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Text: Willa
  • colt:i didn't really think i had to. it's not everyday my only son is going to turn one. And i don't know, a birthday dinner, we get him a tiny cake and just do something small before the big party. we're still friends, we should be able to do that kind of stuff. But maybe instead of the whole tues & thurs thing, we each get him at weeks at a time, you know, split custody? I mean, how else could we really do it if you're just going to follow your hubby around.
  • colt:no, you're going to hate yourself and me if you do that. I know you want to see him before his birthday just as much as i do.

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“There was a car accident outside and the bodies smell so good but it’s sunny!” Rory wailed. You love that, Matt. You chose to place your affections on that. Congratulations.

His expression went blank… He was really expecting something… More than that. But no, she was crying because of cravings. Matt couldn’t think of anything else to do but hug her. There was no way in hell he was going to drag those damn bodies indoors.

“ I think you should rest.. Take a nap for a while and wait for the sun to go down.. You sound cranky. “

Okay, heads up, tomorrow (May 4th) Natasha is giving birth to her bab in the mainverse. What does this mean? Anyone involved in the mainverse can message me or tag Natasha in a starter with her in the hospital. I’m going to probably prioritize this over my other verses (nothing against anyone in those verses), because I’m really excited about doing this.

So anyone, in the mainverse, can

  • Visit Natasha in the hospital. 
  • Call, text or email her. 
  • Villains, if they want to be involved should message me so we can work something out that’s dramatic because I’m always for that. BUT PLEASE MESSAGE ME before doing that. 
  • Also anyone else in any of my other verses that has a canon relationship with Nat in the comics or if they really want to be involved in this can just jump in on an open.  

If you’re going to seriously post that you’ll judge someone based on something they won’t do or won’t reblog, then you should probably unfollow them already, or else ask yourself if maybe people don’t do those things because it would be mentally and emotionally detrimental to them.

Perhaps you should have some consideration and really consider your quick - and often arbitrary - assessment that their worth boils down to whether or not they reblog some post on tumblr.

anonymous asked:

I think I have Borderline Personality Disorder. I'm only 16 and I heard that psychiatrists doesn't diagnose personality disorders when a person is under 18. I'm afraid to tell my mom, because I don't want to worry her (my sister already has depression) and maybe it's just a fake impression or hormones... I really have most of symptoms: feeling empty, intense relationships, self-harm, fear of abandonment and rejection, paranoid thoughts... what should I do?

TW: Mention of self harm / self injury

Hey Anon,

While it’s uncommon for a psych to diagnose a personality disorder in someone under 18, it’s not unheard of. I’d definitely encourage you to talk to your mom about what’s been going on. Even if it’s something else, these are thoughts and symptoms that you should talk to someone about. Here are some tips for opening up:

~Christa

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#NoShameDay because I’m not and I will never feel ashamed for losing my leg when i had cancer, because a leg doesn’t define me as a person, because I am not a leg and it was a desition i made, it was my leg or my life, because I survived, because I did it and I finished chemo, because I don’t feel “incomplete”, because disabled people go through really hard things to ever feel like they are not enough just because of their condition, because we should never feel any less than any other person for any of the things that we have gone through physically or mentally, because even tho it was never easy for me, I learned to love myself and being comfortable with my own skin much more after losing my leg than I ever did before, because I am capable of everything anyone else can do but I just have to do it differently and it would be okay if someone couldn’t do something because, again, it wouldn’t make that person any less than any other person that can; because all disabled people should have access to good life conditions and to equal opportunities no matter what is their social, mental, physical or economical state, because i am learning to walk again with my new leg, because everything is coming up now, because we are real people with feelings and interests just like any other, because we can and we had overcome our problems or we are are still fighting to do it, because we are strong and amazing, because we matter, we have always matter and we always will

Okay so when I first heard the “blackoutforphan” or what the fuck it’s called, I really had to sit down because I thougt y’all were going to post phan all over the internet to get them (unneeded) recognition. Here is the thing, the hashtag is racist. I’m sorry to break y’all’s white hearts, but blackout is a thing to promote black beauty and nothing else. I’m not entirely sure what this hashtag even is, but it’s very misleading because of the “blackout” in the beginning. Dan and Phil are both white, well known, men and should not have any participation whatsoever in something even remotely close to “blackout”. 

Also; I really do hope that this fandom one day is going to stop treating Dan and Phil like children. Yes, it’s terrible they got mobbed. And no one wishes for that to happen to them, I get it. But, as mentioned before, they are grown men and they don’t need all of you to take care of them. They are aware of that 60% of the fandom is nice and wants them well, which they show by interacting with us etc. 

So by both baby-ing Dan and Phil and putting “Blackout” in a hashtag about them, you are dehumanising them and being very racist. The people who have called other people out on using the hashtag have only done right, and should not be classed as “bullies” or whatever you want to call them. Please think things like this through beforehand.

I was (indirectly) tagged by achillics. But really, I just wanted to procrastinate. Thank you! Tagging: the beautyisterrornet, tenderpotter, malphoys and vespeir. And anyone who wants to do this, really. <3 (Oh, and MYTHPOETRYNET people, because you all write so beautifully, I wonder how that looks like on paper). 

My house is so cold I am considering buying a heater. I am curled up in a hoody and a doubled-up duvet with my laptop on my knees and I’m freezing. My friggin’ nose is cold. In my room.

The reason I am not curled under more duvets, with nary a piece of skin showing to the horrible outside world? I’m trying to look at the first piece of work I have due in for my course.

(For those not in the loop, I am doing an MA Creative Arts Consultancy at Lancaster. Yes, it’s as stupid as it sounds, but that for another day).

This piece of work is due in about two weeks. And I have nothing else really to do. I’ve been complaining about having nothing to do. And now I do, I have no idea where to start. I’ve been browsing reddit/other parts of the internet for hours. I managed to start the process of telling the council I am not paying them council tax though. So that’s good, right? Sigh.

This coldness is not helping my attention-span.

Someone, please - tell me how to write a “Personal Development Plan”. Urgh.

Just FYI, unless something unexpected about AoU just blows me away, this blog and my fanworks will be an Age of Ultron Never Happened Zone. I’m going to completely ignore all of the plot points and events and reveals and all that crap from AoU and go about my shipping business as usual.

I’m not telling anybody else that they should do the same. But if you’d like to join me, I have a blanket fort and cookies. Come on in. The denial is great.

since I’m already ranting about stuff I may as well bring up this other tangentially related thing that’s been bugging me for a while too. I get really bothered by folks who insist that you should do things that make you uncomfortable because they benefit someone else. That if you really loved someone you would be uncomfortable for them (rather than thinking if you loved someone maybe you shouldn’t force them to do something they’re uncomfortable with)

like, ok, for example, specifically I got really bothered by some of the commentary that cropped up after “Fusion Cuisine” because a lot of people seemed to think that Pearl should’ve just sucked it up and ate food even though she has a pretty violent aversion to it. That if she really cared about Steven she would’ve done it and she’s a bad caretaker for not doing that for him. And, its like, why should she be forced to do something she’s openly averse to? Because Connie lied to her parents forcing Steven to have to have the Gems act ‘normal’ and not be themselves to preserve their friendship, to the point he guilted them into fusing which they openly stated they didn’t want to do and that it is difficult and not something they do lightly, to go to a mundane human event that they’re naturally uncomfortable with anyway? (and y’know, no one ever gives them credit for doing that for Steven, sure it doesn’t go as planned but they tried for him, they did something they didn’t want to do for him, but because Pearl can’t eat its not enough apparently, they need to completely give up who they are because it will help Steven? Please.) Why is Pearl’s affection for Steven suddenly on trial because of something Connie did? Why does she have to do something she hates and is terrified of to prove she loves Steven? Why would you even insist that someone you care about should do something they’re afraid of to prove they love you? (I mean, Steven didn’t, he told Alexandrite she didn’t have to eat and wasn’t upset at the Gems for screwing up the plan, so why did some people take away from the episode that the Gems, Pearl in particular, were in the wrong here?)

I get that its a weird aversion and maybe people just plain don’t understand that with some people, sometimes there’s totally normal stuff that you just can’t do. I’m a pretty particular person, I try to be accommodating about most things but there are some things, seemingly small and insignificant, that I can’t do. I know its ridiculous, I know I should be able to do it, but I can’t and I know its inconvenient to others that I can’t. And I loathe so much when people turn it into some kind of friendship trial and make it all about them. Don’t pit yourself against my weird problems and expect that’ll make me magically get over them because it won’t, you will lose and it’s really not fair to think I (or anyone else) can simply overcome a fundamental character trait just because its inconvenient to you that I have that trait

like, its great to step out of your comfort zone once in a while, try new things, and expand what you’re comfortable with but that’s really something you need to do for yourself, not because its inconvenient to other people that you’re uncomfortable with it. You can be motivated by other people but ultimately it comes down to you and I don’t think its at all fair for people to expect that if someone really loved and cared about someone else, they would do something they’re uncomfortable with. Either you can live with someone’s personality traits or you cannot, its not fair to force them to change or say they don’t really love you if they can’t.

tl:dr - the idea that if you really cared about someone you would fundamentally change an inconvenient trait of your personality for them or force yourself to be uncomfortable for them is really messed up.

Just walked upstairs carrying late lunch and a glass for water (I have a waterjug in my room - best buy ever). Of course, this necessitated me becoming

GLASS HAND GIRL!

My amazing superpower is that I have a glass over my hand which protects it from harm whilst being superbly see-through and fantastically useful in most activities!
Need to take medication? I can help you there!
Need to put out a fire? I can carry water for you!

Yes, this is how I live my days.

Also, this is totally worthy of being the first post in a while.

A Little About Me

Hi, your name is?
Alex/Alexander/Steve.

Who are you dating? 
no one right now, which is insane.

What were you doing at midnight last night? 
chatting with my exes.

Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
Probably not, but maybe tomorrow.

Do they know you like them? 
Maybe, I tell them, but idk if they believe me.

What are you wearing right now? 
nothing, but a smile. ;)

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? 
Yes.

Have you ever kissed “just a friend”? 
Umm…I don’t think so.

Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you? 
Fuck no.

Are you in a good mood? 
I’m in an okay mood.

Did anything “cute” happen today? 
My baby cousin gives Eskimo kisses, that’s pretty cute.

Have you ever gotten burnt by a cigarette? 
Nope.

What woke you up this morning? 
Myself.

How many piercings do you have? 
None, and don’t want any.

You’re thinking about her/him aren’t you? 
I’m thinking of a lotta hers.

Have you ever been kissed in a car? 
I’ve done SO much in a car.

What should you be doing right now? 
Idk, but not taking a survey while nude and listening to of Montreal.

Have you made another person cry in the past week? 
I don’t know. I hope not.

What was the last thing you saw on TV? 
Jackass: The Movie.

When was the last time you talked to the last person you kissed? 
Thursday.

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning? 
Chatting with an ex about my new profile pic on Facebook.

What were you doing at 4am
Sleeping.

Do you have a tattoo? 
No, but I really want one. It’ll probably be something funny.

What made you laugh last? 
I don’t remember.

Are promises important to you? 
They were, and then weren’t. So now idk.

Are you mad at anyone right now?
Not anymore.

When was the last time you changed in front of someone? 
Yesterday.

Do you correct people when they make spelling mistakes on the internet? 
Sometimes, if they deserve the humiliation.

Has anything happened to you in the past month that made you really mad? 
Yes, but I apologized.

Do you hate anyone? 
No.

Who do you have texts from in your inbox? 

Bryant, Kimberly, Colleen, Daniela, Diana, Natalie, Olivia, Alyssa, Marisa, Jessica, Savannah, Sydney, Maria, Leticia, Chris, Sarahi, Claudia N., Manuel, Araceli, Jennifer, Silvia, Adam, Linda, Johana, Benny, Claudia G., Erica, Carolina, Stephanie, Roxanne, Tori, Jennifer, Claudia M., Heather, Liz, Frank, Gracie, Janie, Gabriel, Brandon, Vanessa. Yeah, I’m a big texter.

Is it possible to be single and happy? 

It’s possible, but not preferred for this fella.

Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? 
Idk, but I would guess before the end of the week.

Have you ever seen your best friend cry? 
I don’t have a best friend. :/

I bet you miss somebody right now? 
Yeah, but I try not to go back to the past.

Who were you last on the phone with? 
Daniela.

Do you have children? 
No, I’m one of the lucky ones. haha jk

Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? 
Because I missed her so much.

Do you remember who you liked in grade six? 
This 8th grader named Vanessa. We almost went out till I almost fought her brother.

Plans for this weekend? 
It’s already almost over. Just another “Family Sunday Funday”. lol

Did you ever lose a best friend? 
Yes, always.

Do you prefer skinny or chubby bodytypes on the opposite sex?

I prefer normal, but I guess if I had to pick I’d say skinny.

Whose bedroom were you in last? 

Besides my own, umm…idk. Maybe my ex.

Have you ever moved before?
Never out of Austin.

How’d you get one of your scars? 
Burn marks on my left arm and right elbow.

Are you a cuddler? 
Fuck yeah. Not trying to brag, but I’m pretty awesome sexually.

Which do you prefer, to eat or sleep? 
Eat.

Are you feeling guilty about anything right now? 
Yes. How everything has turned out with all my lady friends.

Do you wish you were doing something else right now? 
Yes.

Can you speak any other language than English? 
No, and I don’t want to know any other languages.

Do you have trust issues? 
Yes, very much.

Explain why you last threw up?

Because I was sick, but that was years ago.