotion! So compelling, so many possibilities! The desire to dip into this nascent fandom was rearing its head. This time around, I knew what choice lay before me, and what its consequences were. Open that door, or not?

If it hadn’t been for the fact that I was one year post cancer treatment and facing another surgery to determine if I had a new round of treatment to endure, I think I would have closed that door. Fandom takes up a lot of time and energy. It can be deliriously fun and damagingly distracting at the same time. I had a surgery date. I wanted to be distracted. I opened the door.

I tried not to write anything. I love writing fanfiction, but I never plan to do it. When I write, it’s because I have to. It’s wonderful, but it consumes me completely, and who has times for that? Who choses to be so consumed?I read and read, I had my surgery, I read some more, I got good news regarding my health (yay!), and then, goddammit, I wrote something.

Something small, I thought that would be okay. I thought I could get away with it. Don’t write any novels this time. Just a little thing. Just scratch the itch.

The Progress of Sherlock Holmes is a novel-length story written by someone who was trying very hard to avoid writing a novel-length story. I was in denial about it being a novel-length story for the first half of it, easily. That damn story forced me to do something I’d decided never to do again, and I’m grateful for that.

I wrote it because I felt compelled to, even though it contains a characterization of Sherlock that few if any people wanted to read about. It’s in first person present tense, another decision few if any readers want a writer to make. I apologized for it a lot, but I had to write it. And I loved it. That story reminded me how much I love writing, and how happy writing makes me, and that’s not something I’ll soon forget again.

The voice in that story is so sticky that half the comments left on it are in the same voice. I had to work myself up to write in that voice every time I sat down to work on it, and I was never sure whether I was getting it consistently or not, even right up to the end. But afterwards it took me fully 6 months to stop writing in that damn voice.

Honestly, I have no idea why my difficult, weird, inappropriate on many levels attempt at a story, written after only 3 aired episodes of a show in 2010-11, received its 10,000th kudos today. That’s a variety of madness and kindness that I cannot explain. But I am grateful for it.

Thank you for being here when I needed you. Thank you for finding a place for a story that no one, including me, really wanted. Thank you.

☿ Fire Mercury ☿
  • Aries mercury: learns through visualization; action and motion stimulate the mind. mental explosions; ideas are immediately verbalized. thoughts are direct, genuine, inventive, witty and immediate reactions are set-off in the light of the ego. a pioneering mind venturing onward inspirationally, pointing towards new beginnings
  • Leo mercury: the heart is intertwined with the brain, making the words true, lively, loving and passionate. solar flares endow the speech with golden words and the mind with creativity and a vivid perception of reality. The solar spirit is proud, dignified, free-spirited, idealistic and glistening with theatrical displays of radiance.
  • Sagittarius mercury: the spirit has direct contact to the Superconscious through cosmic wisdom, treading through the waters of the universe on a dreamy pilgrimage, the mind filled with shooting stars. The currents of thinking and communication are expansive, moral, skeptical, insightful, inspiring and knowledgeable. The mind is often directionless, impatient and disconnected from the world but sincere, honest and filled with infinite understanding.

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stuff
  • in exactly TWO weeks I will be finishing my last exam and heading home for summmaaaa
  • it has been raining for 3 days straight (I’m talking downpour) and being cooped up inside is really getting to me
  • the past few days have just been….really hard. harder than usual. I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping at school. I’ll sleep for like 4 hours and then wake up every 15 minutes from 4am onward and it is just. ugh. I feel so exhausted. I’m ready to be in my own bed again.
  • ^also, with classes wrapping up I have a lot more free time on my hands which is getting to me. I have an entire week between when my last class ends and when my first final of the official exam period is…a week is a looooong time when you don’t know what to do with yourself. especially when you don’t have a car. I can only study for so many hours ya know?
  • BUT keeping in mind that, like I said, just 14 more days and this little season of life will be over. so many good things on the horizon. just need to get over this little hill.
  • tonight is my last environmental law class and I love my prof so much I’m gonna miss it
  • tomorrow I have my “lifetime fitness” (lol) final which means I will officially be done with 2 finals (chem lab was a few weeks ago) and only have 3 left (the more legit ones) so I can really focus on prepping for them
  • when I do finally get to go home for summer I only have 3 days until I am off again to ASIA for a MONTH like !!!!
  • the sun is going to come out and things are going to be okay.

anonymous asked:

Please tell us your Kendra/Rip feels *chinhands*

okay well we have 2 aspects of this honestly- first the parts we saw in show, and then just really funny filthy stuff that NEVER happened in canon but that is the best thing to me and you’ll see why

so like, in show, kendra and rip have this very interesting relationship because vandal savage is rip’s villain- but only sort of. savage actually has very little interest in rip. he only cares about kendra. and it’s not rip’s hatred of savage that unites the team, but the fact that he kills carter- the team comes together essentially for kendra, so that she can succeed. and from episode 2 onwards, rip and kendra have this mutual understanding of each other that i think only ray shares with them, but they don’t really bring ray into it- it’s the fact that they’ve both lost the person that means everything to them, and they have no way of getting it back, and they sort of rely on each other in a lot of silent ways.

in 1x02, rip is the one who cradles kendra as he sobs, who relieves his own trauma (and ray is too, btw) by watching her live through this brand new hell. she’s the only person that can get him his wife and son back, and you watch him start to struggle with that vs the idea that the person that she has to kill is her rapist- but above all else, rip truly believes in kendra’s heroism. and more than that, he has unwavering faith in kendra’s heart- she’s the one he asks to talk to sara, and she’s the one who he thinks has the best chance of making sara feel human- and he’s right. 

which is incidentally hilarious bc he’s lowkey in love with sara episode 1 onwards and he’s trying to put distance there bc lmao dead wife but so he’s like i know who can help- kendra! sara: falls for kendra (and caity did play it like that we’ve discussed this) rip: oh…. balls

and they’re just like, the balance the other needs in s1, in a different way than sara and rip or sara and kendra or kendra and ray- they’re both the driving forces, here. she’s the soft, beautiful princess that needs to save the world, and i don’t know when rip realizes it but i think it’s around the time that she can’t kill savage- like in that moment he hates her but he also hates himself and she feels the same way and they KNOW the other feels the same way and even THEN, even THEN, he protects her from carter and savage still. 

when she gets kidnapped i think a part of him really gives up, i think he’s stunned that ray doesn’t- and he’s the one that kills savage along with her and carter, because more than anything, this is THEIR fight. this belongs to THEM, together, and sure, carter’s there too.

anyway the fun filthy part is imagine that since kendra is a reincarnation of chay-ara who is some kind of demi-goddess related to hathor and horus (and everything about jesus is 100% real in legends so let’s just not split hairs) and since hathor is literally fertility and beauty and feminine love kendra hits a point where she’s like, i really do need to have sex with someone very badly can you please help me like once or twice a week so i can just breathe again ffs, i don’t trust anyone else to really do this but you’ve got your wife to think about and i’ve got carter so it’s fine and rip is like well. i mean, for your health. of course

at some point during a team argument mick goes “kendra and rip are having secret sex” and sara, gasping in betrayal, is like, HOW DARE YOU??? and rip is like I ASSURE ALL OF YOU WE ARE DOING THIS FOR KENDRA’S HEALTH AND WELLBEING. IT IS 100% MEDICAL, PLATONIC SEX

and sara is like i don’t care what shit you’re into weirdo i just want to know!!! WHY I HAVEN’T!!! BEEN INVITED!!!!! 

anyway kendra and rip were really really important to each other end rant 

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== Miss.Bee
==NL 28y/o
==Height 161 Weight 60
==Body 36b - 28 - 38

●●SLOT DETAILS :
✔3pm-onwards
✔KL ,,sogo area/jln klang lama

●● RATE :
✔300/hour max 2 shot
✔500/2hour unlimited shot ( can request masat)
✔Masat+bj 300/hour(xle amk bj only or masat only y)
✔masat+fj/hour rm350


●● Term & Co
✔NL/Malay only
✔Deposit rm100 is needed(no depo no deal)
✔All rate included room,,but CD on u
✔Pay balance before slot
✔No cim,no anal,no hadcore
✔Be hygiene pls

Wechat : Lizliu90
Password : mastayus

RATE DIATAS AFTER DISC YE ABAM2,,NO NEGO LG OK😉😉😉😉

💋💋Serious deal pls..no hanky panky
TQ n Happy Cheong💋💋

Dan and Phil decide to move: a Phanfiction

(This is an excerpt from my phanfiction - read from Chapter 11 onwards for moving house fluff)

Phil woke up at eight thirty am whilst the short December morning still clung to the dark night. His duvet was wrapped around his limbs and he could feel Dan’s body heat pulse like hot heart beats beside him. He remembered their conversation from last night, and smiled to himself thinking about what had been said. He turned his head towards Dan, who was facing away from him, his arms wrapped and folded like a child’s in front of his face. Phil shifted towards him and nuzzled his nose into the dip between Dan’s bare shoulder blades. Phil wrapped an arm over Dan’s waist and felt the heat of his skin radiate into his own.

‘Morning,’ he heard Dan say groggily.

‘Good morning,’ Phil whispered.

Dan sighed and rolled onto his back, stretching out his arms before resting one on Phil’s shoulder who had now snuggled his body into Dan’s side.

They both lay silently for a minute, cherishing the peace and quiet of bed before they would have to get up and deal with the day.

‘So…’ Phil said slightly hesitantly, ‘How do you feel about giving the estate agents a ring today?’ Phil glanced up at Dan who was staring up at the bedroom ceiling.

Dan began to trace circles with his hand on Phil’s shoulder. His brows furrowed for a second and then relaxed before his glanced down at Phil.

‘Yeh. Let’s do it,’ he said through a smile.

Phil shifted his body and lifted his head towards Dan and kissed him slowly.

‘Great,’ Phil said, biting down on his own lip to try and control the huge smile which was dancing across his entire face.

 *               *               *

After having breakfast and watching a quick episode of anime, they both sat on the sofa in the living room with Phil’s laptop open in front of them, the contact page of the estate agents blaring in professional white tones and smart black font on the screen.

‘Do you want to talk to them?’ Dan asked. Phil knew that Dan definitely didn’t want to call them. Dan hated talking on the phone more than Phil, although both of them would prefer to email or text rather than chance an embarrassing social interaction over the phone.

‘Sure,’ Phil said as he entered the contact number into his phone, and brought it to his ear. Phil’s heartbeat started to rise as he suddenly started panicking about what he was going to say, how one even goes about asking about a house, worrying if he sounded old enough, does he still sound like a child, what if they think he doesn’t sound professional enough and question as to why he is looking to buy a house –

‘Foxton’s estate agents, London. This is Lucy speaking. How can I help you?’ A woman’s voice said over the phone. She sounded professional, letting the continuously repeated words still retain an air of humanity despite her having to repeat them like a machine every day.

‘Erm, hi. I was wondering if you had any house viewings for your property at Callingdon Crescent?’ Phil said, battling with his nerves and trying to sound as adult as possible. Phil didn’t really understand why he was so nervous. He was simply asking to view a house, and he was an adult. A fully grown actual adult who didn’t need to be embarrassed about looking into viewing a house.

‘Of course, I’ll just load the property on my computer and check if we have any available viewing slots.’

‘OK, great.’

Phil waited, glancing at Dan who was sitting next to him and staring down at his phone which he was spinning around between his fingers.

‘Could I take a name please?’ She said abruptly, as Phil heard her tapping into her computer over the phone.

‘Philip Lester.’

‘Perfect. OK, Mr Lester, I have some viewings available today or if that is too short notice we also have some available times tomorrow and Thursday.’

‘Erm…’ Phil said as he was suddenly faced with a new decision. The pressure of answering now over the phone made him even more nervous and the realisation that this was happening, and happening fast overtook every thought in his mind. He looked over at Dan who had heard the gist of what she had said over the phone. Phil asked the lady to wait for a second before he brought the phone away from his ear.

‘They have some viewings today?’ He mouthed, more than whispered at Dan.

Dan looked down once again at his hands, then lifted his head, smiled, and said ‘Sure. Today works.’

Phil looked at him with a mixture of happiness and pride, then returned the phone to his ear and said, ‘Yes, today works fine. What time will that be?’

‘Perfect. OK, well we have a viewing at three o’clock. Would that be OK?’

‘Yep, that’s fine.’

‘Great. My colleague Stephanie will be showing you around the property this afternoon. Will there be anyone else joining you for the viewing, Mr Lester?’

‘Erm yes, my partner will be joining me.’

Dan couldn’t help but raise his eyebrows at hearing Phil refer to him as his ‘partner’. He’d only ever heard Phil refer to him as either his ‘friend’ or ‘boyfriend’, and ‘partner’ sounded so adult – so serious. Dan continued to look down at his hands as he bit back a smile. Dan kind of hated the word partner, it sounded too formal and serious. He knew why Phil had used that term. Phil was trying to sound as adult as possible and probably thought that calling Dan his partner would just add to this air he was creating of being a professional adult who was trying to buy a property. Still, despite it sounding so odd coming from Phil’s lips, Dan enjoyed knowing that the woman on the phone now had an image of Phil as a respectable adult in a serious relationship, and the guy he was serious about was him.

‘Perfect,’ the woman continued as she typed away at her computer. ‘That’s all booked for you. Could I take a contact number please?’

Phil slowly dictated his mobile number, then after confirming the time once more, said goodbye and hung up.

———

(I hope you enjoyed this! I thought I’d post this here after today’s video, and if you want to read more about them moving in my phanfiction read from chapter 11 onwards which is all just fluff. And if you need a bit more angst in your life start from the beginning if you want)

It’s hindsight but I wish UFA spaced out the members in age. Even though there are FIVE active generations, we have 10 members who will be 18 and up by December and 6 of those 10 members will be 18 years old. Now think of 1st gen to 5th gen (also 13 members) who had an age range of 8 years from youngest to oldest with only 3 members that were the same age and most members being in the younger half age-wise. If graduations don’t start happening this year and onward…I have a feeling we’ll have back-to-back grads as soon as 2019 starting with the older members….


i think in middle/high school in terms of the whole scene/emo/whathaveyou music explosion took off it there were really only 2 sides and it determined which way u went in the next couple years like ill take me and my first ex’s best friend for example 

i had a friend that got me into waking the fallen era a7x, atreyu, etid, and almost everyone on ferret/victory records

meanwhile this girl started with like fallout boy and freezepop and cute is what we aim for

and we were cool but shit did we not fuck with each other musically

and that really only continued onward in that direction like she got into death cab and panic at the disco while i started fucking with like genghis tron and iamerror 

occasionally there’d be like a crossover with shit like taking back sunday but otherwise opposite ends of the spectrum

and it really did always just narrow down to “i dont like screaming”

BLOG END (AND BEGINNING).

Hey, kids, it’s certainly been an adventure! It’s not really the end for Terrible, though. This is his “good end,” being the best achievable ending for him. From here, his blog is being remade, into a chapter two of sorts. This is for several reasons, but the primary reason being I am an anxious bug and I want freedom to continue onwards!! Without fearing my follower account.

The story with him can end here, now background and NPC to @thegreatestfriend as a good husband and father. However, his timeline continues, with the fall of the barrier, and timeline isolation carried over several months, which has developed him into a kind of OC figure!

I will be refollowing most everyone on the dash from the new blog, to be announced in the post which I will queue to post once a day for the next week, before radio silence ensues.

Thank you everyone who has made the journey with this blog, and thank you to everyone who chooses to continue onto the next!

anonymous asked:

I got Fury and I'm so happy! But I'd like to know, does anyone know the requirements for the Furycarrier? I rather spend the missiles on ranking up if it's not worth it, than to buy the lemur. Thank you!

Furycarrier takes helicarrier keys to get. Specifically 40 of them, from defeating Supreme Scientist Streak 7 onward 

1 01.02.17 school is starting to pick up the pace, there’s so many tests coming and i’m quite worried, but here’s my biology notes for the first lecture topic! hope everyone is having a productive day (◡‿◡✿)

Going over Hunter armor for a commission I’m working on and had a moment of Fridge Logic about the (admittedly dope) new Vex Leg armor from the Vault of Glass.

So the ‘missing leg’ that was replaced with one belonging to the Vex is the left leg, right?

Well I was looking at the original armor.

IF YOU WERE WEARING ARMOR ON BOTH YOUR GOD DAMN LEGS YOU WOULDN’T HAVE LOST IT IN THE FIRST PLACE

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3rd year koganegawa & some fellow 3rd year!first years

(worry not… the adidas hair will make a comeback…)