Everybody’s favourite underrated characters for the Carry On Countdown
The strangest thing for me about falling in love with
a girl was that it felt exactly the same as falling in love with a boy. If I hadn’t known what that felt like, I
might have never understood what I was feeling towards Trixie.
been friends for years, spending more time with each other than with our
separate roommates, laughing and loving and simply being the two of us. It was like the two of us together was a
completely different thing from the two of us on our own. We became a new entity, one that we preferred
to our own selves.
I might have taken it a bit too far.
Because I fell. I fell hard.
it took me years to figure it out. Why I
would instantly heat up when she smiled at me, why my stomach buzzed when we
touched, why I would hear love songs and immediately think of her, why I
daydreamed about kissing her and what it would feel like.
didn’t tell her, because I also daydreamed about what it would feel like when
she rejected me, told me she only wanted to be my friend, told me she loved me
but not like that.
course, there was the chance she would love me back. I knew she was a lesbian, she had told me so
years ago. Incidentally, it was right
around then that I started heating up when I saw her, getting jealous when she
smiled at other girls.
the odds of her turning me down, of our friendship being ruined, were too high
for me to ignore. And I would rather
spend my life keeping my love to myself and being with her, than not seeing her
“Does Penny ever sleep in here anymore?”
really,” Trixie shrugged, “she just pops in to grab her books sometimes. I practically have the room to myself.”
must be nice.”
of course,” she grinned at me, “it means you can sleep over all the time.”
down to hide my blush.
also means,” she went on, “that I get to keep you all to myself.”
do you mean?”
mean, if I didn’t hold you captive in my room all the time, you’d probably go
off and get a boyfriend or a girlfriend and leave me all alone.”
because you love me the most, right?”
She flashed me her biggest smile.
course,” I said truthfully, saddened by the fact that she couldn’t know exactly
how deep my answer went.
flopped down on the bed next to me. “Out
of curiosity though, is there anyone
you would want to date right now?”
tried to laugh but it came out a choke. “What
is this, Truth or Dare?”
she agreed. “Truth: do you like anyone?”
I chicken out?”
took a breath as subtly as I could, hoping I didn’t look as terrified as I
felt. “Yes, I like someone. But it’s not going to work out for me.”
smile wavered. “Why not? You’re a perfectly wonderful girl, beautiful
too. Who would say no to you?”
captured her words in my heart to replay later.
“Someone who doesn’t like me back.”
do you know? Have you told them?”
you can’t know.”
shook my head. “It’s a bit more
complicated than that. I’m afraid that
if I tell them, and they reject me, that they’ll never talk to me again.”
dare you to tell them.”
laughed. “You can’t do that, I already told
a Truth, you can’t Dare me on the same turn.”
fine, my turn. But you should tell them,
and if they say no, tell me who it is so I can go set them straight for you.”
think setting them gay for me would be more effective,” I murmured before I
could stop myself.
sat up. “So it’s a girl then?”
further questions,” I glared at her, smiling.
“Your turn, Truth or Dare?”
she declared without a thought.
“Do you like anyone?” I cursed myself inwardly for opening this
door. The last thing I needed was to
find out she was in love with someone else.
But the words were already out, and she was already grinning shamelessly.
turn, one question,” she told me, and I saw her cheeks turn pink. “Truth or Dare?”
stomach churned as I realized what kind of a corner I’d backed myself
into. Trixie wasn’t going to let me go
without getting answers. I’d either have
to lie or tell the truth, and I honestly couldn’t say what I would do if it
came to it.
change my mind,” I fumbled. “Dare.”
she gave me a smug look. “I dare you to
tell me who it is.”
then I dare you to tell her how you
feel. No chickening out.”
can’t make me.”
I can,” she said solemnly, “it’s in the Sacred Pact of Truth or Dare.”
should I even tell her?” I tried to buy myself time, panicking more every
go up to her and kiss her on the cheek,” she shrugged, “girls love that kind of
thing, even if they think it’s platonic.
Then just go ‘hey, I think we should date’.”
that how you would do it?”
why haven’t you done it?”
smile faded from her lips. “I guess I’ve
been waiting for the right moment.”
I dare you to tell her,” I challenged, hating myself, feeling like I was
giftwrapping her for another girl.
looked at me for a long moment, her expression solid on her porcelain-like
face. Then, abrubtly, she sat up and
shifted nearer to me, until she was too close for me to see her clearly without
going cross-eyed, too close for me to think clearly.
took me a second to process what was happening, and by then she had already
kissed my cheek, slowly and soundly.
drew back, looked me directly in my wide eyes.
“Hey,” she said softly, “I think we should date.”
couldn’t breathe, my hand went involuntarily to cover my mouth. “This isn’t happening,” I whispered.
like you, Keris,” she told me without batting an eye. “I like you a lot.”
do you do that?”
tell someone how you feel about them without any fear of them rejecting you?”
deserve to know,” she shrugged, “the chips can fall where they may.”
leaned forward and kissed her cheek.
I pulled back, her eyes were shining, and I was speechless. I couldn’t say the line she’d given me, I
could only try to convey everything I was feeling through my eyes.
giggled like she couldn’t believe her luck.
As if she was the lucky one. As
if I’d ever been out of her league.
I was the one who’d been graced by a
miracle. I was the lucky one.
she kissed me, I couldn’t kiss her back at first because I was smiling too
But I recovered, and then I was kissing her like I’d been waiting my
Gary, sweetie, I love you so much and I’m so glad you’re confident now, but do you think that perhaps, just maybe, using a 9000-foot-long demigod as your first choice might be trying just a little bit too hard?
i just found this and i think i might’ve just died a little bit inside, because i love peanut butter, and i wiggle my feet in my sleep, and i’m scared of darkness and i love decorating for christmas and sleeping late is my middle name. And i dont know if i’m perfect for him or if i am him :D