IT HAPPENS

Sometimes you’re okay and sometimes it’s 1:09am and you’re laying on a pile of blankets and pillows on the floor drinking cold coffee and listening to the playlist you made that night you sat at the open window when it was 30° just to hear the sounds of people on the street so you wouldn’t feel so alone and sometimes you’re okay but sometimes you forget that you’re the sun and the moon to someone and you wonder why you’re mom and everyone else used you and why it’s so easy for people to leave and sometimes you’re okay but sometimes you sleep with that boy with the big smile and painkillers in his system so you won’t feel so fucking incomplete and sometimes you’re okay but sometimes make your heart as cold as ice so when his new girlfriend looks at you you can smile without feeling the gaps in your fingers where his fit so perfectly and ignore the burning on your neck where his teeth would graze till you would get light headed and sometimes you’re okay but sometimes you’re driving down the highway and realize if you just ran off the ramp you could end everything now and sometimes you’re okay and sometimes you’re not but baby we’ve all been there and we all know it gets better. It ways gets better.