The wait is over! New video! New story! New schedule! Same shitty quality of content.

BAA Half Training Day 3 (13 days out): Today sucked for lots of reasons. I woke up late, fell asleep in my first class, went back to my dorm and instead of running at 11:30, I fell asleep until 4. I slept through physics but whatever I don’t care. Then got up/felt bad about myself/ran/died. My hamstrings hurt a lot and idk why because I don’t do anything with them?? Maybe cuz of my new (Quality Preowned) bike that’s definitely not the right size for me?? We talked about nutrition in ex phys and I felt smart cuz I already knew about taking gels every 40-60 mins and “the wall” and carboloading and drinking water and who needs Gatorade and who doesn’t and it was nice to like chill for 3 seconds and not be frantically trying to write down all the things. Also learned that I eat real shitty for an “endurance athlete” lol (but I already knew this). The amount of carbs a person who is not sedentary (aka me) should be eating is hella and I eat too much protein and this is why I’m dead all the time. Also @ the professor, both female *and male* (wow…shocker) athletes can get eating disorders.


ᴏʜɴ ʙᴏyᴇɢᴀ, ᴀɪsy ʀɪᴅʟᴇy, sᴄᴀʀ ɪsᴀᴀᴄ ᴀɴᴅ ʟᴜᴩɪᴛᴀ ɴyᴏɴɢ'ᴏ // ᴩᴇᴏᴩʟᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴇᴡ’s ᴅ23 ᴇxᴩᴏ ᴩʜᴏᴛᴏ ʙᴏᴏᴛʜ

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.

Ariana Grande by Jones Crow Studio photoshoot (New UHQ)