- i am lying in bed. my head is pounding and my nose is blocked. i cannot sleep. and somehow i feel cold again.

- tonight i went out and it was wonderful. i met my cousins wife recently, for the first time. she is lovely. i think she will be the making of him.

- i am not good with new people. especially when i’m the last to meet them. i am not sure what she imagines i think of her. i hope she knows it is only good.

- i want to be easier around strangers. more open. friendly. warm and inviting. i want to learn how to be this way all the time.

- i want to write less and live more.

- i want to think less and do more.

- i am not good at ramadan this year. and this saddens me. i am floating somewhere in the distance, away from everything and i do not know how to come back. to myself. to balance.

- i miss my parents. i miss coming home and knowing that they are sleeping in the room beside mine already.

- i want to be better than i am. in more ways than one. i want to be more.

Certain times to listen to certain albums
  • 1039/smoothed out slappy hours:when you're thinking about a special someone/crush
  • Kerplunk:when you feel lost/lonely
  • Dookie:when you're feeling full of anxiety/teen angst
  • Insomniac:when you want to prove yourself to someone
  • Nimrod:when you're angry
  • Warning:when you feel like you don't like the public or just don't want to deal with it
  • American idiot:when you feel like starting a riot/feel like you're somewhere you don't belong
  • 21st century breakdown:when you want to just scream and shout and set things on fire and let your stress out
  • ¡Uno!:when you're feeling sexual tension
  • ¡Dos!:when you're happy and feel like partying
  • ¡Tré!:when you're down in the dumps