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I Don't Know.

I don’t know how to tell my White friends how I’m feeling this week…

I don’t know how to explain how having cops around has never made me feel safer, but rather, more likely to die that day.

That I worry that I will be shot for being in the wrong place at the wrong time.

That the last statement is not hyperbole. 

That the NYPD might come to the wrong apartment and due to the lack of repercussions, have no problem gunning me down followed by the media tarnishing my name. 

I don’t know how to explain that the reason I don’t fear death is because of things like this–because it can happen to any of us at any time.

I don’t know how to tell my good friends that championing for less-strict gun legislation inevitably means more racial injustice.

I don’t know how to tell my White friends that this is the reality of romanticizing the 40s/50s/60s.

I don’t know how to tell my White friends that I cried this week thinking of my 4 year old nephew and how his mother’s Stanford pedigree will not protect him from the countless people who want to hurt him simply because of the color of his skin.

I don’t know how to explain the overwhelming sense of pride I had being asked to host this week’s episode of Mental Floss on YouTube as substitute for the John Green and subsequently being torn to shreds by racists in the comments section because my “nose is HUUUUUUGE” and having people “turn off the video when I saw it was a Black woman.”

I don’t know what it will take for people to stop acting as if racism ended after slavery/in the 60s/with Obama’s election/when they got a Black friend, etc., etc.,

I don’t know how to make people understand the weight of growing up in a society that thinks you inherently are suspicious.

That being brown means I’m a target and that that’s just okay with everyone.

I don’t know how my White friends will ever empathize with the level of exhaustion I feel from simply trying to help them understand.

I am exhausted.

I don’t know how to explain how alleged shoplifting only results in death for Black bodies.

And how the false equivalence is so easy for some people to make.

I don’t know how to make the people who romanticize dystopian fiction realize that they have no right to turn a blind eye when it is a reality for so many people.

I don’t know how to be my usual funny, upbeat self when I am just. so. tired.

I don’t know how to not cross the line of being socially aware and being an “angry Black woman” when at the end of the day, I am actually very angry.

I don’t know how to explain to deaf ears that racism still exists in glaring ways that affect me every minute of every day.

I’m really sorry I’ve been absent this week. I don’t know…

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COMMISSIONS

So while commissions are always “Open” I periodically draw attention to them when I have a greater need of work! As it stands right now while my money troubles aren’t an emergency but on account of having had to cover a sudden energy bill I am skirting close to worrying territory and won’t receive more significant funds from shirt sales and such until April. I need to eat and transport myself to and from school every day and this can mean £10+ daily, adding up to around £70 a week just to get around.

SO, if you ever wanted to commission me, NOW IS THE TIME! I have temporarily lowered my prices and am also offering new options!

$40 will get you a full colour illustration like the ones featured above! This price stands until the 1st of April!

$25 will get you an illustration like the above but at a smaller size and less complexity, like a simple bust or an avatar/banner!

$15 will get you a sketch like THESE

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I will require payment preferably BEFORE any work is begun
We can also talk about more complex work for higher price points if you’re interested! THESE PRICES LAST TILL THE 1ST APRIL

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It’s taken some time, but I’m finally starting to love my body. I am 5'2 and I have always been the curvier girl. 

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I’m learning a lot about what it means to be a “thick” girl. It means my thighs are always kissing. It means there will never be a gap between them. It means uncomfortable friction on hot summer days. It means my body will often be interpreted as overly sexual. It means sometimes I just can’t get my jeans over the hump. It means I don’t fit into the bralette, the babydoll shirt, the strapless dress. It means people think its a compliment to say it looks like I’ve lost weight. It means I don’t fit correctly in Victoria’s Secret. It means I can’t squeeze into the one size dress at Brandy Melville. It means every pair of shorts is seen as daisy dukes. It means that some people will think it’s okay to say I look perfect when I never asked for validation in the first place. Being a thick girl means a lot. It means having skin tougher than most and spending each day embracing the parts that used to be seen as too much. Being a thick girl means being seen as too much. But I am learning to love my body the way most kids learn the alphabet; slowly, but with confidence.

Actual conversation between me and my mother.

Mom: his a fag right? *points to the TV*

Me: ….yeah.

A pause.

Me: do you have to say fag? people don’t like to be called that.

mom stares at me in shock.

Mom: really? My god, I didn’t know. I will never say it again, I’m sorry.

Pause.

Mom: what should I say?

Me: Gay, homosexual.

Mom: alright.

My mom is in her 40s and for her that was that. Just because you grow up with a different word or that not many people were openly gay before doesn’t mean you can just keep living in the past.

The world is changing, people who doesn’t accept that can just go to hell.

Love Notes (Part 2)

Your body against mine. Whether we’re asleep or having sex or I’m just holding you. I really like holding you.

When you’re the first thing I see in the morning. You look so peaceful when you sleep, Cas. Like a, well you know.

When hear you smiling over the phone and knowing I’m the reason why.

When you crawl on top of me and kiss me good morning, then just lay there.

That you’re a space heater, but you’re always freezing so you get 40 blankets and curl up against me with your damn cold feet against my legs.

The freckle on the inside of your thigh

The way you moan when I bite your nipples.

I like to remember the nights in the Impala when you just pop in and we drive for hours. I like pulling over and making out in the backseat. Or listening to you talk about the stars. Just because you can’t pop in anymore, doesn’t mean anything has to change.

You’re so damn perfect, Cas.

When you slip your hand down the back of my shorts at night.

I love your scar. I’m sorry you hate it. I’ve got scars too, baby.

I’m sorry for how I treated you for so long, Cas. I’m sorry I made you feel like I wanted you for your powers. I’m sorry I called you a baby. I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you when you needed me. That it took using you to realize how important you really were. I’m sorry you lost your wings for me.

I can’t promise I’ll come back to you, Cas. I can’t promise I’ll be whole if I do. All I can promise is that if I die, I’ll die loving you, and knowing that you loved me back.

I miss you everyday.

“Are you alright, Castiel?” Cas looked up from the note and met Hannah’s worried eyes.

“Yes. Of course. I’m just thinking about the mission.”

“What are you reading?”

Castiel looked down again at Dean’s writing and felt a small smile on his face.

“Just something important for me to remember.” He folded the note and put it back in his pocket.

“About Heaven?” Cas smiled in a way that Hannah had never seen. His eyes were far away when he answered.

“Yes, Hannah. Heaven.”

(Part 1)

(Long post; if you’re triggered by mentions of the Charlie Hebdo attack, you can press J on your keyboard to skip this lengthy post)

OK I am in a foul mood and I am cooped up in bed with paracetamol and a hacking cough, but I’ve been seeing shit on my dash today that’s made me want to punch a wall, and honestly, considering all my limbs feel like they’ve got lead weights attached to them right now, I feel like that could do some real damage. I have honestly seen posts on here saying stupid shit like ‘Charlie Hebdo was asking for the attack because they were racist’ and 'I understand why the extremists attacked because they were offended’ (paraphrasing, but the ideology is the same), and seriously guys, what the fuck? I mean, I stand for social justice as much as any person with a working moral compass, but I refuse to stand for murder.

My head is currently composed of 60% cotton wool and 40% throbbing, nauseating pain, but I will attempt to make some bullet points and hope that they make at least some semblance of sense.

  • it is perfectly possible to say 'yeah, you’re right, some of Charlie Hebdo’s drawings were actually kind of fucked up / racist' without also saying 'well, what were they expecting to happen if they kept drawing that stuff?’ Without meaning to draw false parallels, that sounds an awful lot like victim blaming to me. You can’t say 'well, their opinion was a bit funky really, they should have seen it coming’, because what you’re actually saying is 'they had an opinion I didn’t agree with, and that means their murder was justifiable’. And hey, guess what? That makes you a dick. A murder apologist dick.
    This viewpoint goes completely against the ideology of freedom of speech. Freedom of speech, often misrepresented as the freedom to do whatever you damn well please, simply means that everyone has the right to speak their mind. It means that if you have an avenue to express your mind or opinion (eg. a voice, a blog, an acclaimed satirical magazine) then you have the right to use these means to do so. Charlie Hebdo used their publication to do this. According to the laws and principles of freedom of speech - an ideology that is absolutely vital in this world - they were doing nothing wrong by printing their magazine, and they had an inherent right to do so. Freedom of speech is hugely, hugely important in a society where there are innumerable differing opinions, beliefs and ideologies. In a modern society, it is vital that we all have an equal right to stand up and say what we believe in. It is vital that one belief system or political idea is not given vocal superiority above another, and freedom of speech is the fairest way to ensure that this doesn’t happen.
    Of course, there are limits on freedom of speech as enshrined in law: hate speech, for example, is often outlawed (which means you can stop tweeting 'kill all Muslims’, but more on that later). However, Charlie Hebdo’s output does not meet the remit of hate speech (again, more on that later). Basically, according to both the law and the ideology of free speech, Charlie Hebdo were doing absolutely nothing that they didn’t have the right to do.
    Equally, according to freedom of speech, anyone who felt that the cartoons published by Charlie Hebdo had the right to say 'these are offensive, and I find them hurtful’. Many people did this in a peaceful manner, one that justifiably opened a debate on the purpose of satire and the limits of freedom of speech. What no-one had the right to do, however, was to kill the people who drew the cartoons. Freedom of speech doesn’t extend to freedom to murder. Freedom of speech is exactly that: the freedom to express an opinion that only you might agree with, and the freedom to say 'no, I think you’re wrong’ if you think someone’s talking bullshit. It is not the freedom to do anything about the differences in your beliefs except talk about them. This should be enough; for some people it isn’t, and that’s where extremism comes into play (yet again, more on that later).

  • it is also perfectly possible to say 'the people I really fear after this attack are people who will use revenge attacks against the majority of Muslims who don’t support terrorism' without saying 'I don’t fear extremists because not all Muslims believe in it’.
    Firstly, yes, we all need to take this time to try as best we can to protect and defend Muslims in the aftermath of this attack. Revenge attacks are a very real possibility - indeed, a probability - and they need to be prevented as effectively as possible. Like the aftermath of the Sydney terrorist attack in 2014, we need to use our resources and come together to stand against revenge attacks and ensure that bigots do not use these terrorist attacks as an excuse to enact their racist, Islamophobic violence.
    I live in the UK, and I remember the months after the attacks of 7/7, when anti-Islamic sentiments in the UK began to spiral out of control. Unfortunately, as is evidenced by the recent rise in popularity of right wing parties in Europe, Islamophobic sentiments have been lurking for a long time, and the attacks of 7/7 gave these violent bigots an apparent excuse to act on their ideologies. The unjustifiable actions of a tiny minority who claimed fallaciously to stand for Islam were plastered all over our newspapers and attributed to all members of their religion, and all Muslims were painted as extremists, or at least extremist supporters. There were instances of Muslims being kicked off buses and trains, ostensibly because people thought they were going to blow them up but really because they finally had an excuse to discriminate openly against Islam. That was completely and totally unacceptable and I remember feeling so, so angry that people couldn’t see that these were the actions of a handful of stupid people who were merely using their religion as an excuse. I remember my Muslim friends coming into school and having to suffer racist abuse, being called terrorists, and I sincerely hope that these past experiences will have taught us better how to protect our fellow people and not allow them to be subjected to racial abuse or attacks on the grounds that they belong to the same religion as a bunch of terrorists, who do not speak for their religion. 
    Secondly, the fact that not all Muslims believe in extremism does not mean that the fear of extremism is unwarranted. The fear of extremism is not the same as the fear of Islamic extremism. I agree that the fear of Islamic extremism is often used as a smokescreen for other equally harmful political ideologies, and therefore it is misinformed and bigoted to say 'I fear Islamic extremism more than [insert differing extremist ideology here]’ but to say 'I fear extremism’ simply means 'I fear people whose ideologies have reached a point whereby they will seek to harm those who do not share their beliefs’.
    Extremism comes in many forms; Islamic extremism is just the one that the media likes to focus on, because Islamophobia seems to be the idée du jour in the press and mainstream politics at the moment. The attacks in Norway in 2011 by Anders Breivik were an act of right-wing, fascist extremism. The attack on the Jewish Museum in Brussels was an act of anti-Semitic extremism. To fear extremism is not to fear Islam, unless you’re an ignorant bigot who refuses to acknowledge that Islam and extremism are not the same thing, and that extremism is not exclusive to one religion. Indeed, the very definition of 'extremism’ simply means to hold political of religious views far outside the mainstream of that particular ideology, to a point that societal moral standards are compromised. It does not mean believing in Allah. It does not mean reading the Qur'an. On that level, I fear Islamic extremism just as much as I fear Christian extremism and fascist extremism. Extremism is a valid fear as historically it has caused atrocities; fascist extremism was the ideology behind the Holocaust. To limit extremism to one ideology and use this as the grounds to fear a religion instead of extremism as a whole is not only grossly incorrect and racist, but dangerous in itself; fear should not be targeted at Islam, but on the idea of extremism as a whole.

  • it is perfectly possible to say 'I don’t think the satire used in Charlie Hebdo was always successful’ without saying 'it was obviously a vile, racist rag of a publication’. The ideas behind Charlie Hebdo were not, as many American users on here seem to believe, inherently Islamophobic. It seems to me that many people on this website have been misinformed as to the nature of the magazine. Charlie Hebdo is a left wing publication with a remit stating that it uses satire to denounce racism, homophobia and other right wing ideas that go against its ideology. The success of this satire is not objective; there are some people, myself included, who feel that its message was often lost in favour of shock tactics, such as the publication in which they depicted the Prophet Mohammed in a series of caricatures. There is an article here which expresses my opinion on that particular publication better than I ever could. The publication itself often satirises religion on the grounds that satire works best when it is used against an authority, and religion is an authoritative ideology which, like any other ideology, is not entitled to immunity from criticism and counter opinions. There is an argument to be made that Charlie Hebdo’s satire of Islam was unsuccessful (see the link above), but the point still stands that the remit of the magazine is to satire a broad spectrum of ideologies, including but not limited to Islam. To say that the magazine is broadly Islamophobic is to ignore the purpose of satire and indeed its other targets. However, the first point I’ve made here still stands: regardless of your opinion on their output, their output was not illegal and they did not deserve to lose their lives over it.

In short, to summarise: 

  • don’t say that the attacks on Charlie Hebdo were justified because you don’t like what the magazine publishes, because that means you’re either standing against freedom of speech or you’re equating freedom of speech with freedom to murder, and that makes you a dick

  • don’t say that extremism as a whole isn’t a problem on the grounds that not all Muslims are extremists, because that means you’re fallaciously equating extremism solely with Islam and that makes you both racist and a dick

  • don’t denounce Charlie Hebdo’s output and use this to attempt to empathise with murderers without doing your research on what the magazine is actually about, because that makes you not only a murder apologist dick, but a misinformed murder apologist dick 

  • people have died and people will continue to die over the dual wars between extremism vs morality and Islam vs the misguided idea that Islam = extremism, so get on the right side of both these wars, stop thinking that they’re the same one, and don’t be a dick

This doesn’t say anywhere near to everything I want to say on the matter, but I am now acutely aware that I appear to have developed a temperature and I think I should probably stop before I completely lose the ability to write coherently (well, any more than I already have). Apologies if none of this made sense. It looks like English on my screen, but who knows? Maybe I am hallucinating. My forehead is warm.

Clothing Sizes Don’t Mean Shit

Look, I know this isn’t my usual content but I’ll be damned if I don’t flip my two cents about this, because I know too many people who get sad when they see size adding up when they shop for clothes.

Clothing sizes don’t mean shit.

I’m a generous 40 in general, aka size 12 in the UK and 8 in the US. And I just squeezed my ass into a close-fitting 36 dress (8UK; 4US). And guess what, it fitted like a fucking glove. But I also have Large size dresses I barely fit in! I have Large size dresses in which I physically can’t lift my arms up!

As for pants, depending on the store, I’ll got from a 38 (10UK;6US) up to a 44 (16UK; 12UK). For shirts, I could be an XS in one store and a L in the store across the street!

Your body’s fine, boo, your body’s banging! It’s the fucken sizes that keep fluctuating, and you shouldn’t feel bad because stores can’t harmonise their sizes correctly! And even if you /did/ change sizes? Those size up pants look G.R.E.A.T on you, okay?

I’m sure you’re having a good hair day too, okay, bye.

“You’re so angry about this.”
Damn right I’m angry. I’m angry that lgbt kids get shoved into boxes, whether metaphorical or the kind of box you bury six feet underground.

Maybe we should be angry.
Maybe we should question why every fucking teenage love story between two LGBT kids is a forbidden one.
“I love you, but we can’t tell my mom”
“I love you, but I can’t risk getting thrown out, I’d have no where to go.”
“I love you, but my parents found out. I can’t speak to you again.”
“I love you, so I’m going to risk everything and find a way to talk to you.”
And how sometimes those things turn into;
“ I can’t live like this anymore. Keep going without me, ok? Just cause I can’t keep living doesn’t mean you can’t. I love you.”

Maybe we should question why 40% of homeless youth are lgbt.
Maybe we should be angry that every queer teenager I’ve met has been suppressed in some way by the people that are supposed to love them unconditionally.

Maybe we should be angry that “yeah, I came out and it’s like walking on eggshells now.” Is normal. I’m angry that abuse is a common factor in an LGBT kids home life. From harsh words to bruises.
From “I love you but I won’t accept this” to “you’re going to hell.”
So yeah, we’re angry.
We’re fucking pissed off.
Maybe you should be too.

—  A fed up kid
reasons why thomas jefferson is such a loser
  • besides his treatment of slaves and native americans don’t even get me started
  • owned a bunch of pet mockingbirds and his favorite one was named dick I’m crying
  • it took him 40 years to build monticello 
  • because he was super into hgtv and designed the whole thing 
  • btw monticello means “little mountain” in italian 
  • and the rooms are shaped like octagons bc he loved the shape what a nerd 
  • the rooms also have special handles so that he can open two doors at once i don’t even understand how it works
  • james hemings came with him to france, and tj promised him that if he learned how to cook french cuisine, he would be freed when he got back to the states my god is that not the most jefferson thing you’ve ever heard
  • he greeted people at the white house in robes and slippers
  • wrote over 19,000 letters in his life bc he has no life
  • basically the only good thing this fucko did for our country was dying 
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I thank everyone who has taken even a moment out of their day to donate or signal boost. There are a lot of expenses on the horizon to get me mobile again (I’m not even worrying about the phone right now), and I need to ask (beg) for your help. I have about 40% of these costs in savings right now, but it’s not enough. I need the Internet to do me a huge favour and help me out if they can. If you can’t, I understand. But if you can, please consider lending me a hand by donating to my Paypal, or sending me an e money transfer to enelson554@gmail.com. Thank you so much for reading. <3

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No, not this tattoo.

I’ve wanted tattoos for as long as I can remember, but it wasn’t until this year that I finally felt like I could make good decisions about what I’d permanently put on my body.

At first, I thought maybe I was too old, but when I asked my friends who have lots of tattoos what they thought, they all said that waiting until I was in my 40s was a great idea, because it means I…

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10 Tips for Surviving (and then acing) IB History

HL or SL, it’s the same kind of work; the only difference is that SL would be for 1 year, and doesn’t take the paper 3. This is a long post, but hopefully it’ll help those who would like it!

Context: my class was in a seminar style, so students made PowerPoint presentations with detailed questions from the reading and ran the class. My grade was determined by tests (40%) and participation (60%), so it was crucial for me to do well in seminars.

1. Know how and on what you’ll be tested.

This means looking at past examinations! Your teacher will most likely use past IB exams for tests, too, so you’ll be a step ahead because you know the format.

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Ageism VS Strangers VS Opinions

I’m looking at all this drama, and it’s ridiculous. Anyone and everyone can like a band, can blog about it, can make theories about it. It is that persons individual choice as to what they spend their money on. Now, I’m 14. I’ll be the first to say that I would not, for instance, give my number out to someone in their 30′s or 40′s. But does that mean I shouldn’t interact with them at all, that any conversation I have with them is manipulation? No, it doesn’t. No one on this site who is a minor (as I myself am) follows all internet safety rules. We give our names, ages, general locations, ect. out. But, we have all taken those internet safety courses. The main, most important thing that we are taught is this: you should not be on the internet if you are not mature enough to handle the internet, and to realize what is and is not safe. We are all warned against adults on the internet, against people who will steal our identities, kidnap us, murder us, stalk us, ect. But the truth is, anyone could be those people. If you are on this site, even if you only interact with people who say they’re under 18, they could be lying. People lie. Contrary to what we are taught, not everyone is out there to hurt us. In fact, the vast majority of adults in this fandom and elsewhere on the internet are simply there because they consider it a fun hobby. There are of course people who are going to manipulate others. There are kids who will manipulate other kids, and of course adults who will manipulate kids, and adults who will manipulate other adults. So where do you draw the line? Anyone could be faking their identity or catfishing, acting maliciously in some way. If you are on this site, you are expected to be mature enough to make judgements and decisions for yourself. There is a reason that internet safety laws ban people under 13 from having social media. That reason is because people under 13 are not, in general, mature enough to make those decisions. But maturity is not linked to age. There are 16yo who are more mature than 30yo. If you are on this website, blogging and interacting with others, it is your responsibility to know what/who is safe enough for your attention. My favorite quote is one people often link to larry, which is “People are people we live for our own, live by what you see not by what you’ve been told”. Always look at both sides of the equation, never take someone’s stated opinion as fact. Make your own observations. If someone is manipulating you on here, you are not mature enough to be here. I do not care how old you are, if you let yourself get into that situation you are clearly not ready to be online. Maturity is about keeping yourself and others safe, and if you cannot tell who/what’s malicious, you are not mature enough to be interacting with those who/whats. 

Now lets talk about age and its correlation to respect. Respect is something that is earned, and should always be mutual. I do not respect someone who doesn’t respect me, and vise-versa. While age should not define whether people listen to you and/or respect you, it does play in considerably. People who are older, simply, in general, have experienced more in life. Someone in their 30′s or 40′s who has had children is more knowledgeable than a teenager on pregnancy, for example. This is why we are taught to respect our elders. Now, does this mean we should respect those who do not deserve respect? No. If someone’s opinions and statements invalidate or discriminate, they do not deserve to be respected. But is ageism real? Yes. It is very much a double edged sword however, and that should be acknowledged. 

I’m seeing the drama between @lesbianslovelouis and @officialdarbus and this is what I’ve got to say. I don’t know @lesbianslovelouis very well, I don’t know her personal opinions on other issues. What I do know is that she puts time, research, and money into figuring things out about this shady-ass band. It is entirely her choice what she puts her money into, and it is in no way wrong for her to like larry/1D. Music is for everyone. I don’t know really if I agree with her theory about the doll being Freddie, but I do know that it is her choice to write that theory, and that there is nothing wrong with her speculation. She is not forcing people into agreeing with her, only presenting her opinions to the public and letting people draw their own conclusions. @officialdarbus it is entirely okay for you to show people things that someone has done, or said, that you do not agree with. But don’t accuse people of manipulation, or assume that just because of someone’s age that immediately makes them creepy or manipulative, simply because you don’t agree with them. Calling someone out for being racist, sexist, albiest, ect. is one thing. Attacking them for a physical thing they can’t help or for an innocent hobby is another.

Yes! It’s a really cute comic, and I follow the blog! It shows Chara as a really nice kid and it fills my heart with fluff and feels <3 I mean it’s not my headcanon, but it’s always nice to see others’ point of views!

IT’S.ABSOLUTELY.GORGEOUS!!!!!! NGAAAAAH!!! 

I just wish there was a comic of it… 

Well, yeah, you have a point…. but I don’t pay it much mind. Anywho, we can just look at loverofpiggies’ Aftertale comic, despite her having more than 40,000 followers, (or so I remember she stated), her pages barely get to 3000 notes… let’s just accept that tumblr is like this.

Flowey: “If you really don’t care, why would you like advice for caring? Not like I have one anyway…”

THIS IS SO NICE AND TRUE!! THANKS, I AM FILLED WITH DETERMINATION AGAIN!!! CERTAINLY, VARIETY IS THE BEST THING!!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeelllllll……… weeelly well well…. ABUSIVE is a pretty harsh word…. but… there aren’t siblings who don’t fight each other every once in a while… and in UF those fights would be more frequent and harsh than in a normal world… I’m not trying to say that they openly HATE each other, but…. just don’t say that you don’t want any rude words and stuff from them, because that would be… unrealistic… at least for me… sorry about that….

That would be self-insert and I’m not really a fan of that…. and it would trash my precious Papyton…. soooo….

If you’re gonna be my friend you have to be okay with the fact that at some point I am going to text you about dragons. And I don’t mean one text, I mean for like 40 minutes I am going to text you about every dragon I can think of. And if you aren’t hip with that then no hard feelings man, but this ain’t gonna work out between us.

DO YOU SEE THIS SHIT? ARE YOU LOOKING AT THIS SHIT? GUESS WHAT IT IS, FAGGOT. THIS IS A MOTHER FUCKING QUICK-FIX YOU PLEBIAN, AND THIS SHIT HAS GOT IT GOING OOOOOOOOOONNNNNN.

LET ME ASK YOU SOMETHING, ASSHOLE. DO YOU PLAY WITH THIS FUCKING THING? NO?

FUCK YOU.

YOU DON’T KNOW SHIT ABOUT SHIT, FUCKER. THIS THING IS A FUCKING GOD SEND WHEN YOU PLAY IT RIGHT, ASSHAT. 

THIS THING HAS A FUCKING +40% HEAL RATE. YOU CAN HEAL YOUR TEAM MATE AT A FUCKING FASTER RATE, BITCH. HOLY SHIT. THAT’S FUCKING COOL. YOU MEAN I CAN BE A FUCKING BRO AND HEAL MY DYING TEAM MATES QUICKER? TALK ABOUT BEING FUCKING AWESOME. HOLY SHIT.

LIKE THE KRITZKRIEG, THIS THING HAS A FUCKING +25% UBERCHARGE RATE. HOLY SHIT. I CAN CHAAAAAAAAAAARGE MY WAY UP A TEAM MATE’S ASS AND GIVE HIM THE ULTIMATE HEALING OF HIS BRO LIFE. YOU HEAR THAT, BROS? HE’S GONNA BE BROKAY.

THIS THING’S UBERCHARGE IS A 300% IMMUNITY RATE AND A FUCKING IMMUNITY TO FUCKING MOVEMENT-IMPAIRING EFFECTS. THAT FUCKING AIRBLASTING PYRO? FUCK HIM. THAT FUCKING SOLDIER TRYING TO BLAST YOU WITH A ROCKET SO YOU CAN BOUNCE BACK? FUCK HIM. THAT SCOUT WITH THE BITCH-A-NATURE? FUCK HIM. THAT DEMOMAN WITH HIS STICKIES? FUCK HIM. FUCK THAT SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT.

OH, AND YOU CAN RUN AS FAST AS ANY FUCKER WHO IS FASTER THAN YOU WHEN YOU HEAL THEM. I CAN BE THE BITCHIN’ SCOUT MEDIC IF I WANTED TO. FUCK ME.

THIS FUCKING THING’S ONLY DOWNSIDE IS THAT IT HAS A -50% MAX OVERHEAL, BUT WHO NEEDS THAT SHIT WHEN YOU CAN HEAL ALLLLLL UP THEIR ASS. FUCK THAT SHIT.

ALSO, IF YOU POCKET SOMEONE AS A QUICK-FIX MEDIC, pardon me and my French, but YOU ARE FUCKING STUPID. YOUR ONLY FUCKING JOB IS TO FUCKING HEAL PEOPLE AND GET ON WITH YOUR PATHETIC LIFE. YOU HEAL PEOPLE. NOT SOMEONE’S BUDDY-WHORE. DO YOUR FUCKING JOB, NURSE BITCH-SHIT.

SO THE NEXT TIME YOU SEE A FUCKING QUICK-FIX MEDIC, AND THEY ARE HEALING PEOPLE AND DOING THEIR FUCKING JOB, GIVE THEM A FUCKING SANDVICH. THEY EARNED IT, BITCH. YOU CAN BE A BITCHIN’ HEALIN’ MEDIC TOO, IF YOU DO YOUR JOB, FUCKER.

HOT DAYUM.

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Now I knew that my waistbelt and water bottle was a good idea when I bought it…. Just a shame I didn’t think to actually use it today when it’s super hotter than usual.

- Spent almost 99% of my time trying to find a quiet spot for a selfie heh

- You might wonder why I posted my 40 minute 5k but on wednesday it was 44 so I am preeeeetttty proud of myself

- I did take little rests but I can improve on that quickly

- The canal was super busy and people just kept looking at my boobs like what even is that, do you expect me to wear a jumper. It just felt like a sea of mean anons

- Geese were swimming along side me it was super cute

- Adam and I are going out for dinner and the movies tonight yay.

- My run time can only get better and WILL get better!

Hello everyone! As a celebration for my recently reached goal I decided to do my first BOTM ^.^
But because I know that I´m already way to late for June, this BOTM is for July!

RULES AND OTHER STUFF

  • Must be following me (I mean, after all, this is for my followers!)
  • Reblog this post to enter (likes won´t count but can be bookmarks)
  • Must reach 40 notes to happen
  • Ends June 30th
  • Winners and Runner-Ups will be announced on July 1st
  • There will be One Winner and Two Runner-Ups

WHAT I´M LOOKING FOR

  • Fandom and Multifandom blogs
  • A nice, friendly and active blogger who appreciates their followers
  • A beautiful, nice to look at and easy to use theme
  • Navigation page and tagging system is always a plus!
  • Awesome posts and a cool URL

WINNERS WILL RECEIVE

  • A follow back from me (if not already)
  • Unlimited promos at request through July
  • A link in my updates tab for the whole month
  • A place in my (soon to be added) Hall of Fame
  • A “checkout my BOTM” link on any promo, rates etc. I do
  • A URL Graphic
  • Help wherever needed
  • My undying love and friendship

THE RUNNER-UPS WILL RECEIVE

  • A follow back from me (if not already)
  • One promo a week per request through July
  • A link in my updates tab for the whole month
  • A place in my (soon to be added) Hall of Fame
  • My undying love and friendship 

That´s it! Good luck <3

alright fellas so this might mess up but i’m near 4k so (▰˘◡˘▰)

R U L E S ;

*:・゚✧ follow this lil shit
*:・゚✧ reblog this post, no likes pls!!
*:・゚✧ must reach 40 notes or i’m gonna cry nice
*:・゚✧ you can enter till 19th may!!! i mean it’s 48 hours so
*:・゚✧ there will be 1 winner and around 3 runner-ups!!
*:・゚✧ mm kkk k that’s it bye

C A T E G O R I E S ;

*:・゚✧ url
*:・゚✧ theme
*:・゚✧ posts
*:・゚✧ original content 
*:・゚✧ multifandom 
*:・゚✧ aesthetic
*:・゚✧ nicest blogger
*:・゚✧ personal favourite

P R I Z E S ;

winners
*:・゚✧ a follow from me if not already!
*:・゚✧ 3 promo’s on request
*:・゚✧ any requested edit
*:・゚✧ a place in my updates tab

runner-ups
*:・゚✧ a follow from me if not already!
*:・゚✧ 1 promo on request
*:・゚✧ any requested edit
*:・゚✧  a place in my updates tab

and yeah!!! that’s prolly not it, but im a fucking twat so ignore me!! good luck to y’all bye!!!!!

terrible graphic bc im too lazy

hola friends so uh welcome to my first ever tumblr awards wow

i thought i would do this in celebration of fINALLY getting all of my followers back and also in celebration of going to asylum 14 i mean what

so yes here are the rules:

  • mbf this excited loser
  • reblog this post
  • supernatural blogs only (can be multifandom)
  • reblog by 10th of september
  • reblogs only; likes don’t count as entries
  • must get like 40 notes or something idk or i will cry in shame

THE AWARDS:

  • best url
  • best domain
  • best theme
  • best icon
  • best supernatural
  • best posts
  • nicest blogger
  • best up-and-coming***
  • best overall

+1-2 runners up depending on whether i get enough notes

***for the up-and-coming award you must have under 600 followers - make sure to message me your follower count if you want to be considered for it

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WHAT WINNERS GET:

  • a follow from me (if not already)
  • 5 solo promos / screenshot promos for whenever you want
  • a place on my blog
  • a request for a fic/graphic/whatever else you can think of. although i would not advise art. i suck at art lmao
  • my eternal and undying love

RUNNERS-UP (if any):

  • a follow from me (if not already)
  • 2 solo promos / screenshot for whenever you want
  • a place on my blog
  • my eternal and undying love

so yes i think that is all if u have any questions just message me; go ahead and reblog amigos ♥