Okay so I have a confession to make: I’m on tinder since like last week. I really downloaded it for fun to see what will happen and who is on it in my area, and I got matched with this really attractive girls and texted her, and we chatted for like four days (since Monday). It was nice and casual and I thought maybe if I get to know her and she is as nice as she seems I’ll meet her.
But today I got a text from her and she already wants to meet me. And I immediately freaked out because hell I’m not ready for this! I have wild social anxiety and I’m hella autistic, I don’t meet people in real life after knowing them for less than a week! And now I have quite a dilemma cause I don’t want to rush it and force myself to go out with her and suffer through anxiety and potentially ruin it, but I also don’t wanna seem like I’m not interested. And I don’t think there is a socially acceptable way to say “hey I’m brainweird”.
So… what should I do? I do want to meet her eventually, but I just wanna to get to know her first. I have no idea what tinder etiquette is like but from her profile I’m guessing she isn’t into one night stands and is looking for datemates and she just doesn’t like texting and wants to talk to me irl. But I don’t. Not yet at least. And now I’m super anxious just because of this.
I understand a lot of my followers are autistic too but maybe you have some wisdom so please share it.
Studying abroad kills you in a thousand ways, but it makes you smile in a million. So do it. Take a thousand pictures, make a thousand memories, meet a thousand new people… and leave with a thousand ideas and plans for the future.
Katie, on remembering study abroad and looking to the future
It is by riding a bicycle that you learn the contours of a country best, since you have to sweat up the hills and coast down them. Thus you remember them as they actually are, while in a motor car only a high hill impresses you, and you have no such accurate remembrance of country you have driven through as you gain by riding a bicycle.
I hate to read out loud. I read much faster than I could possibly speak and due to that I tend to stumble upon my words. People mistake this as me not being intelligent enough to read or for a lack of skill. It’s highly irritating to be taken for a fool too dimwitted to read when I’m actually just ahead of my own voice.
I make a whole lot of tangible products through my INTERNET GIFT SHOP and they’re all really personal and pretty literal. But just in case, here’s a brief backstory to a handful of items, from a letter I sent recently.
I biked over to take my own photo of this new graffiti, just a few blocks from where we live here in Baltimore, and exactly where I was mugged at gunpoint a year ago. After taking my bag, pulling off my coat, and emptying my pockets, they pointed their guns at me and told me to run across this bridge as fast as I could.
Took a refreshing walk outside this evening and documented my therapeutic autumn date. A few pine needles attached themselves to the bottom of my jeans so I decided to preserve one of them in my journal to remind me of perfect nights like these. Plus I’m fond of the piney scent!