it is not a coincidence
that both in moments of pure ecstasy
and pure terror,
we scream.

my therapist says,
it sounds like you’re having a love affair with fear.
how do you feel about that?
i respond,
i guess it scares me.

she doesn’t laugh.

fear puts a want in me that i cannot describe,
takes me to the movies,
some b-grade horror,
and slashes me to life.

so charming, this fear of mine,
puts its hand on my back by some train tracks,
asks if i want to go for a dive.

fear kisses me awake at night,
sings me to sleep come morning.
it holds my heart still for me on the coasters,
the cliff sides,
by the coffins.

knits the dark into a blanket for me,
wraps the snake around my shoulders like a shawl.

fear has its hands in my hair
and its fingers between my lips,
whispering in my ear
to look death right in the eye.

clasps its hand over my mouth
when i dare say: “too high.”

fear knows what gets me going,
electric fences,
glass shards,
haunted homes,
takes me running with scissors around the reservoir,
takes me deep into the woods,
leaves me all alone.

my therapist says,
it sounds like you’re out chasing thrills,
how do you feel about that?
i respond,

fear is a fickle lover,
when it clings to me,
i cling back.

but the longer it stays,
the longer it’s gone.

—  THE ADRENALINE JUNKIE / naiche lizzette

anonymous asked:

@Squad Friday Karaoke night. Choose your favorite the song :)

*ignoring it’s Saturday*


Connor; Don’t stop me now by Queen

Jack: Uptown funk by Bruno and mark whatsit.

Roman: Come and go with me by the dell vikings

Missy: One way or another. 

Sol:……there’s 100 and 4 days of summer vacation and school comes along just to end it….

Viktor; I did the mash, i did the monster mash. 

One Sided But True

I remember the first time I saw you
Oh those spects, those eyes.
All the compliments rocked my mind
I see you smile in my dreams
Feels like a good night kiss
Helplessly my mind drowns into a lucid bliss

Your memories, your angelic face
Is what gets me going whilst I embrace my fiasco phase
It’s so hard
Imagining a life without you,
Wakes me up every morning
Gearing me up to end this stubborn self scorning.

I see your photo, put on a smile
Your memories
Responsible for my most ecstatic self discoveries
They emblaze the morale of my soul
Whilst I battle the boundaries set by my mind
Disguised as the toughest ghouls.

I remember the first time we met
I couldn’t speak
I heard you whisper “Oh what a freak”
You walked away
From that very moment my heart ached to say
I know … Yes I know you won’t love for I am a loser but because of you, crave to be on a winning spree.

I remember, when you finally got to know
I loved you
Bragged about you all the time
You freaked out, you abused
All the people at the scene, amused
I cowardly ran away,
I cried until there were marks on my face because of the tears that had dried.
Year later you did apologise
Little did you know the fault was always mine.
For I was the one who underestimated your value which was indeed divine.

I remember when I asked if you loved football
You said yes.
Damn, I sold my bat to get a ball.
I fell down I broke my toes.
But I fell in love with the game
It was like our thing afterall
It helped me heal
Everything related to you strengthend my will, held me together like a brawny seel.

I remember that night when I wanted to apologise
But your friends misunderstood
Sucker for sympathy is what they accused
I didn’t get out of my room the whole night
Tears escaped me, from the fury raging inside
“Am I so inadequate” was the only thought in my mind, stuck in rewind.

Hiding my emotions just like a buffon knight
As I had my true self, to find.
All these events left me numb
My love for you didn’t succumb
Every day it bloomed
For the battle ahead, I groomed.
Fearless of the fact that losing you might leave me doomed.

Unlike the majority, who act to suffer
I chose to recover.
I know definitely I know you’re way out of my league
But to deserve you, Love
Is indeed my intrigue
For I am a magician drawing up a prestige
Trying hard to storm through this tormenting seige.

I apologise for what I did
Loving me is not an idea
You’ve to battle with.
The problem is mine alone
You’re my purpose my quest
Indeed the root of it all
My passions my goals.

I am scared
Not of seeing you with someone else
But of not getting a chance
To make you feel special
To be able to express
That express of my heartbeats
The feelings
The changes
Due to you love
My failures terrified,
remarked you as the east winds.
You’re my quest
The only song my heart sings.

Don’t fall for the lines above
For they maybe words
Fall for the changes you observe
Only if you choose to fall anyway.
Else remember me as a poet
With a heart of gold
Who chose words to trade his soul

While I am occupied
Unwillingly waiting to cross paths
With an equivalent abode
Not scared to end up forlorn
Diverting my mind to other passions
Adventures yet behold.
Whenever I am up against the toughest uncertainties
I’ll be a gladiator
You my sword.

Keep smiling

anonymous asked:

Itachi scenario where his partner makes a joke and he laughs so hard and he can't stop laughing because my poor baby needs some more love :'( Please and thank

Alright people, I used a pun from that video on twitter that was too fucking funny for me I’m so sorry it’s horrible

When Itachi came home that day, he was exhausted. Another mission that had to be done. He kissed you and let his body fall on the couch heavily, sighing. It was probably the first time you saw him that tired. As usual, you sat next to him and asked him how his day was. He told you about it, briefly and simply. It was quite obviou that you were only going to sleep that night. 

You kissed him, sliding your hand on his torso but he broke the kiss and looked at you, shaking the head.

“I’m sorry [Y/N].”

You smiled, getting up from the couch. You approached the wall and glanced at your boyfriend with a dramatic look. Pointing at the light swich you couldn’t help but make a terrible mistake.

“All these switches and I still can’t turn you on.”

The room remained silent for a few seconds when you were wondering if you were going to jump out of the windown after this horrible pun.

Itachi bursted out laughing suddenly.

“I’m sorry.” You apologized, chuckling.

Itachi laughed even more, wrapping his arms around his belly as it was hurting.

You didn’t know why he was laughing like that but you jumped on the couch besides him and started to have an uncontrollable fit of laughter with him as well.

“Oh my gosh…” He managed to say between giggles, his eyes starting to water as he couldn’t help but laugh even more.

You both laughed for a long moment and when you stopped you started laughing again when you looked at each other. You ended up not knowing why you were laughing : because of your bad pun or because Itachi was laughing ?

After a while, Itachi’s laugh started to fade away as he whipped the small tear coming out of hie eye.

“That was probably the worst pun you’ve ever made.”

“At least I made you laugh.” You answered, smiling brightly.

He smiled back at you, his stomach still hurting.

Itachi didn’t often laugh, though when he’s tired he could laugh to anything.

-Admin L

anonymous asked:

A couple weeks ago I went out with a friend who I rarely see (we live in dif states). When she was dancing w another girl I got jealous & realized I have feelings for her. At the end of the night she kissed me goodbye. She kisses everyone goodbye, so it wasn't a romantic thing, but it felt different to me. Since then she's been in more contact than normal and also asked to come see me. She's coming tomorrow and I'm nervous bc I like her and I can't tell if she likes me, too. What do I do?

(…) I’ve only recently come out (bisexual) and have never dated or been with a girl so I’m extra nervous about this and it feels like there’s an added pressure on this crush. Idk if that makes sense lol but yeah

Kiss her and you will know if she likes you.

history-rover  asked:

8 and 21!

How did you get involved in your latest fandom?

i saw the episode 7 kiss scene one night in the campus cafe, bingewatched the previous episodes, and never fuckin looked back lmao

What was the first fanfic you ever wrote?

berenstain bears nonsense disguised as “last night i had a dream about….” entries in my 2nd grade journals that we had to do for class because i hated writing about my actual life