Phew, finally! This is a bunch of sketches I’ve managed to bring together for the past weeks! Been thinking about a story about how Covarog, second son of Zelgan, has to go through this kind of trial or adventure to find a cure for himself.
The plot for that one was that someone still hold a grudge against Ganondorf for his past deeds so the guy tried some dark magic to curse Ganondorf so he inflicted on Covarog. I don’t know, still thinking if I should draw a comic out of it or just doodle what the story could look like. Then I got into thinking if it was made into a game, Covarog or Rinku could be the main character and they bump into each other before scouring to adventure. :P
Adam loved mornings more than any time of the day. There was something so peaceful about the sun creeping over the city as birds chirped around him. He had made it a habit to watch the sunrise each morning while sitting on his balcony with a cup of coffee. To Adam, that was the best way to start the day. Waking up early allowed him to live each day to the fullest. Early start and late night. Get as much out of life as he could. Recently, he found that he liked to hit up the gym before the paparazzi were out looking for him and have the time to do everything that he wanted to. And this morning wasn’t any different. Except for the fact that there was a girl in his bed.
They hadn’t fallen asleep until late – around two or three in the morning – because they’d just been talking. He’d never known a girl that was so interesting. She had so many stories and he wanted to hear every single one. She’d told him all about her childhood and what it was like growing up on a farm. They swapped stories about their siblings and talked about their parents. He’d never felt so connected to someone in such a short time.
‘Reading Too Much Into It’: Queerness in Fandom Survey
TL;DR: I’m doing my MA dissertation in part on queerness in fandom (and especially focusing on TJLC/Johnlock shipping) and would really REALLY appreciate your participation in my survey and in helping me spread the word with reblogs. :-)
OKAY, HERE’S THE ACTUAL PITCH:
As some of you may already know, I’m currently working on my Masters degree dissertation in Gender, Media & Culture at a university in London (spoiler: it’s Goldsmiths). I started out back in August wanting to look at the word ‘fangirl’ and all of the implications that it carries with it, but it’s evolved in a weirder, queerer, and (I think) more interesting way since then. It’s sort of eating my life, but luckily for me, my research has sort of evolved to a point where it involves a lot of me scrolling through my Tumblr dash and feeling like it’s a totally justified way of spending a lot of time (thanks, proposal-writing past-Maggie!)
So yes. I’ve been spending a lot of time reading lots of old and not-as-old cis white dudes, who comprise the bulk of the ‘big names’ in the still very young field of fan/reception studies. And that’s been pretty annoying, sometimes, for a few different reasons.
The biggest thing that I’ve noticed is that a lot of academic work on fandom seems REALLY AFRAID of emotion as an important component of fandom. Like, the assumption seems to be (in a lot of the work from the 90s and early 00s) that the whole world thinks that people who call themselves ‘fans’ must universally be just like… Comic Book Guy from the Simpsons. Or Jack Black in High Fidelity.
Unacceptably emotional, and because they’re unacceptably emotional, feminized. WHICH IS BAD. (In case you didn’t know.)
In order to combat this, a lot of the writing attempts to focus only on the ‘reading’ part of being a fan, because ‘reading’ is a thing that academics like, and it doesn’t explicitly involve unacceptable levels of emotion, and does not therefore become implicitly feminized (WHICH, AGAIN, IS BAD). So we, as fans, become ‘readers’ of texts, and we derive ‘pleasures’ from those texts, but we don’t go around inarticulately screaming of getting things like FEELS, because… reading is never emotional?
And one of my HUGE problems with that narrative is that, as soon as you create the expectation that fandom is all about ‘reading’, you also create the possibility of ‘reading too much into things’… which I’m sure (if you’re reading this right now because you’re following/have found my personal blog where I scream a lot about TJLC, heteronormativity, and queer representation in the media) is an accusation with which you might be familiar.
This is kind of where the word ‘fangirl’ comes into it, as being accused of ‘reading too much into it’ and being called an ‘hysterical fangirl’ or similar are both so often used by people in positions of higher cultural privilege in attempts to shut up and shut down modes of fandom that are ‘too’ emotional or ‘too’ feminine or ‘too’ queer, and often all three of these things.
(I’m certainly not saying that the word ‘fangirl’ is an inherently bad word— just that, like every other word that ever gets used as an identifier for other people, we need to critically examine the implications of it and the way it reconstructs/challenges established norms and systems.)
That’s the dominant narrative that emerges in a lot of the fan literature, if you take ‘reading’ as the ONLY mode of fan/text interaction that matters or should be examined. But my own experiences as a fan, and especially as a queer woman fan, tell me a very different story about what fandom is and how it works.
The literature around fandom and fan cultures creates a lot of boundaries, binaries, and moral dualisms that I watch the folks (who are decidedly NOT all just the cis women fan theorists would believe us to be) I follow on Tumblr and my own fan friends online and IRL fuck with gleefully, joyfully, every single day.
So here’s my argument: fuck dualisms. Fuck binaries.
As soon as you create a boundary, you create an ‘outside’ of that boundary that becomes painful, violent, and fear/sadness/anger-inducing for the people you won’t allow inside it. And it seems to me that fandom, and especially this fandom, does a lot of really incredible work— both in the meta, fic, art, and other things that are created here and in the people who create them— in fucking with, poking holes in, and generally trying to dissolve binaries in ways that just don’t get talked about in academic narratives of ‘fangirls’ who ‘read too much into’ the stuff that they love.
To write the part of this dissertation where I do my own empirical research, I am asking for your help.I’ve put together a survey here, and would be absolutely thrilled and indebted to you if you would take a few minutes to fill it out. I’ve tried to make it as discursive/Tumblresque as possible, so if there’s more that you want to say than what the question asks, you’ll have the opportunity.
You by no means have to write an essay for each one; if you just want to click on the pre-established answers to each required question, you’d still be doing me an enormous solid.
THINGS TO BE AWARE OF:
1) This survey does ask you about sexual orientation/gender/romanticism, in addition to some stuff about the word ‘fangirl’ and Tumblr, so if those are things that are sticky issues, be prepared. I’ve tried to be as inclusive and non-awful as possible, but I’m absolutely sure I’ve managed to screw up somehow. Please let me know in the spaces provided if I have.
2) There’s a consent form at the beginning that basically just says that I’m allowed to use your responses in my dissertation. The whole thing is entirely anonymous, and I have no way of tracing any of your responses back to you. Go ahead and read through that first question, and if you have any concerns AT ALL, please please message me here on Tumblr. I’ll address your question asap.
3) ANY question you have about this work, what I’ll use it for, or just more about any of the stuff I’ve said in this post, I REALLY hope that you’ll either message me (anon or not, up to you) or reblog this post with your thoughts.
I honestly cannot tell you how much I love this community and how challenged I am everyday by the smart, funny, and intensely complicated stuff that so many of us value and care about in and around TJLC. Y’all are just the coolest.