I’m a 19 y/o hyper sexual Muslim girl, and tbh I’m not interested in marriage or relationships. I’ve tried being set up and meeting people, and there was one person who I hit it off with but got bored. I lose interest really quick and honestly just want to continue having sex. Obviously I get shamed for it by my cousins who know ://. I do feel dirty for it. I love Allah and Islam. I’m pretty strict with myself about praying. I don’t know what to do :(
i don’t think you should feel dirty or ashamed for it because the words of other people. but i can’t sugarcoat it and say that this is not something serious in islam and something you should honestly consider taking steps to stop. there’s a reason why sex was decreed only within the bounds of marriage, and the logic behind that i can discuss for hours on end. but at the end of the day, Allah SWT doesn’t keep us from something that is good for us nor does He tell us to abstain from something unless it harms us. i would consider speaking to someone you trust about this, someone who will understand you from the point of view of a Muslim but not judge you. try to strengthen your bond with God, first and foremost, and that will inshallah make you want to follow His words more. in the mean time, please be safe in whatever you do and protect yourself.