Mary Lambert


Sometimes when I cry, 

I start to cry harder simply because I am crying,

Or I cry because I know that in the world

Somewhere there are little girls wearing tutus and singing Christmas songs,

Or because Sarah McLachlan comes onto my TV 

And tells me about the cats and the dogs that don’t have homes.

Fuck you, Sarah McLachlan.

I cry because on the internet there are pictures of pigs wearing rain boots,

And there are pictures of Sharpei puppies that look like rolled up towels,

The internet is great.

Sometimes I cry when cheese is really good,

Or when I’ve made onions. That’s just human.

I cry because they call me fat even though I am fat,

Because most of the time a word is just a word,

Until it is not just a word, it is a weapon.

I cry because there is death.

I cry because people die and maybe the last thing they thought of was their children,

And I cry because I don’t have children yet.

I cry when there is no end, and I cry because there is an end,

And I cry because you love me so well.

Because I used to cry alone,

Because I wanted to die,

And then I cry harder because your shoulder is so soft,

Because the sunset is so beautiful on the Connecticut River,

I cry because I am scared I am losing my mind,

Or because I’m on meds,

Or I’m crying because I forgot my meds,

Or I’m crying for the fact… maybe I’m not actually myself.

Or I’m crying because I AM myself and that doesn’t feel like enough.

GIRLS ON MY MIND | explicitly gay songs & cover songs all about girls and lady loving

beatrice eli - girls hayley kiyoko - girls like girlsaisha and the astronauts - cynthia ✧  the preatures - is this how you feel?lowell - cloud 69 ✧ go sailor - ray of sunshineau revoir simone - crazy lauren aquilina -sex charli xcx - rollercoaster  indigo girls - she’s saving mekaki king - i think she knows (love stoned) ✧ lowell - lgbt ✧ the ditty bops - there’s a girl ✧ the butchies - your love linying - i need my girl ✧  b. steady - cartoon girlsky ferreira & ariel pink - my molly lucy spraggan - ‘91vienna teng - recessional dani shayone the soundsdiana angel haze - candlxs ella eyre - funk my life up anya marina whatever you like ✧ kate nash - sister glam - party (xxo)the magnetic fields - acoustic guitar frankie cosmosi admit girleliot sumner - even though you’re with another girl ✧ chlöe howl - señorita  ✧ st. vincent - chloe in the afternoonjulia nunes - maybe i will feist - nothin’ in the world can stop me worryin’ bout that girllights - my boots patti smith gloria nicole reynolds - wonderin soko - you have a power on me her electric fur - girls/girls/boys kate nash - i want a boyfriend silvana imam - framsäte bältet avalvvays - archie, marry me kaitlyn alexanderfair lovethe internet - dontcha ✧ indigo girls - share the moonrachel sermanni -marshmallow unicornelektra - i don’t do boys la femme - oh baby doll megan and liz - talk dirty blondie - sunday girlkina grannis - rude the blow - come on petuniamary lambert- jessie’s girltaylor swift riptide joan jett & the blackhearts - crimson and cloverbeatrice eli - i love you missy higgins - secret anna mcluckie - electric feel lana del rey - blue velvet emma taylorthe girl jenny owen youngs - fuck was ichristine lam - girl almighty ✧ davina leone - steal my girl la roux - the feeling uh huh her - explode lesbians on ecstasy - sisters in the strugglecoeur de pirate - wicked gamesbat for lashes - laura tegan and sara - how come you don’t want me nowmaddie and julia - everybody talks gossip - where the girls aresophie b hawkins - damn, i wish i was your loveryelle - les femmesliving in redrun to you the watson twins - just like heavenamplify dot - love alonegabrielle aplin -best song ever- never wanna knowjen foster - i didn’t just kiss heralice goldorbiter the donnas - drive my car  ✧ shura - touch ally rhodes - don’t tell emlily sevin - jenny la chansons - sex and candykesha - past livesthe b-52’s - juliet of the spiritssarah bettens - come over here ✧ neon jungle - take me to church brandi carlile - the story dev - take her from you ✧ kreayshawn - summertime asobi seksu - goodbye vienna teng - homecoming laura marling - undine misty miller - taxicab donna lynn - i’d much rather be with the girlsmarie key - uopnåelig pia mia - hold on, we’re going homejen fostershe eisley - golly sandra ✧ anna calvi - suzanne and i the softies - it’s loveanna garcia - #isawLAtiontegan and saranow i’m all messed upicona pop - girlfriend sixpence none the richer - there she goes ✧ gabrielle aplin - teenage dirtbagla roux - paradise is younaughty boy & tanika - get lucky ✧ typhene barrow - no diggity alanis morissette  - will you be my girlfriendkirsty maccoll - a new englandtracy chapman - baby can i hold yougrace petrie - i do not have the power to cause a floodangel haze - same love ✧ mary lambert - she keeps me warm lesley gore - sunshine, lollipops & rainbows

on 8tracks | spotify (i only update this playlist on spotify these days!)

S A P P H I C  S O N G S

jessie’s girl // mary lambert | whatever you like // anya marina | can’t help falling in love // hayley reinhart | girls like girls // hayley kiyoko | midway // bad bad hats | night go slow // catey shaw | i do adore// mindy gledhill | jenny // studio killers | you picked me // a fine frenzy | nobody love // tori kelly | sing to me // mary lambert | she keeps me warm // kat robichaud | sum of our parts // mary lambert | i love you // beatrice eli | she // jen foster | skinny love // birdy | everyone is gay // a great big world | explosion // zolita | i didn’t just kiss her // jen foster | only a girl // gia | boyfriend // tegan and sara | ghost // halsey | girlfriend // icona pop | tee shirt // birdy

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Sapphic Playlist 💕👩‍❤️‍👩

Follow Your Arrow- Kayce Musgraves
Suddenly I See- KT Tunstall
Night Go Slow- Catey Shaw
Maple- Hayley Kiyoko
Oceans- Lauren Sanderson
Like Girls- The Blow
Girls Like Girls- Hayley Kiyoko (a wlw classic tbh)
Crazy- Au Revoir Simone
Please Don’t Go- Lauren Sanderson
Ghost- Halsey
Parentheses- The Blow
Te Amo- Rihanna
Red- Miki Ratsula (this one is so sweet )
Only a Girl- Gia
She Keeps Me Warm- Mary Lambert
Marceline- Willow
Come on Petunia- The Blow
Jenny- Studio Killers

SHE KEEPS ME WARM: A mix for girls who love girls. (A gift for @savagebutfree)

01. Jenny - Lily Sevin // 02. Jesse’s Girl - Mary Lambert // 03. She - Dodie Clark // 04. Tell Her You Love Her - Echosmith // 05. I Think I Like You - Siren // 06. Touch - Shura // 07. Only A Girl - Gia // 08. Cliff’s Edge - Hayley Kiyoko // 09. Closer - Tegan and Sara // 10. You’re In Love - Betty Who // 11. St. Patrick - PVRIS // 12. Love You Anyways - Ji Nilsson & Marlene // 13. Girls Like Girls - Hayley Kiyoko // 14. Love They Say - Tegan and Sara // 15. She Keeps Me Warm - Mary Lambert


“It’s true what they say about the gays being so fashionable: 

they’re ghosts. They never go out of style. 

Half of us already dead to our families before we die, half of us 

on our knees trying to crawl into the family photo.”


I’m a neonatal nurse. Today I had to listen to the father of one of the babies go on a homo/transphobic rant whilst I was stuck feeding his baby. He’s older son had recently come out as gay to him and had started seeing a trans guy, and this arsehole of a dad obviously wasn’t pleased about it. He kept saying stupid things like “I hope this kid turns out to be normal” and “he’s decided he wants to be gay”, “at least I’ll have one son”. I think he was trying to get sympathy from me, but obviously he was barking WELL up the wrong tree there.

Being at work, I obviously had to be professional and couldn’t respond in the way I would’ve liked. However it was a horrible situation. I’m fairly new to the LGBT community and have never really experienced homophobia before. Tears were welling up in my eyes and I was completely ignoring him but he kept going. Luckily I managed to escape to the tea room soon after and have a minor breakdown.

It really makes me appreciate how lucky I am to have such accepting family and friends. Im so sorry for all of you out there who have experiences like this when coming out. People can be such naive, one-minded arseholes sometimes.

Moral of the story, after they left when the baby wouldn’t go to sleep, I sung “She Keeps Me Warm” to the him and he went straight to sleep. Tackling homophobia from a young age, one baby at a time.

Lots of love 🏳️‍🌈