When I left, I joined the army, and when I took the service exam, my psych profile fit a certain… moral flexibility would be the only way to describe it. I was loaned out to a CIA Sponsored Program and we sort of found each other. That’s the way it works. In the beginning it matters, of course, that you have something to hang on to, you know? A specific ideology to defend. I mean, “taming unchecked aggression”, that was my personal favorite. Other guys like “live free or die”, but you know, you get the idea. But that’s all bullshit, and I know that now. That’s all bullshit. You do it because you were trained to do it, you were encouraged to do it and ultimately, you know, you… get to like it.
Sometimes, when you feel right, there’s a groove there, and the bat just eases into it and meets that ball. When the bat meets that ball and you feel that ball just give, you know its going to go a long way. Damn, if you don’t feel like you’re going to live forever. 281/365