anonymous asked:

"I don't often sail on the Snily ship" Saw your post about this today and I just wondered why? It's unusual that such a pro-Snape blog isn't a Snily blog. Why don't you like them as a couple?

Hmmmm, interesting one.

It’s not that I’m adverse to Snily per se, but I think the way that canon is presented, it slams the door shut on their relationship just around the time that you’d imagine they’d be of an age to really explore any interest in each other.

If Snape’s Worst Memory occurred a year later, then I think I would absolutely take a summer of experimentation between the pair around their OWL year as extremely credible.

I’d also follow Snily with a canon divergent reading - a reading where the adults are perhaps more in line with the ages of Rickman, Oldman, Thewlis etc - a Snily where they were together at school, and post-Hogwarts Snape went down the Death Eater path, and Lily went down the Order path, and the two broke up.

I also quite like “interesting” fics, so whilst I am confident there is little support in canon for the idea of Snape having any sort of relationship with Lily post-Snape’s Worst Memory, I also quite enjoy the odd fic that I’ve read where Lily tries to track down Snape whilst he’s a Death Eater.

But I am very anti the idea that Lily somehow justifies Snape’s character, or James’ character, or well, anyone’s character.  I don’t like the way that sometimes we talk in fandom about Lily’s decision being indicative of who was right and who was wrong, and I don’t like the idea that’s sometimes presented that if Snape had been a little different, then he’d have ‘won’ Lily instead of James ‘winning’ Lily.

Neither male character (or any other character!) ‘deserves’ Lily.  Alas, she’s barely written as a character within the text, to ensure that the reveal that she was Snape’s best friend and his motivation was a shock, so I can see why people unintentionally fall down that path…but I think it’s a grim reading.

I would absolutely be behind an older Marauder gang though.  I really like the idea of Snape and Lily quietly dating at Hogwarts, perhaps having a year or two out of school where they lived together.  I love the headcanon of Snape trying to gain his Potions mastery, but him having doors opened by the likes of the Malfoys - so whilst it looks like he has his life together, he’s being coerced and courted and seduced by the purebloods, and ultimately, it leads to Lily walking away from him - and the angst of losing her completely propels him down the dark path, because now there’s nothing to hold him back.

And then, from there, James has had plenty of time to grow up and change, and can show Lily who he has become - and the whole group have lots of time for growing into their positions within the Order and the Death Eaters, and we could learn about what a slow burn Peter’s betrayal was…

…yes, that I can get behind.  I’d love for the betrayal to have occurred with the adults at 31 instead of 21, and although I really enjoy the notion that there wasn’t a sexual element to Snape’s love of Lily (and it was love not lust), I think a genuine lost lover is a pretty credible read as well.

red.
  • it is february 1980 when they meet at a funeral
  • they are two red-haired women, one pureblood and one muggleborn, but neither of them care because blood does not matter
  • (except that it does. except that this whole stupid war is about blood)
  • they are two red-haired women with the future of the wizarding world growing in their bellies
  • and this is how it goes
  • gideon and fabian prewett go into the ground that day
  • molly, the last remaining prewett, feels like she’s drowning
  • (and although she is now a weasley, she will always be a prewett)
  • arthur’s hand in hers reminds her that she is not alone (far from it, in fact), but it does not ease the pain, the grief of losing all that was left of her family in one fell swoop
  • there is a stream of endless platitudes and consolations, so repetitive and meaningless that they blend into one another
  • (and she feels awful for the ones she has offered in the past)
  • (sometimes words mean so little)
  • she tries to tune it all out. sometimes she mutters, ‘thank you,’ towards her feet, but mostly she is silent
  • ‘when are you due?’
  • it is the only question that cuts through because it is so thoroughly unexpected, especially at a funeral
  • looking up, she meets a pair of brilliant green eyes, softened with sympathy in this moment
  • (but she knows just by looking at her that this woman can be hard, so hard and strong when she wants to be)
  • (and behind the woman stands a tall, bespectacled man with black hair, wilder and messier than hair really has a right to be, and she knows immediately that they are lily and james potter, who gideon and fabian talked about because of how bright and brave and in love they are)
  • when she does not answer, lily tries again, ‘you are pregnant, right? this isn’t some awful, social faux pas where i’ve asked a woman if she’s pregnant when she’s not, right?’
  • james sniggers and lily elbows him in the stomach
  • (and she wonders about these two, clearly so young, too young, for war and for a baby and for merlin knows what else might be coming)
  • (but she sees the way he holds her hand reverently, and the way she looks up at him reproachfully, her eyes betraying her amusement and embarrassment, and how he smiles and she smiles back and molly may as well not be there because they are so in love and damn the war)
  • ‘march,’ she eventually answers and the anxiety in lily’s face melts away
  • then molly casts her eyes downwards and smiles
  • ‘and you?’
  • ‘august,’ she answers, glowing like only a woman who is creating life can
  • lily’s hand skims across her stomach, the instinctual action of a woman whose belly is full of baby
  • (and molly would know, she has patted her own belly too many times to count)
  • ‘well, i guess our children will be going to hogwarts together, then,’ molly muses aloud
  • ‘maybe they’ll be best friends,’ lily smirks
  • and, for a moment, molly feels lighter because it is so reassuring to talk about the future in this way, to think about her children growing up in a world where they’re safe and happy and blood doesn’t matter and they can be whatever they choose to be
  • ‘potter and weasley,’ james is staring dreamily at the sky before dropping his gaze back down and grinning widely
  • ‘hogwarts won’t know what hit it.’
  • she never sees them again
  • her hands shake when she reads about them in the daily prophet
  • and she cries when she thinks about how they were bright and brave and so young
  • (too young and so in love)
  • (and now gone too soon)
  • she never forgets, but the memory does fade, the memory of meeting a vivacious couple on one of the worst days of her life and how they gave her hope for a future when the word future felt like taboo
  • and it doesn’t happen the way any of them had predicted, but it happens
  • because ron writes home in september 1991, talking about how he made friends with harry potter and how he stuffed himself silly on the hogwarts express because harry was generous and cool and being friends with him was easy and natural
  • so she thinks of lily and how she rubbed her belly, green eyes alight with hope
  • and she thinks of james and his cheeky grin and what he said that day
  • ‘potter and weasley. hogwarts won’t know what hit it.’
  • and she smiles
6

“Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when you finally feel it.”
                                                                                                                     (insp.)

But what if James and Lily lived?
  • Imagine if James and Lily lived…
  • And Harry is still friends with Ron, so of course he still goes to the Burrow all the time.
  • And Molly still loves him, and he’s still basically family.
  • But also:
  • The Potter family and the Weasley family having dinners together.
  • They usually take place at the Burrow b/c there’s more room.
  • The dining room is packed full of people, and some spill into the living room and the kitchen.
  • The Grangers and Remus and Sirius show up as well.
  • Everything is warm and cozy, and it smells so good.
  • The air is full of the scent of spices and butter, and you can hear laughter and sizzling from the kitchen as Lily and Molly prepare dinner.
  • (Even though Lily is awful at cooking).
  • James is in the living room marveling at the twins’ newest invention (and giving them tips when Lily isn’t looking).
  • Sirius is super impressed, and asks James why they never thought of what the twins’ have 
  • (”Merlin, James. Why didn’t we start a joke shop?” “Because you were too busy being punk and snogging werewolves.” “Touche.”).
  • Harry and Ron are laughing and playing wizard’s chess or something.
  • When Lily pops out of the kitchen to ask them to be a little quieter, Arthur asks her questions about muggle inventions.
  • (Recently, he’s been very invested in popcorn).
  • When dinner is finally ready, everyone crowds to the tables .
  • There’s barely any room, and people keep hitting each other with their arms, but no one cares b/c everyone is laughing and smiling.
  • Dinner is a mix of just about everything, in a mixture of mismatched bowls and plates.
  • (Some of it is burnt b/c Lily made it, but no one seems to care).
  • The dinner table is loud and full of conversation.
  • Percy is talking to Lily about a book that he’s recently read, and she’s suggesting others that he might enjoy.
  • Hermione adds a few of her personal favorites, and they get into a very deep discussion about their favorite books.
  • Sirius complains to Remus about the “book club at the table,” and Remus smacks him.
  • Molly is scolding the twins for trying to sneak pepper and other strange objects into the food.
  • James, Ginny, Harry, and Ron are having a very heated discussion about Quidditch.
  • “I can’t believe my son is a Seeker! And you, Ron! A Keeper? Merlin, Ginny, you’re the only sensible one here.”
  • Ginny laughing as he winks at her.
  • James challenging everyone to an after-dinner Quidditch match.
  • Lily smiling from across the table b/c her husband is such a dork and she loves him so much.
  • Everyone rushes through dessert b/c the impromptu Quidditch matches are the best things about these dinners.
  • Everyone working together to clean up as well. 
  • Lily and Remus are on washing duty and Fred and George dry. Ron and Ginny put the dishes away, and Harry and Hermione clear the table. James and Sirius serenade the group with a “cleaning song”, and Molly smiles as she makes the adults tea/coffee.
  • Then everyone rushes outside to play Quidditch.
  • Team One consists of James, Hermione, Sirius, Percy, and Ron.
  • Team Two consists of Lily, Harry, Ginny, Fred, and George.
  • Hermione and Percy are both awful, and Lily isn’t much better.
  • Regardless, it turns into a fierce competition between Lily and James for their team to win.
  • They both stop at nothing to win: often shouting, cheating, and trying to shove the other off their broom.
  • Sirius is cursing every few minutes and Lily is shouting vile insults back at him.
  • James and Ginny are constantly fighting for possession of the Quaffle, (James calls Harry a traitor when he cheers for Ginny).
  • Molly is cheering for all of her children and ignoring the teams and Arthur is shouting at Ginny to beat her brothers.
  • The Grangers cheer for Hermione even though they don’t understand what’s going on.
  • Remus makes fun of James and Sirius from the sidelines (and is nearly hit by the bludger Sirius sends in his direction).
  • Rules are forgotten about a third of the way through, and suddenly there are mini teams and cross-team alliances. 
  • Ron declares that he’s a spy and switches teams, and James tries to intercept everything that Lily does with a kiss.
  • The twins keep announcing that they’ve scored extra points (even though they’re both beaters).
  • The game ends when everyone is red-faced with laughter and smiles are plastered across their faces.
  • (Team one has a score of 87 and a half, whereas Team two has 76 points and a gold star)
  • James kisses his wife and quietly whispers, “we won.”
  • Lily kisses him back with a careful “in your dreams, Potter.”
  • Ron wraps his arm around Hermione b/c it’s actually gotten quite cold out.
  • Remus leans into Sirius, his hands wrapped around a mug of lukewarm tea.
  • Ginny and Harry breathlessly high-five, and then end up kissing a few seconds later.
  • Molly smiles and pecks her husband on the cheek.
  • Percy smiles softly, and the twins tell everyone to get a room.
  • Everyone laughs, their breaths clouding in the nighttime air.
  • The stars are shining, and the moon is bright (though not full), and everyone is happy.
  • And everything is as it should be.