Love from a Distance

I miss you a little more each day. I wake up feeling more and more dead inside, despite the bright energy of the sun and the intensity of the wind. I wish I could kiss the essence of your soul once more. I wish I could fling myself across the water to reach you again. I desire your admiration. I desire the amazement in your eyes when you view me. I desire the scent of your existence that has no trouble bringing me home again. Every day I cry out in pain. There is this emptiness that ruminates around every corner of my path. The loneliness is irresistibly strong just as your form. It cuts through my body so effortlessly and drains every drop of blood in which I bear. It rips my veins out of my body so smoothly and leaves me dry, lacking of energy. When I left you it killed me and watched until I breathed my last drop of air. It saw the life leave my eyes. I feel numb and isolated nothing can bring me back to life but your kiss. For the moment, I remain lifeless and lacking air. Seeing you cry as I walked on the train thrusted me into a deep abyss of sorrow, and it’s excruciatingly difficult to pull myself out of this blackness to maintain any sign of existence. However, I can’t allow myself to get lost. I have to look up towards the light and continue swimming through. This darkness is so prominently existing in my mind, but I can’t allow it to keep me dead. I must push for this and keep my determination focused on the right path. I know what is right, and to reach you I must fight my mental urges. I will be with you again soon and this will strengthen our relationship. Our bodies will intertwine and be immortal. Once I am with you again then I can take another breath, but now I must stay within these confines and let them grow on me. Finally, when I reach the surface and break these chains I can transform into a Phoenix and be the strength you need. Be the basic structure and support to the house we will build together. I will do anything to be able to entangle myself in your arms and to trap your body within my limbs. I will soon be able to collapse within your essence, and allow my soul to coexist with yours. Soon we will rise to the flames in which our lives intend to be. Soon the kindled fire will roar like the lions we are. But now we must set our levels high and reach our individual goals. Allow the love to seep deeply into our souls. Allow these aspirations to adhere together, so it can build this foundation that can grow like roses. Some day you and I will be elegant, blood red blooms; however, we are merely the seeds to this beautiful plant that’s growing exponentially. We still need more energy, water, and time, and I’m absolutely, positively willing to give this plant all of those things. We’re almost there my love and we will never stop for any obstacle. That you can trust.

My Last Breath
  • My Last Breath
  • Evanescence
  • Fallen

Evanescence – My Last Breath (Fallen, 2003)

Hold on to me love
You know I can’t stay long
All I wanted to say was I love you and I’m not afraid
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?

Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

I’ll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree [come find me]
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears

Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one’s there

Say goodnight
Don’t be afraid
Calling me
Calling me as you fade to black

[Say goodnight] Holding my last breath
[Don´t be afraid] Safe inside myself
[Calling me, calling me] Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light, it ends here tonight

Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light it ends here tonight
Holding my last breath