On Friday night you went in to the emergency room.
On Friday night I dug out photographies to put on the wall, layed them all out on my bed. On the bed was also one of your post cards from South Africa, filled with only one word written a thrillion times across the card.
A four letter word,
I also put up a few other memories I have with you, the letter I got at a hotel in Copenhagen on my 25th birthday, a letter I read over a panoramic view over the city before popping the champagne you had ordered up from the room service (although being in another country). A letter signed with Your soulmate, sister, watermelon and amazon women.
Our friendship has taken different turns and bumped in to turns too, since that day I greeted you in the morning while you looked at a room in my apartment for rent in London. Still, in this very moment, I can feel the strength of the bond I have with you. No matter what doubts I have ever felt. This, now, is what truly matters.
We’ve come a long way and I’m impressed that although this friendship has been a distance relationship for three years out of four, it’s the strongest bond I have with another person.
On Friday night I still did not know what was going on, but there you were, on my mind while I did the collage. Life’s funny that way isn’t it?
To get ugly news like this over a text message sucks, that the ticket to Cologne costs more then I can afford sucks too. This is probably the only moment in life I wish I was a millionaire [or had a sugar daddy/mum]. There’s so many times that this distance thing is disgustingly hard. Especially when somebody gave you a soulmate that likes the highway more then anything. At least I put you right in the middle of it on a pedestal (I just never told you).
The only thing that makes me happy right now is that you’re getting better, that you have your man that takes care of you, and that through him I can send you that hand squeeze and forehead kiss I so badly wish to give you.
They say you like Rihanna and Peonies. I would say that’s perfectly true, and I’m one of the two.