ARGHHHHHHHH! That’s me screaming in case you need clarification. However, I suspect many of you identified immediately with the sentiment!
Recently I have been feeling like everything is a battle, even the things that use to be so simple. Ideas seem to be cemented and all the jackhammers are on back order. Communicating clearly seems to be an impossible feat as I stand staring at someone looking for the simplest of… what do you call those things? You know, it is what we speak… oh yeah, words! To put it mildly my brain is taxed and yet I am still running in twenty different directions, taking on ten NEW projects and tasks, all of which have to be taken on. Let’s face it, life is busy! It’s just that sometimes it can become so overwhelming.
When life begins to pick up speed like this for me I tend to run so hard and fast that I forget to breathe! Soon I am gasping for air, calling out for help and questioning why I feel so alone in the journey.
This morning while looking up a different address, I mistyped and landed on the following passage. I have found great comfort in these words, words I have known by heart since I was a little girl, but words that still become new and fresh to me each time they pass my ear and penetrate my heart! May they bring you encouragement today as well!
Why would you ever complain, O Jacob, or, whine, Israel, saying, “God has lost track of me. He doesn’t care what happens to me”? Don’t you know anything? Haven’t you been listening? God doesn’t come and go. God lasts. He’s Creator of all you can see or imagine. He doesn’t get tired out, doesn’t pause to catch his breath. And he knows everything, inside and out. He energizes those who get tired, gives fresh strength to dropouts. For even young people tire and drop out, young folk in their prime stumble and fall. But those who wait upon God get fresh strength. They spread their wings and soar like eagles, They run and don’t get tired, they walk and don’t lag behind. (The Message / Isaiah 40:27-31)
One of my favorite memories from my teen years was sitting in church one Sunday evening, tinkering with a song I was working on at the piano. A couple friends were there with me, the three of us just listening to the song develop, not speaking a word to each other.
The sanctuary was empty. I don’t remember anything about the song or the melody. I just remember being joyful in the relative stillness.
The problem with stillness, however, is that we can become impatient. A song based on Isaiah 40 regularly plays through my mind. “They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength.”
The idea of mounting up with wings like eagles is exciting. The idea of sitting at home, lonely, staring at 10 loads of laundry? Not so exciting. Yet maybe, just maybe, we need more stillness in our lives. In that peace, perhaps our strength will be renewed.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; 31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
I know a lot of people like to quote Isaiah 40 and say that they are waiting on the Lord. But what they don’t understand is that this kind of waiting isn’t a passive kind of waiting. It is meant to be active. You should be actively pursuing the Lord always and that is when he will renew your strength. He isn’t going to just bring you whatever you want while you’re a bump on a log, it doesn’t work that way.
Comfort, comfort my people, says your God. Speak tenderly to Jerusalem, and cry to her that her warfare is ended, that her iniquity is pardoned, that she has received from the Lord’s hand double for all her sins.
A voice cries: “In the wilderness prepare the way of the Lord; make straight in the desert a highway for our God. Every valley shall be lifted up, and every mountain and hill be made low; the uneven ground shall become level, and the rough places a plain. And the glory of the Lord shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together, for the mouth of the Lord has spoken.”
26 Look up into the heavens. Who created all the stars? He brings them out like an army, one after another, calling each by its name. Because of his great power and incomparable strength, not a single one is missing. 27 O Jacob, how can you say the Lord does not see your troubles? O Israel, how can you say God ignores your rights? 28 Have you never heard? Have you never understood? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of all the earth. He never grows weak or weary. No one can measure the depths of his understanding. 29 He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. 30 Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion. 31 But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.