“I found myself in Wonderland; get back on my feet again.”

You guys, I have some musical auditions coming up, and I have been preparing and working vocally, physically, and mentally for it. This has been a season where I’ve dealt with quite a bit of vocal rejection. That’s not meant to be like “oh poor me, poor me;” but as a singer who’s been trying and trying to make her musical career happen, it can be very disheartening when things don’t work out, especially when you surrounded by family, friends, teachers, professionals and unprofessionals who all have said and continue to say “you have what it takes! You can totally do this! I love your voice! You should sing this or that! They’d pick you up in a heartbeat!” It’s empowering and humbling to hear, but can really be a letdown when nothing happens after you follow other people’s advice in addition to pursuing your advice and heart’s desires. I know that it doesn’t mean I’m a bad singer, it just means the timing is different and I have yet to walk through the correct open door 😊 It’s good to deal with those moments, I know, because they train you and help you prepare for the future. Alas, it can still be difficult sometimes.

This past year, I’ve really been dealing with some insecurity and confidence issues, and I’m trying to overcome those hurdles, because fear does nothing but hold you back from reaching your greatest potential. It’s been frustrating, because I haven’t dealt with this kind of fear since I was 7; a lot of changes have happened, and most of them are good. But with those changes, there have also been new fears triggered that used to never bother me. I guess that’s to be expected when one deals with different levels of chemical and hormonal imbalances.

Therefore, I’m choosing to run head first into my fears and remind myself everyday when I wake up, that God gave me this gift for a reason, and that it will NOT and should NOT go to waste. I will not let it! Screw you fear and insecurities!!!

Anyway, If you guys wouldn’t mind, I would really appreciate any prayers, positive thoughts, and good vibes that you can spare.

I’m auditioning for the role of Mary Poppins in the “Mary Poppins” musical in March, and auditioning at the Palm Beach Opera house in April.

Some of you have known me and followed me for a while, and I can’t tell you how much I appreciate your guys’ love, support, and encouragement. It really blesses me and brings me peace and inspires my confidence. Thank you to my friends and followers, old and new, for your love. I hope you guys have a wonderfully blessed week, and if you ever need a friend to talk to, to rant to, to encourage you, to pray with you for anything, to comfort you, etc. my blog is ALWAYS open to you guys.

Love you all my darlings 🌹❤️🎶❄

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Anonymous said:
Amy I love you and everything you have ever written ever can I throw money and or candy at you until you are happy with the amount not like in a weird way but just cause you deserve it (I’m on pain meds sorry if this makes no sense)

Honestly this is the sweetest thing, and I’ve been smiling about it all day

Anonymous said:
Yo I love those tickets you did in Duke’s pov!!!10/10

Well thank you! I’m really enjoying the option of a narrator who doesn’t know what the hell is going on. It’s an interesting POV to work with. 

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listen up guys it’s time to do my favorite thing ever (promos) with some of my favorite people ever !! even though i’ve been here longer than the other two i’m p sure I have the least amount of followers but i’m not Petty or anything……🙄 anyway time to hit 1.5k! i’ll probably do something else once i hit that milestone so keep your eyes peeled 👀

r u l e s

mbf the human form of the 💯 emoji (thats me obv)
reblog this post (likes dont count and yall know it)
send me ur fav emoji
↠ but wait, there’s more! you get the rest of the dream team; yenna (owvlery) and abi (scrdpttr), who are also doing promos. that means three times the promotions for your blog wow what a deal check their promos out: here and here
↠ promos will be done in groups of 5
↠ block ‘bezocr does promos’ when u get tired of me (like anyone ever could)

hashtag squad goals 

Guys, listen up! I’d like you all to meet my Uncle Kevin! He’s going to be staying with us for an unspecified amount of time. He believes the Prime Minister is a reptilian and that the moon is actually a giant alien satellite dish, so please immediately disregard everything he says! I give you my full permission to ruthlessly mock him! Thank you!

nickythecao  asked:

Thanks for bringing up the stigma against Asian men, especially in the LGBT community. There's such a big problem against their desexualization and are often labeled as undesirable. It really means a lot that you brought it up as a gay Asian male myself.

hey, you’re very welcome. i’m sorry we (white people) created this harmful and racist stigma in the first place. the very least i can do is listen to you guys when you have something to say about the subject and try to help other people understand why it’s problematic and why they should drop it. thank you for sending me this and don’t hesitate to correct me if i ever say something out of line. have a wonderful day, stay amazing ❤️

Top 5 Biases Tag✨

I was tagged by @90s-shinee-aesthetic tyyyyyyyyyy ✨❣️✨

Not in any order! ((okaymaybeasidefromnamjoon))

1. Luv of my life, Kim Namjoon,,, ult soft rapper 

Originally posted by namseok

2. Rocky, the soft and smol rapper boy

Originally posted by sanwoo

3. Minhyuk, a literal angel

Originally posted by ddonggeun

4. Jay Park,,,,,listen guys,,,,i love jay park sm 

Originally posted by jayfatuasian

5. Junyong, a vvvvvvv cute nerd who i lof vvv much <333 (anotherremindertostaninx :’))

Originally posted by jeupstan

imma tag: @bincess @cafehobi @jisoonyoung @kimsyoujin @biahblue 

(you dont gotta do this is u dont wanna or have done it already!) 

do you ever think about how legendary pokemon might be their equivalent of cryptids in the pokemon world like ‘okay sure trainer you say you got a picture of a moltres but that just looks like you lit a rubber chicken on fire, that’s probably a hoax.’ ‘everyone knows that mewtwo is just a dude in a suit.’ ‘my grandmother’s aron got taken by deoxys my aunt got it on video’ 

why do ppl mock The Indie Girl Voice™ so much when The Pop Punk Guy Voice™ is one of the worst and most grating singing styles ever