• [setting: Spock and McCoy have just hooked up.]
  • Kirk: *calls McCoy* I’m not like, freaking out or anything.
  • McCoy: Okay.
  • Kirk: It’s just like–ugh. Like, the old Jim would probably be like, what!? And like, if you were a girl, or something–if you were, a girl, and you just hooked up with him after I had just hooked up with him after like weeks of leading up to it, and you’re my friend and like, you hook up with him the next day. It’s like–what the f–you know? Like, okay, on some level it’s going to make me a little bit upset. I don’t know. It sounds like you both had this beautiful experience and I love it in some way and I don’t want to take it away from you. I just…I don’t know, it’s just like a lot to handle. And I’m really glad I’m going to therapy. Right now.
  • McCoy: Yeah, it was beautiful. And I-I-I want you to know that it’s totally okay for you to have whatever experience you’re having around this.
  • Kirk: Yeah, I just I don’t know if I’m going to have sex with him again.
  • McCoy: Oh.
  • [Later]
  • Spock: What did he say?
  • McCoy: He’s cool. He’s cool with it.
  • Spock: He’s not, like–He didn’t loose interest in me or something?
  • McCoy:
  • Spock: You’d tell me, right?
  • McCoy:
  • McCoy: …no.

@flockofvulcans requested “Awake My Soul” by Mumford and Sons. Thanks for the request, love. One of my favorite songs. 

So, I started reading the novelized version of the first AOS movie by Alan Dean Foster yesterday and so far I’ve learned things and confirmed* headcanons about characters.

One, Jim was borderline suicidal. When he was about to drive his dad’s corvette into the quarry, it’s stated:

“No vehicle and no driver could survive such a plunge. And easy way and a convenient place for a distraught child to put an end to anger, confusion, uncertainty, and disparity. All Kirk had to do was keep going and gravity would do the rest. Keep going and…

“At the last possible instant he jammed his right foot down on the brake.” (p. 38)

I dunno about you, but stating that it would be an easy place to put an end to things sounds pretty damn suicidal to me. And I don’t think it’s ever explicitly stated how old he is then, but he’s young.

Two, before Spock meets with the Vulcan High Counsel regarding his acceptance to the Vulcan Science Academy, he was in the bathroom vomiting. As Amanda is trying to reassure him that he’ll do fine, he walks out of the bathroom giving “no indication that he had just spent several minutes violently upchucking his most recent meal.” (p. 42)

Three, Jim’s cocky demeanor is very much an act. When he meets with Chris Pike and is asked “’do you feel like you might be meant for something better. That maybe you’re supposed to do something special?’“ it’s stated that it hit a nerve. Then it’s stated that “Whenever [Jim] was uncomfortable he covered it with bravado…” (p. 52) So, sure, Jim’s cocky attitude is partially just his personality, but it’s also a defense mechanism. (This is the one that fulfills the “confirming a headcanon of mine” statement.)

Four, Jim can and/or does have a pretty shitty self-esteem. This kind of plays into the “his cocky demeanor is an act.” When he’s looking at the Enterprise being constructed, considering actually joining Starfleet, this is his internal dialogue.

What the hell do you think you’re doing? he asked himself. You sleep on a starship, not with it. Why are you wasting your time here? What makes you think they’d accept an overage delinquent like yourself? Because one slumming Starfleet captain said so? You haven’t even completed filling out the necessary forms, let alone making formal application. Get away, get going, get gone.” (p. 56)

That sounds like pretty shitty self-esteem to me.

*I don’t know how much of this book that is not explicitly also stated in the movie is considered canon. But I’m at least going to pretend it is if it isn’t considered canon.

Ok, and moment of humor because a lot of that was pretty intense. Foster describes one of the older students that bullies Spock at the Learning Center in the most fantastic and hilarious way. He’s described as “the second lump of insensitive bipedal protein” and I just think it awesome. (p. 30)

(I may have more thoughts on what I’ve read so far later, or thoughts on what I read later in the book, so stay tuned.)

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to celebrate this occasion, im gonna release icons of spock and kirk for you to use at your leasure! ill start with flower crown edits, and ill let you submit/ask your ideas for icons !! ill listen to anyone’s suggestions and pick my favorites! ill stop recieving suggestions at 7-24-17! :>

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Happy Pride Month everyone!

I couldn’t add every flags but I mostly put what I thought was relevant to them :D (of course those are ideas but you can disagree with it!)

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