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Top Ten Tim and Jill Moments Part 2

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“Lou wanted to study fashion, and with that there is an inherent love of clothes. We sort of made her a collector of clothes. Some of the pieces she had were like pieces of art to her. Emilia Clarke is naturally a very lovely, enthusiastic, loads of energy kind of girl. So, I think she just got into it, really.” - Costume designer Jill Taylor on creating Lou’s wardrobe for ‘Me Before You’

anonymous asked:

hi! I'm new to witchcraft and have been meditating daily for about a month. recently i started doing it during lunch at school. it's easier to get into it there, but i've noticed that after maybe 10 minutes (it's hard to tell) my whole body feels kind of like when your foot falls asleep, but not painful. this only happens at school. is it because of all the people there? is this something i should be worried about? thanks!

Yes! I just got chills while reading your ask. No it’s not something you should be worried about it’s something you should be psyched about. I’m not sure how school ties in for you, that piece you’ll have to figure out for yourself but I’m sure there’s an important reason it happens there and hasn’t happened anywhere else.

Basically when you meditate you’re inadvertently trying to shut down your left brain which is ruled by logic, time and individuality. That tingly feeling that you get is an indication that your right brain is dominantly active and your left brain has gone dormant. Your right brain is ruled by oneness. When I get that tingly feeling I call it feeling expansive. It’s like you can’t really tell where your body ends and the molecules of the air around you begin - it’s like you feel connected to everything and everything is connected to you. There is a kickass Ted Talk about this by Jill Bolt Taylor called “My Stroke of Insight” that you need to watch. When I have a chance to get off mobile I’ll try to link to it.

Dear diary, saw that some of the players went to the Taylor Swift concert in New York. Did any of them call me? No. Did I get any kind of invite? No. Okay, fine. Let’s see how much they like 3 straight hours of the beep test. We used to have mad love and now we got bad blood, you’re bloody right, Taylor.

Fitz and "getting better"

I’ve had time… and I’m… and I’m not better.

Whenever I hear someone on the show, or in fandom, talk about Fitz getting “better” I bristle.   I know everyone means well, and most are thinking, “recover as much as possible,” but I can’t help thinking that Fitz hears “get back to your old self.”

And that’s impossible. 

And Fitz knows that that’s impossible. 

The damage to his frontal lobe is permanent, and while the right therapy and rehabilitation can help him recover some of what he’s lost – he will never be the same man he was before the med pod.  When Jemma says that Fitz just needs time to get better, I feel like she means time to become the Fitz he was before, Season 1 Fitz, her Fitz.  I might be wrong about Jemma’s feelings  – what she told Mack about not expecting Fitz to be who he was may be true – but regardless of the contents of her heart, those words must hurt Fitz.  Of course he feels like he’s not worthy of her – she keeps telling him he needs to get better, and he knows he can’t.

I think this is something that the show is intentionally exploring.  The “What will they become?” tag line is all about identity.  If we alter this one’s brain, and give that one super powers, are they still who they were before?  Season 2 Fitz is actually not that different from Season 1 Fitz. He’s still fiercely loyal to his friends and team, a snarky little ass when need be, and, of course, he’s still hopelessly in love with Simmons.  He’s also still a genius - he just needs to figure out how to use his genius in a new way, build new connections, light up new areas of his brain (like the amazing Jill Bolte Taylor).

One of the most beautiful things about Iain De Caestecker’s performance this season is how he portrays Fitz from the inside out.  He embodies Fitz in such a way that we can easily see him as a whole person, we don’t pity Fitz as an “other,” we empathize with him.  We are right there with him, and this is so important because it humanizes people with brain damage, disorders and illness.  Most actors do not portray mentally ‘disabled’ characters this way – they stay outside the part and show us what we are used to seeing.  Neuroatypical characters are often used as symbols or quirky sidekicks – they are often infantilized or in the worst cases dehumanized all together.  They are rarely allowed to be whole people with full lives, and I want so badly for Agents of SHIELD to let Fitz to be the exception to that terrible rule. 

For his brain damage to be permanent and for him to have a full, rich life anyway. 

For him to find his place on the team and laugh and snark and bitch to his friends.

For him to be the hero and get the girl. 

I want Fitz to show that all of these things are not just possible, but normal, for neuroatypical people. 

That’s what I want.

I recently read in the book My Stroke of Insight by brain scientist Jill Bolte Taylor that the natural life span of an emotion—the average time it takes for it to move through the nervous system and body—is only a minute and a half. After that, we need thoughts to keep the emotion rolling. So, if we wonder why we lock into painful emotional states like anxiety, depression, or rage, we need look no further than our own endless stream of inner dialogue.

–Tara Brach