Had this one as a sketch for awhile. Decided to ink it. I’ll update this when I have a chance to scan it properly. 

I’d like to dedicate this one to @el-yom, I don’t know you. But ive watched you put up with a lot of shit and not give up. And I admire that. I dunno if you like Ichiruki. But you’re in the tag a lot. So I’ll assume you do. Lol

Because This Needs Said

I wish to apologize to my followers for this. @el-yom, bless you for putting up with such asinine nonsense for so long. 

To @ichigorukiagreatfriends, The reader gets to decide how they feel about a character and their actions. And it is not up to you or me to tell them how THEY ARE ALLOWED TO FEEL AND REACT. 

I am not saying I think Renji is abusive. My argument is predicated on the fact that his actions could be interpreted that way by people. And it is entirely their right to think that. 

But I am sick of your defense against abuse, both mentally and physically. And your defense that police don’t commit brutality against criminals. 

It is entirely possible for a woman to be both mentally and physically abused. Even a strong smart woman. It happens all the time. For various reasons, both men and women subject themselves to emotionally and physically harmful relationships. IT DOES HAPPEN. And they subject their children to it too!

Let me give you an example: 

My Mother chose to marry my father. My mother is a very strong and smart woman. She’s taught me wonderful things, and she’s put up with a ton of shit. And she works her ass off to provide for her family. 

My Father is an abusive manipulative man. He makes you feel sorry for him. He makes promises, and tries to act noble. He tries to act like the friendliest, most loyal man. He spouts things like “Never raise a hand to a woman.” But at the same time he would beat me, his daughter, till she was covered in bruises and couldn’t stand.

My Mother. although smart and strong, has low self esteem sometimes. She’s been hurt. And she makes the wrong decisions. Because that’s what people do, they make mistakes. After having three kids with my father she divorced him. She tired to get custody of us, to protect us. But my father had a better lawyer and he won. 

Thus I was subjected to both mental and physical abuse the rest of my childhood, till I turned 18. And there wasn’t a damn thing my Mother could do to help us. My Dad had me and my brother’s so scared and controlled that we wouldn’t speak out against him. My Dad was a respected member of our city, being both a volunteer ambulance driver and trained medical emt. He also owned his own appliance company. People knew him and loved him for the man he showed to the world. But that didn’t stop him from having a cruel side, and a temper. As well as control issues. 

The one time I spoke out against him, and tried to get help. he moved me to a different city, and convinced everyone that I was a pathological liar. Then he continued to beat me. His new wife, my stepmother, was no better. She would work me to the bone, dump garbage in my bed, and steal my belongings. Among many other terrible things. I wish not to go into the details. 

My Mother could do nothing to help, because unless I was willing to stand up to my Dad, she had no case against him. And my Father had me too scared. 

Women, all the time, everyday, are put into terrible positions. and there aren’t any easy answers. The strongest women can subject themselves to unhealthy and harmful relationships. 

I don’t care if you ship Renruki. And if you think its good, then that’s your own opinion. But if someone else thinks it is a harmful relationship, then they are more than entitled to that opinion. You have no right to tell them otherwise. 

Renji, attacked Rukia. He hurt her. Whether or not she forgave him is irrelevant. Because women who have been hurt will often forgive and let their partner off the hook for various reasons. Poor-self esteem, poor relationships, the need for friendship. Rukia has few friends, Rukia has poor self esteem, Rukia has few supportive and strong relationships. Rukia’s behavior to look past Renji’s despicable and harmful behavior is in line with the behavior of average abuse victims. It’s what victims do. 

Renji ENDORSED Rukia’s execution. He was just gonna let it happen, even though he didn’t agree with it. He even fought against those trying to save her. He knew Rukia didn’t deserve death, and still he insisted upon hunting Ichigo down and Killing him so that he could not rescue Rukia. You could say this was Renji’s “job” but he was not ordered to hunt down and kill Ichigo. He acted on his own will. He may not have wanted Rukia to die, But he didn’t want to stop her execution either, and proceeded to assist in it’s fruition, ON SEVERAL OCCASIONS SINCE CAPTURING RUKIA IN THE LIVING WORLD.

Renji has proven that when the going gets tough, and he has to choose a side. He puts his duty, and his pride, and his own feelings above that of Rukia. His loyalty will never lie completely with her. And therefore she can never fully trust him. 

She may have married him and had his kid. But that does not make him a good father, or husband. And Rukia will have to live with the knowledge everyday that Renji could in fact turn on her and her child. Will it ever happen? Maybe, maybe not. You never know if Renji will ever be put into a position to choose between the woman he loves and his duty. But Renji has proven on several different occasions that Rukia in not the most important thing to him. A human Rukia knew for only a few months, had more balls, more resolve, and more loyalty to her, then her “husband” did. 

Whether or not she forgives him is irrelevant. Forgiveness from a victim does not absolve the attacker of any wrong doing. The wrong doing STILL EXISTS. HE STILL HURT HER and HER NEW BEST FRIEND, AND HIS FRIENDS. Just because Rukia says, she forgives him doesn’t make his actions any less despicable. 

Renji is scum. I like Renji, and I think he can be an interesting character. But he’s an awful friend. Plain and simple. He’s a guy who’s made some pretty shit-tastic and sleazy decisions. And if some fans do not wish to forgive him, and look the other way. That is good. It means they don’t put up with that kind of shit from people. From FRIENDS or LOVED ones. 

Rukia, a damaged woman, was written by Kubo to accept Renji. This does not make their relationship right, or good, or perfect, or okay. Kubo wrote a damaged woman forgiving a man who hurt her, and marrying him despite his despicable actions. Is this a healthy relationship? No, not at all. But it’s something that happens in real life. And it’s really sad to be honest. It’s not a happy ending. It’s reality. 

NO ONE HAS TO LIKE AND ACCEPT RENJI AND RUKIA’s RELATIONSHIP. You may like it, and think its okay, but that’s your opinion. Stop trying to tell people that they are wrong when they don’t like that kind of relationship. Just because Kubo wrote it doesn’t make it a healthy happy ending. Maybe Kubo didn’t want to give Rukia the perfect happily ever after? Maybe he wanted to write an unhealthy relationship. Maybe he was “just keeping it real.”  with such bittersweet unhealthy relationships at the end. But that doesn’t mean readers have to like and accept that. Stories don’t always end happily ever after. But it doesn’t mean fans and readers have to like and accept the ending as okay, good and acceptable. Sometimes stories just end with awful endings, and unhealthy relationships. People don’t have to like or support them! It just goes to show that some people don’t like that kind of behavior in a relationship, and they think the characters deserved better. 

Furthermore, Stop with this nonsensical crusade to defend Renji’s actions. They were WRONG. He was WRONG. Fans are within their rights to hate him, or hate his actions. You don’t have to hate him or his actions. But your crusade to defend his behavior as right and good just makes you out to be an abuse defender. Someone who thinks abuse is ok, as long as circumstances turn out the way that you like. 

There are many people who would have loved for my mother to forgive my father and re-marry him. But that would not have absolved my father of wrong doing. It would not have made everything he did okay. It would not have gotten rid of the emotional trauma I have suffered, or that my mother suffered. 

And it would not have made my parent’s marriage HEALTHY and ACCEPTABLE.

Saij Spellhart Out

  • <p> <b>Person B:</b> do you like me?<p/><b>Person A:</b> No<p/><b>Person B:</b> Then do you love me?<p/><b>Person A:</b> No<p/><b>Person B:</b> *leaves with tears on his/her eyes*<p/><b>Person A:</b> wait!<p/><b>Person B:</b> *Looks up, with hope reflected on the face and an upcoming smile*<p/><b>Person A:</b> I also don't care about you<p/></p>
The worst thing about becoming old

The increase of the number of my OTP’s. 


Reblog if your ships ruin your life.

Originally posted by aotroo

How To Read Fluff 101

1. Go to bed (fool everyone into thinking you’d actually sleep early)
2. Read.
3. Gently lay down your phone, tab or whatever device you’re using.
4. Embrace blanket to your chest.
5. Roll and lie on your stomach.
6. With your face on your pillow, let out the screams, giggles and stuff.
7. Once you’re a bit satisfied, roll and lie on your back.
8. Pick up phone/tab etc.
9. Repeat steps 2-9.