I-feel-the-break

anonymous asked:

PLS POST MORE RANDY+ARLEEN IM DYINGGGASDFGJKL

PLS I NEED SOME REST! FOR THE FIRST TIME THIS YEAR RANDY ISN’T BUZZING IN MY HEAD AND I FEEL FREE TO TAKE A BREAK, I’M EXHAUSTED AFTER THIS DAMNED WEDDING MORE THAN I WAS AFTER MY OWN!

I’m tired.” she said. “I’m tired of pretending to feel empty about everything. I’m tired of laughing at people when they assumed that I don’t feel anything at all. Because of course, I feel something. I almost feel everything that it suffocates my whole being. I feel it when someone slowly losing interest in me as if they were clouds—fading in the sky during warm summer days. As if they were colors melting their brightest shades. I feel my heart breaking when someone continuously pointing out my mistakes that it erased all the right things I’ve ever done in my whole life. As if everything went blank, and I need to start doing something again that will make them proud. I feel people’s words touching what’s deep within me. Especially when they were the people who were important to me. Especially when they were the people who I always expected to understand the real me.” she looked down at her hands catching her breath heavily. She wasn’t used on opening up her heart to someone. She wasn’t used on telling everything that’s on her mind. Yet she knew, this was the best thing she needed to do. That this can ease the burdens she’s been lifting up for too long. She sighed slowly, then she said, “I just want you to know, that even if people tried to pretend that there’s a black hole inside of them, they will always end up touching their chests and feel their heart beating.
—  ma.c.a // Can you really see me?
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GIVE IT UP FOR 3000+ FOLLOWERS!!

Thank you so much for the support! I’m honestly happy that this many people are interested in this blog! Running it has been a fun ride from the very beginning, and I don’t see it ending anytime soon. Also, I reached a moment right now in which I feel like I’m breaking through with my art style and process, and getting closer to what I want to do – so all the more reason to celebrate!!

- Mod

Update: now with a canon!Katsuki edit (x)

The most hauntingly beautiful version of trees that ever existed.
Everyone needs to listen to this I can feel my heart breaking Tyler has never looked better and Josh is playing the synth I’m thriving.

I see a lot of sadness on my dash

So I want everyone to cheer up a little and remember that Mish will be back next season as a regular and that this is confirmed.

Also, I made a list of great things about to happen:

  • We will see the fucking Gag Reel!
  • Comic Con Panel
  • JIBcon and Cockles Panel!
  • The more emotional than ever reunion of Dean and Cas at the beginning of s13
  • Hiatus Beards will be grown
  • Gishwhes madness
  • All the cons are coming, there will be lots of photos from ops and videos

As for the show itself,

  • We just saw Dean mourn over Cas’ dead body and fall to his knees in shock and despair guys do you really think they would just do a “welcome back bro” thing after that come on it’s gonna be awesome when he comes back
  • Cas might come back human
  • Even if any supernatural being wont bring him back dean winchester sure as hell will
  • We will definitely see more of the apocalyptic alternate reality
  • The nephilim feels connected to Cas for some fucking reason, he might want him alive and bring him back immediately.
  • Deancas // Samjess i mean it was obvious and thats great
  • Cas said dean even tho there were 2 more members of his family there
  • Dean fell to his knees do you understand that
  • Sam looked at dean, looked at cas, looked back at the house and left dean there to mourn because he knew.

this is all progressive good stuff, i feel hopeful about all of it. I feel like they are gonna break and finally do something about the built-up emotion. i …. have faith (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧

How can I
follow my heart
when my feet
buckled every time
I feel it breaking,
how can I follow
my mind
when I am always lost
in overthinking.
And maybe
it was just right
to go wherever
my soul is leading me.
—  ma.c.a // Now, They Say Follow Your Soul
What are you supposed to do when you are falling in love with someone, and your whole body is being drained. What are you supposed to do when you feel yourself losing your sanity because you feel so empty by the end of the day. How are you supposed to explain how you feel to someone who feels no where close to how you feel about them. I’m loosing myself trying to love him. I’m losing my sanity, because I’m so caught up with him. I wait by my phone, waiting for another text, and it’s never quite fast enough. I feel like I care more, I feel like I want this more, and I feel like he doesn’t give a fuck what happens to us. I feel like i bother him constantly, I feel like I annoy him every time I overreact. I feel like he’s soon going to get sick of my uncertainty of myself. Eventually he’s going to forget the reasons why he ever fell for me in the first place. I’m waiting for this heart break to come, just like our over due earth quake.
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when did we drift so far apart? (insp)

I saw a few people in my recent tags asking HOW and one kind sweet user asking what bears the most money so I’m going to share my success story. I’m tagging @alice-elizabethscott , @xxkalleexx , @drunkenwhaleer , and @seismitoadsbutt,    cause I saw y’all in the notes There were a lot more but they were anons

SO Y’ALL WANNA KNOW HOW TO DO THE THING? LEMME SHOW YOU

You will need a game year, roughly 928 Starfruit seeds, the greenhouse, 6 iridium sprinkers, as many kegs as you can possibly craft, 157 casks, your favorite music, and a LOT of patience.

I’m putting it under a readmore because hot dang it’s a long post. It woudln’t be as long but I wanted to put pictures in 

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When you think about it, it’s a bit fucked up how autistic people are ALWAYS supposed to accommodate NTs’ needs and expectations, no matter what it can cost us. They want us to act like them, to be like them and if we try to do otherwise, it’s almost criminal.

Break time at work is one of those expectations. You’re supposed to share your break time with your coworkers, to talk with them, to actively participate to whatever conversation they’re into and to look like you’re actually interested. 

But, like… It’s a break. It’s supposed to allow us to rest our minds and our bodies a little bit. We’re supposed to feel better after that and to be ready to work again. But I don’t feel rested after these breaks. I’m not feeling less stressed. On the contrary, I’m anxious and tired as hell.

There are at least 3 conversations at the same time. I can’t focus on one of them, because I’m hearing all of them at the exact same volume and the voices are mixing together into an unbearable noise, barely understandable. 

I just want to move my legs, to put my hands on my ears and to stim vocally because it’s what usually help me to drown the noise.

But I can’t. Because it would be weird. Because it would shatter my Neurotypical mask. Because break time is supposed to be fun and to enhance relationships between colleagues. 

You don’t participate or you’re not doing it in the right way ? It means you’re not a Team Player and it’s bad. Like bad enough to get you fired.

Sigh… Sometimes, I just want to scream to make them stop. To enjoy a little bit of silence. I have this fantasy scene playing in my mind, over and over :

Originally posted by yourreactiongifs

[gif of Chandler from the tv show “Friends”. He’s hiding behind a couch and he’s screaming at the tops of his lungs “Shut up !!! Shut up !!! Shut up !!!”]

But of course, I can’t do that. I just have to… deal with it. And to have some spoons to spare only for break time. The break time where i’m supposed to feel rested… Sigh.