I-AM-IN-TEARS-AGAIN

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“Kyosuke Kuga, third-year. I wish to return to the Stride Club, effective today.”

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Inside Reign: Syd & Pinoe

-So you guys do seem like you get along pretty well.
-No.
-Not really.

As I sat in the dark
I felt that old feeling
The familiar sensation
The good friend called loneliness
Start slinking back to me
At first it whispered
Its presence filled the room
The cold emptiness washed over me
And brought the hole in my chest
The tear stained pillows
The sleepless nights
The endless worry
It dragged me down
And just when I gave in to the ache
And my shoulders started to shake
Aloneness grabbed me and kept pulling me deeper
Never to be brought back to the light.
—  Written by Me ( evanescentbeings )
  • but let’s talk about coming creevey
  • muggleborn who grew up with fairytales
  • who read about knights in shining armours and wanting to be one so bad
  • who was told that he was a wizard and his parents didnt believe the lady in the green hat for a long time but colin didnt need convincing
  • WHO CRAMMED HIS HEAD FULL OF EVERY BOOK HE COULD FIND ABOUT THE WIZARDING WORLD AND WANTED TO KNOW EVERYTHING
  • who could not stop talking about hogwarts the summer before his first year because ‘mum dad this is real im going to see unicorns and mermaids and see real life magic mum dad im going to learn to do these things’
  • 'mum dad there’s this boy in this book called harry potter and he defeated the darkest wizard of all time mum dad he’s a year older than me MUM DAD WHAT IF HES AT HOGWARTS’
  • going to hogwarts for the first time and he’s tripping over his own feet at the platform and ’don’t worry dennis i promise i will take lots of photographs for you when i come home for christmas' 
  • not being able to carry everything on his own bc he’s just so tiny and struggling to get his trunk and his things on the train but his camera falls out and this redhead girl picks it up for him with a bright smile 
  • the sorting hat sitting on his head trying to work out what house he should be but colin has already seen harry potter and he already knows he wants to be a gryffindor so bad
  • taking lots of photographs of everything at hogwarts, especially harry potter, because he wants to remember all of this all and he wants to show this all to his little brother
  • getting petrified when he’s only eleven but he can’t remember any of it and he couldn’t go home for christmas or the easter holidays because he was lying in a hospital bed
  • learning that magic wasn’t always good and it was a hell lot dangerous than he signed up for but he doesn’t care
  • going home and telling his parents and brother that 'no its okay im okay i promise it was great’
  • telling his brother that he was going to be so excited until his parents told them that he should stop talking about it so much around his brother since the lady in the green hat said it was rare for even one wizard to appear in a muggle family, let alone two
  • colin not doubting for a second that his brother wasn’t a wizard
  • defending him to death ’no mum he’s a wizard just you wait i know he is’
  • getting told that wow indeed both of the brothers were wizards how extraordinary
  • OVEREXCITED COLIN AND DENNIS TOGETHER
  • 'this is it dennis this is the dream we are both wizards we will be able to do magic’
  • telling dennis all about the great harry potter because can you believe it a real life hero we have a real life hero in front of us 
  • staying up all night trying to bewitch the 'potter stinks’ badges into something better, even though his charm skills were one of the worst in the class 
  • but he believed in harry, he really did
  • even when harry came back with cedric’s dead body and told the world that voldemort was rising again
  • signing up for dumbledores army because i am a gryffindor i can fight i can be a hero too
  • hearing his brother’s friend’s mother getting killed and this is not a game anymore this is something out of their control and they were probably going to die
  • grabbing his family before his sixth year and quick mum dad this is not the time anymore we are in danger you are in danger we need to hide
  • camping out with his parents and his brother to keep them safe 
  • hearing the battle was about to start and ’im sorry dennis i need to go and fight, you stay here with mum and dad, keep them safe, but i need to go’
  • 'colin you can’t, you will die, don’t go and fight’
  • 'i have to im sorry’
  • neville passing colin in battle anD WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE YOU WILL DIE COLIN YOU ARE UNDERAGE GO BACK
  • 'with all due respect i am also part of dumbledores army and i will stay and fight and SOD IT this is my home too now that i am protecting’
  • him saving madame pince in the battle from getting hit by a killing curse as she tried to get more kids into safety and stunning death eaters
  • using the impediment jinx over and over again because that was the first spell he could ever truly master the best in dumbledore’s army when they were all practising two years prior
  • passing more older students and all they say is whilst they shout spells is 'what are you doing here you’re underage’
  • and he sees the green spell coming to hit him and he knows he cannot escape this so he just thinks of how he wanted to be a hero and how sorry he was to his parents and how you’re going to be okay now dennis i promise i died so you can live in this wizarding world in peace
  • his brother finding out he’s dead long after the battle is finished and crying and screaming and he was the only brother i got he was so brave oh god colin what did you do
  • his death being awarded order of the merlin: first class but it wasn't enough for dennis because thats my brother dead i cannot have an award replace my brother i cannot talk to him and hug him anymore he is dead dead dead
  • finally understanding all those years later why his brother chose to go back into battle and fight 

EMMA IS GOING TO FEEL REJECTED AGAIN.

AND FROM THE ONE PERSON THAT SHE NEVER THOUGHT WOULD DO THAT TO HER.

SHE’S GOING TO LET HIM KNOW EXACTLY HOW SHE FEELS AND HE’S GONNA HAVE TO REJECT HER. 

SHE’S GOING TO WANT TO KISS HIM AND HE CAN’T FUCKING LET HER.

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS SHIP DOING TO ME??