Impatience

I can’t wait for top surgery.
I can’t wait for the first moment that I’m happy with my reflection.
I can’t wait for the time I’ll never be misgendered.   
I can’t wait to be able to bathe without dysphoria.
I can’t wait to have battle scars to show the fights I’ve had to get here.
I can’t wait to never have to bind again.
I can’t wait to be topless in summer.
I can’t wait to be able to go swimming again.
I can’t wait to feel human again.
I just can’t fucking wait.

Currently reading: Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer

As an international student, I have had friends come and go, so I inevitably miss people. Soon I’ll graduate high school, leave for college, and have many more people to miss! Whenever it starts feeling unbearable, I’ll just remember this quote and be excited about how I’ll feel when I finally get to meet them again.

I hope you have the courage to pursue someone who is worth pursuing, and not someone who is convenient. Convenience is impatience disguised as your desires, you are worth more than what time has told you, you are worthy of finding someone who will wait for you; don’t settle for what is easy, settle for what is good.
—  T.B. LaBerge
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sabr + shukr,  in bloom
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Sabr (Arabic: صَبْرٌ) is the Islamic virtue of “patience” or “endurance”

Shukr (Arabic: شكر ) is the Islam term denoting “thankfulness”, “gratitude” and is a highly esteemed virtue in Islam

inspired by this article (linked):
“Either something good is happening in our lives and in which case – as Muslims - our role is have shukr. Or something bad is happening to us, something we dislike and our role here is to have sabr. This is the formula for a happy life.” - Sheikh Muhammad Alshareef

- Indeed, mankind was created impatient (Surah Al-Ma’arij, 70:19)
- Indeed, Allah is with the patient (Surah al-Baqarah, 2:152)
- If you are grateful, He is pleased with you…“ (Surah Az-Zumar, 39:7). 

The average American physician interrupts their patient in 14 seconds.
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Abraham Verghese

Holy crap is this ever true, and many of them interrupt very impatiently.  They’re so busy already thinking about the next patient they’ll see, at which point they’re thinking about the next patient they’ll see, that they often don’t concentrate on the patients who are right in front of them, and therefore never really see any of us in the here and now, and treat all of us as if we are interrupting their appointment with their future patients, who are interrupting their appointment with their future patients, and so on down the line until it makes no sense anymore for them to think they’re concerned about their time with any patient.  (Patients are expected to have infinite patience, doctors are not expected to have to have any patience whatsoever.)