The Only Life Worth Saving - Peter Parker x Reader One Shot
Summary: (Y/N) was fine at first with Peter being Spider-Man until he completely avoid their relationship while her emotions get the best of her.
Pairing: Peter Parker x Reader
Word count: 1.3K
Warning: THE ONLY WARNING WILL GIVE IT AWAY IF I SAY WHAT IT IS THIS IS SO SAD IM SO SORRY IN ADVANCE - IF YOU’RE TRIGGERED BY ANYTHING THATS LIKE MENTAL HEALTH YOU PROBABLY SHOULDN’T READ THIS
You laid in your bed staring off into space, distress written all over your face. Distraught and angry you set both of your hands on your face giving your eyes a rub. Your head was pounding from the night before where you cried to your hearts content. You were upset and you didn’t bother telling anyone. Why? Because you didn’t want to ruin the only good relationship you had in your life.
You met Peter in middle school. Both of you were the odd balls in class which meant you would automatically click. Every since then you’ve been inseparable. You told him every secret and he told you all of his. He knew you were alone and that you lived solely on money left by your parents and you knew he was alone as well. You guys had so much in common and he didn’t hesitate to tell you anything.
When he first became Spider-Man he gave it a few weeks before officially telling you. You understood; he didn’t even know for sure if he even wanted to be Spider-Man. You accepted him and practically worshipped him for all of the amazing things he has done for Queens.
You guys had this connection, an unspoken connection. Nobody mentioned it until he became Spider-Man. One day he came to your apartment with cuts and bruises. You cried more than he did that day. You cried because you didn’t know what you’d do without him. He was the only person you trusted, that you believed in. That’s when you realized you loved him.
From that moment on you two were officially together. Not a day went by where you didn’t tell him that you loved him. You never wanted him to feel alone like you. You never wanted to leave on a note that wasn’t loving and heart-filling just in case he didn’t return. It worked for the longest. It was great until he officially signed the contract to be a member of the Avengers.
From that day on you never saw him. At the moment you understood why you never saw him, he was saving the world. You grew lonely but you never mentioned it. It was pure selfishness for you to think you deserve time with Peter when he could be saving lives in that moment.
You kept that feeling inside you. Day after day, month after month. You let it grow inside you, never releasing it or telling anyone your emotions. It’s been a year since he has accepted the Avengers contact. You two still called and messaged each other but it wasn’t nearly as often as couples usually do. He would sometimes face-time you at night before you go to bed and such.
He visited often, often as in one every few months. You knew that was the best he could do because he was an Avenger. The longer he was away from you the longer you knew the feelings inside you would grow. The more they grew the more you could see yourself ending the relationship as a whole.
It wasn’t a toxic relationship but you felt as if you were having the affect from one as if it was. You cried yourself to sleep every night. Days went on where he didn’t message you or didn’t call. Days went on to where you saw him on TV with everyone else having fun. He would be at thank you parties and hanging out with new friends you’ve never heard of.
He was always seen with this girl, you had no idea who she was. She wasn’t an Avenger and she wasn’t named when she appeared on the TV. He went to every party with her and never posted a photo without her. Weeks and weeks go by to where he hasn’t messaged you and weeks and weeks go by where you cry yourself to sleep.
One day you came home from work. An awful day of terrorizing and self consciousness. You worked with a kid from school named Flash. He hated Peter so he obviously hated you. He would mock you and talk about how Peter has left you for a more well-off and gorgeous girl. How he wouldn’t even officially break up with you and leave you on edge.
You came home in despair but it quickly became rage. You ripped the photos of Peter off the walls. You damaged everything you came across. You felt like you were going insane. You were alone and you felt helpless. You knew if you mentioned anything you’d make a fool of yourself.
Before you met Peter you felt the same but it felt worse now because you had something and lost it because you weren’t good enough. You went to grab the medication you used to take to help you calm down so you could feel at ease. You grabbed a water bottle and headed to your bedroom. Maybe a nap will fix this all.
Peter hopped out of the car and walked up to the familiar apartment complex. Quickly fixing his hair in the reflection of the door and tightened his tie. He held a bouquet of flowers and a bag full of your favorite sweets. He continued on in and walked up to your front door.
He knocked twice waiting for a few moments before realizing you probably didn’t hear him. He knew you were home because he saw your car out front. A few more knocks were sent through the door before he became frantic. Being an Avenger you always expect the worse of the situation because anything can happen. The enemy can strike at any given moment and they tended to aim at what you love the most.
He started to freak out and kicked down the door. Everything was a mess. The picture frames were on the floor broken along with clothes thrown everywhere. He dropped everything and quickly ran into the rooms looking for anything, anyone. He screamed your name over and over looking in the kitchen and bathroom only to be left empty handed.
Lastly he arrived at the door of your bedroom. Without hesitating he pushed it open to find a perfect room, untouched. He saw you lying on the bed peacefully with a note written next to you. As he got closer he saw an empty prescription pill bottle.
He screamed your name again before running towards you, shaking your lifeless body, hoping he wasn’t too late. He quickly grabbed his phone and dialed for the police. He didn’t even realize but tears were streaming down his face, soaking yours underneath him and he brought your body to connect with his. He hugged you and kissed you face over and over hoping that like in the fairy tales; true love will bring you back to life.
Before he knew it the police and medics were surrounding the room pulling him away from your body. He quickly grabbed the note that was laying gently and unread next to you. They pulled him out of the building complex and set him on the stairs. Slowly picking up the note and scanning his eyes across the page.
I’m so sorry for what I’ve done. This was for the better. Describing and living my life without you was painful and I couldn’t endure it anymore. No matter what predicament I will always love you. You were the love of my life and I’ll never be able to thank you enough for accompanying me throughout my journey and making it worth living. I knew this day would eventually come because I always seem to screw things up for myself. I wasn’t good enough and I’m sorry I couldn’t be the one you needed. Your purpose is to save lives and I’m so glad you’re a worldwide hero. Nobody is more amazing than you and that’s why I’m glad to say I fell in love with you.
Tears covered the page as he threw it to the ground and let out a heart-breaking scream. He had lost the only thing he truly loved. The only thing he could call home.
‘Your purpose is to save lives.’
It repeated in his head over and over in your voice. He squeezed the sides of his head still screaming. He pulled his hair and screamed once more.
His purpose is to save lives but he couldn’t save the life of the one most important to him.
A/N: I’m so sorry