I have to tell you something

So some of you might have noticed I haven’t been posting the stuff I usually do and that has a reason. At first it was mainly because I had no time with school and all and that I believe is fine. However because of that pressure I had from school I didn’t feel so good so I just ignored tumblr to kinda try to feel a little bit more relieved because it does take time to keep the blog running the way it normally does. On top of that I felt a huge social pressure in the way that everyone around seems to fall in love and have fun and all and I don’t seem to get that so I tried to kinda make it happen. Though my attemds to find someone I like (where I live there aren’t many gay girls around) it doesn’t seem to get better. My social life did improve a little which made things better. Overall I still feel overwhelmed especially with finals coming up and the overall social pressure still there. I will try and get back here as soon as school is over and I don’t have to worry about it anymore. I hope you understand. Thank you.

- Christy

i??????? feel so irrelevant being less active on here bc none of u remember me and my instagram posts aren’t doing as well and i’ve had to scrap footage of 3 potential youtube videos just bc the lighting wasn’t right and im not even getting any pity likes on any of my graphics work on facebook and these are all things that i enjoy creating and putting out there but they’re so negatively received that people have been taking the piss out of me for trying and not getting anywhere and it just

it sucks so much that i can spend 4 or 5 hours working on something to post it and only have 10 likes or smth??? im not asking you to give me money????? im literally asking you to spend a second pressing one button if you liked my work and still nobody does it and then they’ll come to me asking if i’ll do graphics work for them for free and i just hate how undervalued everything i do is

like i had my final exhibition today and i invited all of my family and some friends and the only person that showed up was my mum because she drove me there. a project i spent 4 months working on day and night and it’s not worth people coming to look at because they want an early night. like i could literally stop existing and so little would change in the world around me because i obviously create such little impact on anyones life?