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I drive with silence.

It’s a lonely road, and one I never thought I’d travel. I never would have imagined this to be my path of life. It’s been an uphill struggle, with sharp bends and sudden dips—sometimes I lost sight of the top of that hill.

But it’s the hill I chose to climb, and now… here I am, at its peak, looking back into my past. My perspective has changed. Here I am, at its peak, and I’m not looking up anymore.

(Have I left you behind? I reach out, can you take my hand? But everyone is still climbing their hill—I’ve reached the top of mine.) Here I am.

Where do I go now? There’s no more path, no more road to travel, not like the one I had. Will I ever get that back, that path towards something?

Where do I go now?

I’m wandering. I’m lost.

Can you see me, from the top of this hill? Can you see who I am?

See who I am. I am what I love.

And I love you. I love what you do; I love who you are. Each and every one of you—a unique and individual human, climbing their own hill. So take my hand, and we’ll walk this next path together.

—thoughts and feelings from @markiplier’s “I Feel Lost

Semi-hiatus notice

After much thought, and much beating up of myself, I am moving Fin into a state of semi-hiatus.  This is for my own physical and mental health.  I will still be around, and doing some replies, but most of my activity will probably be on endy-mixn.  For more information, look under the cut.  I don’t want to bore you all with the details if you do not want to read it.

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Fanon Lotor be like

i am not even sorry just take this

Okay, but one of my favorite things about the entire canon pole-dancing scenario is the professional pole dancers commenting on Yuuri’s and Chris’s moves, saying that:

“You could do Yūri’s moves in maybe a month. Some of Chris’s moves can’t be done even by people who’ve done this for years.”

And you know what

comparing them

they’ve got a point.

Headcanon time: Pole dancing is Chris’s hobby and he’s been doing it since he was about 15. It’s his way of staying fit apart from skating practice. He works part-time in Switzerland’s most expensive clubs.

Meanwhile Yuuri decided to give pole dancing a shot when he moved to Detroit, but quit after a month, having decided that it ‘wasn’t for him after all’.