When I walked down the hall… with tears in my eyes, PROUD TEARS, tears of joy and relief at the same time. Walking towards a gravitational pull running full force at me, I could have collapsed. Honey, there are no words to describe how I felt in that moment. Our bodies finally touching after all of that time, your arms felt different, your body seemed wider and thicker, your hands a little rougher, your face very shaggy-like but with my eyes closed I would always know it’s you. You’ve gained weight, I was literally swallowed by your hug and then real tears came down. Tears that told the story of how much I missed you, trying to hide my face was foolish because you already knew I was crying. Trying to wipe my tears and pose for a picture at the same time turned out to be a task, lol. “It’s okay, we’re good. I love you. Baby, stop crying…” all the while holding me so close I could barely breathe. I couldn’t help it though. Memories I would have for life were being made and I was overwhelmed. I knew I had missed you but I had no idea how much until I saw you again. “Distance makes the heart grow fonder” if I don’t believe anything else, I believe that for sure. It just felt so good. Everything we talk about, every kiss, every embrace, everything is perfect. Even though you’re leaving again in just 5 hours, I know that everything is falling into place. I miss you so much right now but even more that that, I am so proud of you!!!!! The man that you are I couldn’t have dreamed of on my own, you’re an actual blessing. I cannot express how grateful I am to have you and this life we’re beginning. I love you Ri. 😂😚 

I’m getting on a plane to Chicago tomorrow. I can’t fall asleep. I’m sleeping in my boyfriends bed for the first time since he left and it’s just terrible not having him here.


Chris just called me while I was on break at work :) we got to talk for half an hour :))) he said all of his buddies want to meet me haha. And they’re letting them have red bulls (theyre printed with the navy camo!) and tacobell. But he’s doing great and he’s excited!