Indescribable

Indescribable

As a writer, in every story I write I feel like I’m leaving out something really, really important, but I can never figure out what it is.

And I don’t suppose I’ll ever be satisfied with anything I write until I can get that indescribable thing onto my paper. 

And I know I’m not the only writer who thinks this way.

There isn’t a word to describe the way reading feels

I’m sitting here, with tears streaming down my face and I can barely think about doing anything than being here in this moment. Because even though I’m crying I feel amazing. I feel a million emotions and it’s charging through me and I love this, it’s so pure and real and I never want it to end.

Because this moment only really happens once, and it’s really hard to recreate. You can’t rewind time and forget what you read. The knowledge is there. You know everything, and next time you read the book, it won’t feel the same anymore. Because the best part of reading is not knowing. Living in that moment where everything you read is new and surprising and unexpected. 

I don’t want to do anything. If I could lay here, in this moment of discovery for ever, I would. I just want to lie here, avoiding sleep and people and the world, and just revel in this moment, because I’m never going to experience this exact feeling, for this exact book, ever again.

Okay y'all. Here's the thing.

Stop whatever you are doing.

Pause the movie or tv show or homework or whatever.

If you’re in public, attempt to go somewhere private.

If you’re with people, see above.

If you can’t, then do this in your head, BUT ONLY AS A LAST RESORT.

Here’s what you’re going to do:
If you are near a mirror, go stand in front of it. If you have your phone, turn on the camera to selfie. If you have a reflective surface near you, go look at yourself. Even if it’s looking at your reflection in a spoon.

Next, look at yourself. I know that sometimes it’s really hard to do so, but just look at yourself.

You know something? That person in the mirror is amazing. That person is beautiful. That person can overcome any obstacle they want. That person can kick the ass of whatever is holding them back or down.

Also.

That person in the mirror? They have the most beautiful smile in the world. You want proof you say? Simple.

Smile.

Go ahead. Do it. Look at that uniquely you smile. That smile is gorgeous.
You know something else?
So. Are. You.

If you’re standing in front of the mirror and negative thoughts keep coming into your mind, please, and say this outloud if you can (more emphasis that way) tell those negative thoughts to f*ck off. Tell them that they’re liars and that they’re vile little nasties that should be buried six feet under.

Next thing, or if you don’t want to tell off your negative thoughts, look at yourself in the mirror and compliment yourself. A good rule of thumb is two compliments for every negative thought. That way, the positive overpowers the negative, plus, if you do have a negative thought in the future and you don’t have time to or remember to replace the negative with a positive, you’ll have some in the bank.

Now, if all you did was scroll past this and/or not really believe it about yourself, go back up to the top and start over. Please.

And remember. You are so loved. You are so worth it. And you are so indescribable and uniquely you.