((so it seems that i accidentally deleted this too, mobile tumblr is ass ain’t it? Other than that nothing is different, just need to make sure i don’t delete posts on accident. Next update is coming, should be out by the end of march))
((to the anon asking for odasaku and dazai angst, i am so sorry, i had like five long-ass paragraphs written out and just. misclicked and deleted everything by complete accident. i’m rewriting as quickly as i can <3))
I just wrote something on here and deleted it by accident. I almost wanna cry because I wanted someone to feel like they knew what I was talking about.
maybe I can remember
I said something like
I’ve lost a lot of friends… not physically
I’ve lost the interest in wanting to know about them anymore.
most of that is due to growing apart and fading away, lack of communication. and the other part of it is because in was either forced to, pushed away.
then I said something like
I want to live in my own world, and eventually I will get there, I’m learning and I see progress. but I can honestly say I’m living in a million other people’s worlds. I appreciate and want consistency.. in friendships, relationships, consistent focus and growth and success..