a guy who’s sexy and rich like Christian Grey, handsome like Braden Carmichael, serenades me and is emotional like Kellan Kyle, fights for me like Gideon Cross, loves me like Gabriel Emerson and is my best friend like Travis Maddox?
I wished I meant more to her. I wished she loved me, like I loved her. I wished my heart didn’t pound when I stared into her eyes. I wished my lips didn’t ache to press against her skin. But wishing didn’t change anything.
WHERE CAN I FIND a guy who’s sexy and rich like Christian Grey, handsome like Braden Carmichael, serenades me and is emotional like Kellan Kyle, fights for me like Gideon Cross, loves me like Gabriel Emerson and is my best friend like Travis Maddox?
I made a playlist that reminded me deeply of Thoughtless by SC Stephens. Most of the songs in here would remind me of the pain Kellan felt, some would remind me of Kellan and Kiera’s “love”, and some, well, they just felt right.
Saving Grace (Take 2)- The Maine *my theme song for the novel*
Mary Jane- The Click Five
Love The Way You Lie (cover)- Colton Dixon *his version’s more appropriate*
Miserably Loving You-Artist Vs Poet *best played in dramatic scenes*
More Than Lust- Paradise Fears
My Heroine- the Maine *play it just the hot scenes because, you know*
No One Does it Better- You Me At Six
Don’t Let Me Go- The Summer Set
Say You Like Me- We The Kings
It Ends Tonight- The All-American Rejects
Everything I Ask For- The Maine
Into Your Arms- The Maine
Living Proof (Acoustic)- The Downtown Fiction
She’s Killing Me- A Rocket To The Moon
Dirty Little Secret- The All-American Rejects
All Or Nothing- We Are The In Crowd
Angel With A Shotgun- The Cab
Painting Flowers- All Time Low
A Wonderful Surprise- The Downtown Fiction
Give It To me- The Maine
Vegas- All Time Low
All I Need Is You- The Click Five
Walls- All Time Low
August 28th 3:30 A.M.- Automatic Loveletter
When I’m At Home- The Maine
Kiss Me Again- We Are The In Crowd
Listen to your Heart- The Maine
I don’t really expect anyone to agree or listen but hey, it’s best if you listen to them when reading the book to *increase* the already-unfathomable feelings ;)
She handed me the necklace, and my fingers were shaking as I took it. The guitar was perfectly crafted, delicate, but sturdy, and there was a large circle diamond in the center that sparkled in the lights. It was me, and it was Kiera…the perfect embodiment of what we were, or rather, what we’d never be. I couldn’t think of anything better to give her, to help her remember me, and what we’d gone through. “I’ll take it,” I whispered, not even looking at the price tag.
“Excellent,” the woman beamed. “I’ll go ring you up.”
While she walked away, Evan stepped up to me. “Kellan…you can’t expect her to wear that. It’s too obvious.”
I shook my head as I stared at the glow emanating from the diamond. “I don’t expect her to. I don’t expect anything. But this is what I want to give her.” My eyes were watering when I looked over at him. “This is how I want to say goodbye.”
What happens when I touch you? Your pulse races, your breath quickens,“ he bit his lip and started simulated heavy breathing, keeping his eyes locked on mine, ”your body trembles, your lips part, your eyes burn.” He closed his eyes and exhaled with a soft groan, then reopened his eyes and inhaled through his teeth suggestively. With a purposely strained voice, he continued antagonizing me, “Your body aches…everywhere.
“Kiera Michelle Allen, my life was empty before you stepped into it. I thought I had everything I needed, but only because I didn’t let myself want anything. And then I saw you, and you burned a hole straight through me. I have never wanted anything more in my life. And I have never been more terrified in all my life. In all my life,” he repeated.
…”And then, beyond some miracle that I’ll never understand, I got to keep you, and now…I’m only just beginning to understand what it means to truly want something. Because I want so much now. I want to make you happy. I want to give you the world. I want you to be proud of me. I want to comfort you. I want you to comfort me. I want to hold you when you’re scared. I want you to hold me when I’m scared. I want to make you laugh. I want to make you blush.” Leaning in, he whispered, “I want to make you scream.”
…”I want to give you a home. I want to fill it with children. I want to take care of you. I want to grow old with you. I want you by my side, every day.” … “I just want you. Do you want me too?”
Confessions of a Book Worm: Reckless Review [SPOILERS]
Warning: This will be long.
First off, I was so excited when I finally got this on my kindle, then I saw the size of the file and literally was like
Because there’s nothing better than an obscenely long book. Especially when Kellan Kyle is in it
ANYWAY, on to the actual book now… so, I’d read the first three chapters online, so I skipped right over them, and Jenny is so cute, throwing Kiera a massive going away party and then she was on the plane and I LOL’d so hard when she just sprinted off the plane and left Anna to fend for her very pregnant self :P
And then Kellan was holding a massive sign saying ‘MRS KELLAN KYLE’ and I was just like
and then they went back to the house and Griffin wasn’t there at the airport, but ‘waist-deep in babes’ I believe is what Kiera said and just
but Anna throws a sour milk bomb on him, so all’s good. then Kellan takes Kiera to their room, and it’s filled with rose petals and OMF KELLAN KYLE JUST
which he then did with Kiera… right up until Griffin walks in on them
And he brings in the worst kind of news ever: Sienna I-Will-Kill-This-Bitch-Sexton, mega star, was asking for Kellan by name. So they all trundle upstairs and are informed that she wants to do a duet with the D-Bags
and then like a few days later Label Guy, Dick Extraodinaire, Nick What’s-His-Name tells Kellan that they want to film a music video for the duet, and that for the video, Kellan will need to simulate a love scene with Miss Bitch Sienna. HELL NO TO THE NO.
And then Kiera, worried about her hubby’s career, as usual, goes and does what? SHE ENCOURAGES HIM TO THE DAMN THING.
Anyway, moving on… everyone is speculating about Kellan and Sienna because of some pictures, and then the filming of the video almost gives Kiera a heart attack, and when it hits, everyone gives the two a couple name: Kell-Sex. No. Not kidding. They could’ve at least done it properly, I mean, what’s up with the -?
and then a whole bunch of shit happens, and Kell-Sex (*shudders*) just keeps on escalating, because Miss Bitch Sienna keeps on showing up “by mistake” just as the paps “happen” to be there, and then she “has” to kiss his cheeks. Bitch. Really? I THINK NOT.
And Kellan is pissed, Kiera is losing her shit, and then one day, while visiting the cemetery (& his parents, ahem), some asshole pap gets a pic of Kiera kissing Kellan, and all hell breaks lose because everyone thinks Kiera is a homewrecker, and is Kellan’s mistress and is trying to break Kell-Sex up. Let’s all take a moment to appreciate the irony of this deluded situation
meanwhile, backstage, Anna was just sitting there like
And then a fan bitch actually SLAPS Kiera in front of Kellan (not smart, bitch) while Kiera was trying to reach Griffin, because Anna was in labour
(Kellan was SO pissed!) and then everyone rushed off to the hospital, and Anna had Gibson, and Griffin is actually a really cute Dad.
Kiera goes on a bachelorette party that ends up in a strip club and I’m like
Right up until a sexy cowboy comes on and Kiera nearly has an apoplectic fit as he starts stripping because when his shirt comes off, he has a tat with her name on his chest. YES, LADIES. Kellan Kyle stripped. In this book. And ended up in just a cowboy hat and undies. You’re welcome.
And uhm, a whole bunch of other shit happens, until Kellan loses his shit over what a fan says to Kiera, and it’s just like
so he literally decides to fuck his label, and go on a radio show and tell everyone everything, and he’s so sweet and cute and he’s so full of pride when he tells a fan that she’s his wife
but then when they’re leaving, there’s so many people, and paps and reporters, and everyone wants a piece of the two, and shit gets rough, and Kiera gets trampled and ends up in the road, with a truck coming at her full-speed ahead
and Kellan sees and rushes to save her and he does, but he gets hit instead, and this at like 78% of the book, and I started freaking out because NO WAY CAN KELLAN KYLE DIE… right?
And they both get rushed off to the hospital, and after a few agonising moments in which I nearly sobbed like a baby…………… he’s ok
And then Denny shows up, and Kiera’s dad, and Kellan’s dad, plus all the D-Bags, and I was just thinking…
But I digress. Kella is ok, Kiera decides she wants to marry him — RIGHT NOW, and suddenly all his fans love her
but then they’re actually really sweet to her and all, and really supportive of her and Kellan, so all’s good.
And Miss Bitch Sienna doesn’t even show up to see how everyone’s doing
and when she does call, she says Kiera is better off not knowing everything she did to try and destroy her relationship with my bb Kellan
anyway, they get married, then denny offers to be their agent, and then Kellan gets nominated for a Grammy, and just as he’s going up there to get it, Kiera whispers something to him.
(I already guessed what it was, so my reaction was more like):
so Kellan goes up on to the stage, and can’t even talk, so he just says ‘my wife just told me she’s pregnant’
and Kellan as a dad is just so ugh OMG SOMEONE HOLD ME