My thoughts are finally returning to my brain and my heart is starting to regain feelings. God this episode hurt. It hurt so much that if I didn’t know that Oliver Queen IS coming back, I would never be able to think of Arrow and have happy thoughts ever again (WRITERS YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO KILL HIM OFF AT THE END OF THIS SERIES OR ELSE!)
I know for myself when I first watched the Olicity Goodbye scene, my first thoughts were…“that’s it?!?” That’s the 9? FELICITY NEEDS TO SAY SOMETHING FOR IT TO BE A NINE! But she just stood there! Even when the adverts came on, I was still waiting for Felicity to run after Oliver and tell him she loves him too.
But after watching the scene…a couple of times…after knowing the ending, I understood why.
Felicity walks in, all business and ready to do whatever she can on her computers, and Oliver is saying his goodbyes to Roy and Diggle. She just stopped. The realisation of what was happening, it numbed her. At that moment, her heart stopped.
And anger took over.
“I wish you wouldn’t go, but I know you better so I’m not going to ask you to stay”
When she put her bag down, she really put her bag down. That bag made a loud noise. I don’t think she was angry at Oliver, she’s angry because she actually can’t ask him to stay. She’s angry and terrified of the situation they’ve been put in.
There’s no way out for Oliver. If he stayed, LOA was going to kill hundreds of innocents until the killer came out. That blood would be on Oliver’s hands and consequently, on Felicity’s because she asked him to stay. If he stayed and exposed Merlyn, he would be exposing Thea which would eventually lead to Thea’s death. This would again be blood on Oliver’s hands and consequently, on Felicity’s.
The only option he had was to go. They both knew the chances of him winning were slim. They were hoping he would win, believing that the possibility is there.
Then Felicity does what Felicity does when she’s scared, she relies on the one thing she can count on the most - her brain. She asks him to do something against her morals and really, against his morals right now. Because she knew as slim the chances were that he would win against “one of the most dangerous man that has ever walked the earth”, the chances of him winning shrinks drastically because of who he is right now. He’s no longer the weapon he was in season 1.
Felicity was asking him to do whatever it takes to return to her. This is brain speak for what her heart wants her to say. If she spoke the language of her heart, she would be begging him to stay, not to go. And she can’t do that.
This entire conversation between Oliver and Felicity was between Oliver’s heart and Felicity’s brain.
Oliver was saying goodbye. He was getting his affairs in order. This was the last thing he had to make right. All the other times he told her he loved her, it was mixed with lies and riddles. He wanted her to hear those words in the purest forms. Just the two of them. No lies, no riddles.
Felicity is holding herself back. Because if she said “I love you” it would be she’s saying goodbye. And she can’t say goodbye because that would mean he would die. That’s not a thought she could even comprehend at that moment. If she told him she loved him, that sentence would end with ‘Don’t go". And just like Oliver said,
He would do it. If she asked him to stay, he would. He would live with the possibility of his sister being killed, he would live with the innocent blood on his hand if she asked him to. He would sacrifice everything he is if she asked him to.
She had to let him go. So she kept those words within her heart, hoping against hope that he would come back to her.