I-miss-his-pretty-face

i-dont-like-my-username asked:

YES, I 100% AGREE! I WISH TREVOR WOULD PUT OUT A NEW VIDEO/MUSIC IN GENERAL SOON. I MISS HIS PRETTY FACE.

I MISS TREVOR TOO. I LOVE HIP EP, HE SHOULD MAKE A MUSIC VIDEO TO SLAY😀

Alright, I need to get some rest. Got a lot done at the last
minute somehow. But yeah, Just a notice! I have work for
the next three days. So I won’t be on as much. Just a heads
up. I am also not accepting anymore starters until Monday.
Or my next starter call. Kinda got myself backed up and I’m
trying to manage my OC account too. But yeah, for now,
Good night my loves~

hngg, i feel like i dont have friends anymore

charlie is kinda eh because of what happened i know he doesn’t hate me but i do know he still loves me and it makes me a bit uncomfortable and idk waht to do. anita is too distant she doesnt like that im gay i think idk. christian ,, sigh. kev as well. i mean there’s brian and antonio but like i dont tell brian anything and antonio is my best man tbh so yeah he’s my one friend. quintana and diego are… school buddies, partners in crimes but not like bffs idk ok 

i wanna be friends with lucas because i miss him and im so in love with him stil but tbh im happy with what we have i just hope that when/if we skype i dont end up crying because i miss his pretty face and his soothing voice so much and he has caused me so much pain but i still love him 

shalyn is awesome she’s probably my friend as well i just dont talk to her much i dont have much to talk about when we’re texting but idk yeah, also monica is my friend but we dont talk about much either

also jun is distancing himself and its probably the age difference he might think its weird that a 16yo messages him idk also legal stuff tbh. same thing with aki. tbh i think that aki just sees me as their //patpat child u be ok ily but not like friend eh idk 

but yeah i feel so alone… i just, i wish i had someone i could fully be myself with again and i feel like this started when i came out of the closet and it kinda makes me wanna go back in the closet? but also idk how and… i dont want to. 

this is me thinking again that i dont wanna be gay i wish i were straight that way things would be easier a lot of shit wouldnt have happened? 

i really miss jun tbh he was like my best friend because it was so awesome cause he knew what to say and he was nice and awesome and we were friends but ??? idk what happened 


im so sad i just want friends please i want real friends