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i just found this and i think i might’ve just died a little bit inside, because i love peanut butter, and i wiggle my feet in my sleep, and i’m scared of darkness and i love decorating for christmas and sleeping late is my middle name. And i dont know if i’m perfect for him or if i am him :D

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“I think we’ve got such an eclectic bunch of people that listen to the shows and we’ve been really fortunate, the tickets sell really quickly, so you never know who those tickets go to, I think some people might be quite confused by it, I don’t think anyone realises that we’re not going to play any of the old stuff so that’s maybe why I think people might just go ‘well, this is a bit loud and and a bit grand. It’s definitely a bit grander, it’s quite hard going some of it as well. I laugh because it’s almost too serious, the record.” at @ Into The Great Wide Open

I never used to believe it when people said,

“The people who are heartless now once cared too much”

Until I realised, that once people left I said I didn’t care. Once you were fake, I said everyone’s fake so what? If someone cried I said to get over it because crying just made it worse. When someone said I should tell them what’s wrong I laughed. The moment someone said something rude I said something 5 times worse back. When someone asked for help I said no.

You know why?

Because I reached the limit of hearing lies. I reached the limit of being used. I didn’t want to be weak cause that’s when people use you. I didn’t want anyone to cry because that’s when it all gets too much.

I become my own person. I built a wall. If I think about it really hard I might get that this is just a show. But slowly, bit by bit, its becoming who I am. Independent, no vulnerability, no giving myself to anyone and not taking shit from anyone.

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I think we’ve got such an eclectic bunch of people that listen to the shows and we’ve been really fortunate, the tickets sell really quickly, so you never know who those tickets go to, I think some people might be quite confused by it, I don’t think anyone realises that we’re not going to play any of the old stuff so that’s maybe why I think people might just go ‘well, this is a bit loud and and a bit grand. It’s definitely a bit grander, it’s quite hard going some of it as well. I laugh because it’s almost too serious, the record.”

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“I think we’ve got such an eclectic bunch of people that listen to the shows and we’ve been really fortunate, the tickets sell really quickly, so you never know who those tickets go to, I think some people might be quite confused by it, I don’t think anyone realises that we’re not going to play any of the old stuff so that’s maybe why I think people might just go ‘well, this is a bit loud and and a bit grand. It’s definitely a bit grander, it’s quite hard going some of it as well. I laugh because it’s almost too serious, the record.”