I’m scared to like anyone. Because I end up getting attached. Knowing that you may be here now but one day you’ll be gone. Just that single thought scares me along with tons of “what if’s”. It’s as if I could go to sleep knowing you’re mine and wake up knowing I probably won’t hear from you ever again. I just don’t want to get so close and then end up being broken.
I wanna say I hate you and I wanna throw my phone at the wall every time I see a photo of you. I want to lie in bed all day with a box of tissues and a sad movie, and I want to lie and say I never loved you. I wanna go out and party and kiss someone who looks nothing like you as a sign of moving on. I want to delete our texts and throw out that stupid polaroid. I want to vomit when I see you with her and I want to delete my social media. I wanna forget your favorite animal and I wanna get you out of my head, but then that song comes on, and it’s like I’m melting into your arms all over again, and it’s like our flame never burned out. It’s like I never lost you, and you never stopped calling me yours. It’s like you still love me, and it’s like I still love you.
Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be (possibly your roommate, neighbor, co-worker longest friend, lover, or even a complete stranger) but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way