I realize this is tmi, but I don't know where else to look for answers. I'm dfab, always identified as a woman, but as i got older (currently 21) i began dressing more neutrally because I liked dressing both feminine and masculine, and I realized that I don't really like my downstairs area, like, at all? And now I'm questioning everything and I don't know what to do. I don't know if I'm fluid or nonbinary or if I'm even that. Any advice?? Am I blowing this out of proportion??
You’re not blowing this out of proportion. Loving your body and being comfortable in your body are very important things. But, it sounds like there is still some exploration to be had here. You’ve realized some things about your body, but there are still some things that are unclear.
So, you job now is this: attempt to make your exploration as loving as possible. You don’t have to have any sort of “right” feelings about your body, you just need to be kind to yourself as you explore. Take the urgency out of the exploration. Get still. Get quiet. Go one small step at a time. 💛💛💛💛