Jian yi suffering vs Zhang zhen xi kindness

So thinking about it, after his birthday poor Jian Yi has had a really crappy couple of days!…so please bear with me since it’s a long post :P

First he had a peak of happiness!

Then we all thought…yes!!! this is gonna be great!!! and then bam…this face…

After this everything went downhill!!!, fist he meet some bullies …

And felt weak..

Then the confrontation…

And seeing his most important person being hurt….

Which was of course very harsh on him….

then the guilt came… 

impatiently waiting for him to wake up …

seeing him at the hospital …

He felt sad and lonely…

even doubting what he wanted to do with his life..

then the past came back to haunt him, and he got sick..

So he had a moment of temptation… 

and everything became even worse..

He felt like he screwed up so he might lose the most important thing to him…

And it was to much to handle…

 he felt confused..

and extremely hurt…

so he wanted to erase the pain…

But when he woke up the next day….the pain was still there…and the memory as well..

So of course he wasn’t feeling well at school either….

then reality came back to slap him in the face, is not just the two of them…

plus the memory of last night was still there…

and he had to face what happened…

Then a gossip came and the whole school was aware of his “rival” feeling …

and to make it worse, on top of all that confusion he was called what he feared the most…

So at this point Jian yi must feel emotionally exhausted!! anyone would! like what the hell is wrong, how can it be possible to have so many crappy thing to happen one after another???….BUT THERE IS A SILVER LINING ON ALL THIS…and that is that above all, Zhang zheng xi kindness has come up everytime Jian yi feels like falling.

whenever he make a sad face…

when he feels weak….

when he is having a bad day…

whenever he is under a threat…

somehow he will come up to protect him…

to cheer him up..

to make him feel needed and wanted…

to make him feel safe…

he takes care of the small details…

he takes care of him when he is vulnerable…

when he just can't stand up in his own two feet…

He worries…

and won’t leave him alone…

he feels Jian yi´s pain…

like his own…

and will always try to do something, to make it a bit better…

even if he is not that good at showing his emotions…

he will be there to catch him…

to ask if he is ok…

to look after him…

and defend his reputation, even when Jian Yi is not there….

he won´t ever leave him alone…

even when Jian Yi is shutting him out…

because he wants to understand him better… 

he wants to make it clear that he is not alone…

   and someone truly care for him…

Because love in any form is always patient and always kind.

Hope you guys like it!!!! these are my edits on the latest Old Xian 19 days chapters…it took a while so I hope you enjoy it :) !!!

Give. Give as much as you can as often as you can, it’ll make your heart grow stronger. Give time, money, effort. Give love, care, support and joy. Humans are born to give, we are born to share and find love in the most beautiful of places. Don’t limit your joy and happiness to yourself, give some to others, give them some of your time and all of the good you can. Helping people is one of the most basic human concepts, please use your power wisely.
— 

Giving by Amy Kennedy

22/03/16

The universe is one being. Everything and everyone is interconnected through an invisible web of stories. Whether we are aware of it or not, we are all in a silent conversation. Do no harm. Practise compassion. And do not gossip behind anyone’s back - not even seemingly innocent remark! The words that come out of our mouth do not vanish but are perpetually stored in infinite space, and they will come back to us in due time. One man’s pain will hurt us all. One man’s joy will make everyone smile.
—  The Forty Rules of Love (Elif Shafak)
My thoughts on the election

I am going to wake up tomorrow.
I am going to be nice to everyone I see.
I am going to make people feel comfortable when they are around me.
I am going to let people know I appreciate them.
I am going to let people be themselves around me without judgment.
I am going to support people who are different than me.
I am going to spread Love.
I am going to make people laugh and be happy to be alive.

Donald Trump can’t stop me. 
And he can’t stop you no matter how much power as he thinks he has.
He can’t stop you from being a good person.

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I would give anything to go back to Austria. Not only was it the most beautiful place in the world I have ever been, it was a place where I felt connected to the earth and connected to my faith and my soul. 

It made me appreciate life so much more, and it gave me a thirst for travel and learning.