music is sort of cathartic, for me. It’s quite negative sometimes, but
somehow it takes all the negativity from inside me and leaves me
purified. I always feel much better, much calmer, after listening to
breaking benjamin… it’s the feeling of calm after the storm has passed.”
If I didn’t medicate as much as I did. I would be one rude ass mean cunt with racing thoughts followed by crying about being a rude mean cunt then laughing about all of it as the other person just looks at me in disbelief that one person could experience all those moods in less than 30 minutes.
So yes I do need to eat 150mg-250mg and yes I do need to dab a few times. Don’t judge unless you know wtf you speak of 😊
Friendly reminder to all my followers or fellow tumblr users that are currently taking antipsychotics, July & August are very hot months, and antipsychotics can cause severe dehydration! Remember to drink lots of fluids & stay safe! Have a nice summer!
My friend told me to tell you guys, self medicating yourself by going OFF of your mood stabilizing medication for the purpose if embarking on a “spiritual journey” is a really really really really bad idea. Don’t do that. Ever.
This feels so weird, and honestly I never thought it would happen, but today I will see my psychiatrist for the last time and be officially discharged from all psychiatric services. It’s be almost two years since things got bad, two years since I was admitted to the provinces children’s psychiatric ward and diagnosed with cyclothymic disorder. Cyclothymia is a relatively unknown illness, it is a more chronic sub-threshold of bipolar disorder. After years on anti-depressants, mood stabilizers and atypical antipsychotics I am officially free!!!!! I never thought this day would ever come!!!!
Today I took my first dose of my mood stabilizer😊 I was diagnosed with a mood disorder though they’re not yet sure where on the spectrum it falls. I’m hoping soon now I will have a better sense of who I am and I can stop fucking up my life with unpredictable unnecessary reactions.