I will not have uni for the next 5 weeks!

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I rode my bike to the forest last week and I got lost for a while! It was amazing :’) also this is last week’s spread! (I’m actually spending most of the time doing nothing but watching movies haha)

Music & More

Dear Friends

Holy BELLS! It’s been 5 weeks since I posted. My life has suddenly gotten very busy after floating around like a little lost lamb for 18 months. I’ve been studying some psychology modules at uni, which I absolutely love, and I’m gearing up to test my ideas for my next musical project over Christmas. So, I’m going to use this site as a diar/ creative notepad over the next few months. There is a dream plan I have for marinabook, but I have no brain space right now to think about anything but music and psychology. I’m not sure if this is connected to the introvert/baseline level of arousal thing I talked about in this post but, god damn it!! My brain space/brain RAM can handle only so much thinking!

Today I finished the first term of uni and I felt a happiness I haven’t known for a very long time. I’m so full of glee I’m acting like I’ve LITERALLY GRADUATED (*goes to university once*). I went on a shopping spree 5 minutes after it, as if it were 2007 and I were blowing my student loan willy-nilly into ongoing traffic. Some people on this blog have asked me what it’s like going back to university as a mature student… Well, it’s pretty wonderful. I love using the library, which is in a beautiful part of central London, and I love being around people of all ages from different professions. It’s very refreshing and is a real comfort to me to know that the option to study new subjects will always be there throughout my adult life (The uni is tailored to part time degrees and evening classes, so you can study module by module if you like). I have some essays that I may adapt for this site, one discussing the extent to which personality is biological and another on attachment theory and how useful it is in explaining the origins of personality disorders. I had heard about Attachment Theory before,but after reading it in depth I’ve been interpreting behaviours in a completely different way. I think learning about attachment styles could be of benefit to anyone. I would have loved to have worked in child or developmental psychology if I hadn’t been an artist. Hopefully I can combine both worlds one day.

Whilst I’m far from starting the next campaign, I’ve been thinking about how I can create a better life for myself as an artist, on a day-to-day level, but also how I can best spend my energy in contributing something positive or helpful. The privileges of making art for a living are so huge, but one of the things that I have always found difficult is a lack of routine, or consistency. Traditional album cycles were very off/on in the past; You made your album, created your visual world, went on promotion, then went off on tour and kissed goodbye to the sweet life you’d scratched out for yourself between albums. Then 2 years later it’s all over again, you’re faced with a big space and you feel strange trying to integrate yourself back into your old life. There is no ‘how to’ guide to mental health + being an artist. I’m going to try my best to do things differently this time. Some people enjoy the cycles, others work better with consistent medium-intensity work (i.e me). I like to work hard, but not *too* hard. What can I say… I enjoy my life…

Pic of me enjoying life. My kitten does not look like she’s enjoying hers particularly. RUDE.

In between music and creative posts, I might start doing introductory posts on topics I would like to explore more for MarinaBook, to gain a perspective on peoples thoughts and feelings before writing the actual piece (e.g. Millennial marriage + what role it plays for our generation). The motivation for me to write definitely lies in a format where readers can contribute their own questions or thoughts and make the project collaborative and human. Perhaps I could have a monthly guest post on here from a reader on a specific topic… I have a few ideas I’m going to trial so bear with me!

Whether in writing or music, what I love most is a feel of relation and connection with other people in the world. And it’s something I’ve missed as an artist in recent years, just talking freely and naturally with people. It’s made me consider what kind of visual message I want to project going forward in order to be able to have more of this. Writing on this site has made me feel human again and I have you to thank for that! People have been so open and supportive. It’s not easy to write some of the posts - each one takes me literally 5 days because I write slower than snails crawl - and sometimes it feels unnatural/uncomfortable to be open. But the responses are worth it. Love reading your messages. Would like to do some talks again with you in 2018 (like the Oxford one last year) focusing more on the topics we discuss on here.

If this post reads like a highly frazzled person who hasn’t seen the sky for 4 days because she just finished her uni exams, that would be accurate. I miss you all a lot and look forward to talking more soon. I’m looking forward to the new year and creating a beautiful new project for you (and for me).

Love,
Marina xxx

PS. Here is a little vid of me writing something.

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Super late update of this week’s spread aaa I’ve been busy preparing for a local convention in this weekend & spending time with friends before uni starts next week that I didn’t really have time to take pictures;;

Anyways, Takemi is definitely one of my favorite girls in P5. I thought that her being a doctor and also a confidant of the The Death arcana seemed weird at first, but she grew on me in the end. I like her story and she’s also a really cool doctor. Also we gotta get them discounted healing items yo ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Something Similar (6/?)

TITLE: Something Similar (Bucky x Reader)

Part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7 

SUMMARY: As the group translator, you seem to be the only one who can wake Bucky from his nightmares but soon everyone is left wondering if it is just your language skills that have an affect on Bucky.

WARNINGS: angst, mention of drugs, unwanted sexual advances

WORD COUNT: 3.1K she long

A/N: Okay so I have been speed writing the parts to this fix because I just moved city today to go to uni and I think the next few weeks are gonna be stress, drinking and more stress but, I feel like this series, Bucky is soooooooo angsty and confusing and I’m sorry. It takes a good three parts before things start to make sense lmao. Sorry not sorry.

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Originally posted by ohmy80s

Tony stepped closer and the differences between the Tony you saw grow up and the Tony you were seeing now seemed to multiply. Had he always had those lines? Did he used to look this tired?

You knew then why this hurt so much. You were face to face with a man you had known for over forty years and yet you stood there, frozen at twenty-five, just a year older than he was when you last saw him. A wave of sadness washed over you as you realised, for the first time, that this was someone younger than you. And you had watched them pass you from afar. What made it worse was that you had left him, when he was at rock bottom, because you were scared of this moment - a moment that could have been avoided if you hadn’t left at all.

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[Misawa AU] Synchronous Flowering Chapter 5

fandom: Daiya no A

 
Characters: Sawamura Eijun/Miyuki Kazuya

 
words: 5.5k+ 


summary: Sometimes a twist in destiny can mean a closer bond from an early stage, and dragging Kazuya off to a small sleepy town in Nagano was probably one of the best things Rei could’ve ever done for him 


Notes: whoooops xD and I’m right back to being late on my updates. I’m sorry I’ve been so bad at being on time but uni is taking all my time at the moment and I almost dont have time to think of anything else. This is chapter 5 so now we’re past the halfway point of what I’ve written. I hope you enjoyed it. It’s the first chapter at seidou and changes are probably becoming more prominent from this point on.
The next ten days I’ll be in Tokyo so I probably won’t have time to update, so I decided on a mini hiatus which means I’ll be back with ch 6 in two weeks. Thank you all so much for your support of this :D I didn’t expect it at all and I’m so astonished at it :D
(Ps: Sorry my laptop is messing with me so the layout is a bit different from usual since I’m doing this from my tablet)



There’s a ringing in Eijun’s ears.

“I’m sorry Ei-chan.”

“I plan to have made first string by the time you arrive.”

“We wanted to play baseball more with you guys.”

“Whether you decide to go or not, I’m definitely going to Tokyo.”

“Partner.”

It doesn’t stop until somebody throws a pillow in his face and he opens his eyes to see a grouchy Kuramochi Youichi glowering at him through eyes that are barely slits.

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“Last year I graduated from high school but I decided not to apply for Uni. I have always had a big passion for photography and so I wanted to take a year off to practice and discover my photography skills. My parents agreed but only if I would treat it like a real job so that is what I do, 5 days a week I am either shooting or editing photo’s. So far it is going really well and my Instagram account is slowly growing. Next year I’ll probably go to study but I still have no idea what exactly. Before that I want to travel all by myself. Initially I wanted to go to Asia but through Instagram I met many other photographers in Norway so I am planning to go there. It will be the first time I will be traveling alone which is super scary but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t do it. I don’t want my fear to keep me from seeing the world.”

mymedicaldream  asked:

Hello! I'll apologize ahead but I have a lot of questions to ask. 1. Can you give me tips on how to better retain information? How to optimize my memory retention? I'm a first year medical student and I am having trouble with retaining so much information. 2. How do you quiz yourself on the things you just learned? Can you recommend a good website/app to facilitate this? 3. How many hours a day do you study? How do you come up with a schedule to manage time efficiently? THANKS A LOT :)

Hello! No need to apologize ^^

1. Try the space repetition technique - if you google that you should find a bunch of info on it but I basically just try to review lectures within the week that I attended them and I also do a huge review of previous lectures during the weekend. 

2. Flashcards are really helpful for quizzing yourself and they’re so convenient as well. I buy word / cue cards and make my own since I prefer everything to be on paper but if you prefer digital, you could try anki or quizlet!

3. Uni typically ends at 5 and I go straight home afterwards so I normally start studying at around 7 pm. I’d say I study for 3-4 hours on weekdays, and I also study for most of the weekend unless I have something else going on. I make use of my planner to prioritise tasks and I take a bit of time out on Sunday evenings to plan ahead for the next week in terms of what assignments I need to do first and which lectures I should review. I’m currently using a to-do list notepad from Muji to keep myself on track. 

Hope this helps, and best of luck! 

5.2.2018 

i put an application in for uni accommodation today, it’s exciting to think i’ll be living somewhere else in 7 months time! i’m preparing for my interview next week for university of manchester.. honestly i’m so nervous because i really want to get in

a year ago i never thought i’d make it to see myself actually going to university. things are bad sometimes but i’m so grateful to have the chance to explore the world

Bad Reputation- Michael Clifford

Got this request awhile back, now finally have a Michael imagine!!! To the anon who requested this: hope you like it! This picture is so amazing btw…….mohawk and a lion tattoo hahaha

“An’ I don’t give a damn ‘bout my bad reputation. Oh no….not me…” -Bad Reputation, Joan Jett

“Does the bitch EVER shut up??” Y/n whispered to her friend sitting beside her. After which her friend laughed, as did the people around them that heard her as well.

“Now do tell me, what is so funny?” The bitch asked, looking directly at Y/n. No matter what was going on, if there was some type of trouble Y/n was usually blamed. Can’t really blame them however.

Y/n wasn’t known as the teacher pet, rather the opposite. Always clad in band tees and combat boots, she didn’t exactly give off a “friendly” vibe. Y/n wasn’t exactly picking a fight with everyone either, but it wasn’t uncommon for most people to be afraid of her. Even teachers. Well that excludes “the bitch” of course, aka Mrs. Johnson, one of the most hated teachers at the school who happened to loathe Y/n.

“Well Ms. Y/n? Do share” The bitch said, giving her pathetic fake smile.

“I don’t know” Y/n shrugged, giving her a blank stare.

“You don’t?”

“No. Why?”

“Well then…seeing as our time is wasted…” the bitch gave Y/n a stare, “I will expect a full report tomorrow on today’s chapter. Four pages, single spaced.”

“Seriously? We have other classes you know” Y/n yelled, others murmuring in agreement.

“Is there a problem Y/n?”

“Uh ya. That’s a completely ridiculous assignment! And to give us only one night?”

“I think it’s perfectly fair. But if you think it’s not enough, perhaps a quiz tomorrow?” Giving Y/n that smile, then turning to walk to her desk.

“Bitch…” Y/n scoffed.

“Excuse me?” Mrs. Johnson yelled, face full of rage.

Y/n just laughed and held up both middle fingers and stuck out her tongue out.

“Detention!” Mrs. Johnson practically screamed.

“Gladly” Y/n gave her a big grin then walked towards the room where detention is held, not far from where she was at actually.

She stopped by the soda machine on the way, and paid for two Gatorades. She walked into the room, where only two other students were present.

“Hey William” Y/n said to the teacher responsible for monitoring the detentions today. He was here most days, and since Y/n was frequently in detention she knew him pretty well.

“It’s Mr. Hudson Y/n. Thanks for the drink though” William said, smiling.

“Oh come on Will, that’s so…formal” Y/n said laughing and taking her usual seat. That’s when she noticed someone was occupying the seat next to her.

It was Michael Clifford, someone she knew of, quite well, but never got the opportunity to meet. Like her, he was seen a sort of rebel, constantly pissing off teachers by playing the guitar in class, or even one time bringing his laptop to play Minecraft during math. Ironically they both were constantly in detention but never at the same time. And damn…was he good looking.

“You know Will here on a first name basis?” Michael said, grinning at her.

“Perhaps. Seems you do as well.”

“Perhaps…so Y/n right?” She nodded. “Well Y/n…what is it you did this time?”

“Hmmm….well quite the story. You first though. Let me guess, killer guitar solo in biology?”

He laughed, shaking his head. “No, I’m not allowed to bring my guitar to my classes now. And I love that thing to much to have taken from me.”

“So what did you do?”

“I spray painted lyrics on the side of the gym…”

“What lyrics?”

“And little did he know that he would find his voice in verse and chorus, making wishes on his broken stereo…”

“All Time Low? So long soldier right? Nice…” Y/n laughed.

“Yes it is, and thank you, I’m quite proud. Your turn”

“Hmmm….well the bitch assigned another ridiculous assignment, I called her out, called her a bitch, then flipped her off…and that’s how I ended up here”

“Wow. You are talking about Mrs. Johnson right?”

“Yup. What other bitch is there?”

They both laughed.

“How is it we never met before?” Michael asked her, giving her a curious look.

“I don’t know…” Y/n said looking down.

“I don’t think I’ve met anyone like you before…”

“No? Should I take that as a compliment?”

“I like you…how about we go out some time?”

“Hmmmm…..depends….”

“On?” Michael laughed a bit nervously, moving a hand through his blonde hair.

“Promise to play me a song?”

“If it means dinner and movie, sure why not. So pick you up tomorrow? 6 work for you?”

“That sounds great”

Just then the bell rang, signaling the period was over, as was detention.

Y/n stood up out of her chair.

“See you later then” She said, giving Michael a wink.

“Bye William, I’m sure I’ll be back” Y/n said as she walked out of the room, leaving Michael in utter disbelief, but incredibly excited for tomorrow.

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Author’s note: Trying to get all the requests up. Been a little busy lately but expect quite a few imagines up this week and the next. Luckily for me uni doesn’t pick up again until the 16th! So I have a bit of time on my hands lol. Hope you guys liked it. As always, like, reblog, comment, request, or just bug me. Whatever you want. I love to hear from you guys. Thanks for reading!!       -Lydia

Okay so

I am so pissed

I live in a small town in eastern europe where you can’t find basic things

and so

I have exactly 2 opportunities to see Darkest Hour NONDUBBED. One of those is at 10:10 pm this Friday BUT I WORK AT NIGHT THIS WEEK FROM TEN TO SIX IN THE MORNING

and the other is next week at 5 pm on Thursday FOR WHICH I WILL STILL HAVE TO SWAP SHIFTS WITH SOMEONE I HOPE I CAN OH FUCK

or I could just go to Budapest like 3 hour train ride twice in a single day to see it in a cinema on a day convenient to me.

I hate life here I am just why can’t I have simple nice things like an extremely English movie not with voice overs like there are like 4000+ international students here at the uni how are they supposed to watch films…? fml

6/100 Days of Production. Planning for this next week 😂 All my uni tasks are all spread out throughout the week as I work 9-5 Monday to Thursday and have to fit all my uni work on top of that. Working full time and doing uni full time is crazy for a person who struggles to manage their time 😂 thanks to @studeying for helping me manage myself with her printable 😘😅

We’re all thieves in the end - Chapter 2

Fandom: Uncharted series

Pairing: Sam Drake x Reader

Spoilers: slight spoilers for Uncharted 4 in the beginning, more later on as the fanfiction loosely follows the plot of the game

Summary: You work for a museum, mainly as a guide and documentarist for the museum’s expeditions and excavations, when you meet the Drake brothers and Rafe Adler at a Gala for the first time – shortly before they go to Panama. You don’t see any of them again for a long while. Until Rafe contacts you 12 years later to recruit you for his quest to find Avery’s treasure.

Chapters: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8

Word count: 1060

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A/N: Just wanted to let you know that I have two exams coming up at Uni in the next 2 ½ weeks, so I might not be able to update the fic with another chapter before the 4th of July. Sorry :/ (It’s Egyptology though, so maybe I can get some more of my knowledge in the fic later on xD)

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To everyone,

As someone who had a tough time last year I would like to give you a few reminders, which we all know but just need re-telling sometimes:

1. There are always people there for you! (Parents, siblings, teachers, pets, whoever!) BUT you have to make sure you are open to them and tell them when you need their help (they aren’t mind readers) - I was really struggling with maths and it at first seemed like my teacher wouldn’t help me but once I asked him for help and told him my problem he was really useful (I passed maths in the end!)

2. We all have off days or weeks or tests/essays! Sometimes things just don’t go how we planned, just learn from your mistakes and improve from that for next time!

3. Keep talking to your friends! Maybe they aren’t having a great time either - be there for them! (this is especially around uni/college application and exam time!)

4. Study smart - studying all the time may work for some but maybe not for you. Find a revision technique that really works for you (even if it doesn’t work for other people)!

5. Remember to take some time to yourself and relax! Your grade is not worth it if you’ve had three nervous breakdowns and have cried yourself to sleep five nights in a row from stress and exhaustion.

I (and I’m sure other studyblrs) am here for anyone who needs to talk to someone or just wants some support and a friend - Feel free to send a message, no context or excuse necessary!!!

Please reblog and spread this reminder around so the people who need support or just these little reminders will see them!
:) Izzi (studygoalsaf)

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Rules:
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bmolko​’s questions:
1. What is your favourite flower? Tell us about your favourite flower.
Rose - because after the very first dance school show I performed in when I was seven years old (the first time I’d ever been on stage in an actual theatre with curtains and a big mass of black audience holy moly it shocked me!) my best adult friend that came to watch gave me a little bouquet with a red rose and white gypsophila and it was the most amazing feeling ever.
2. Is there a significant person in your life (a friend), whom, has helped benefit you in some way and has in turn taught you a lot about yourself, life, etc? Tell us about this person.
bmolko​ is the only person I’m not blood related to (we’re still brothers though) that I feel completely at home with, like I can be me around - and I can talk about anything with. They are so special to me, and they never fail to pick me up when I’m down. I believe we’re linked somehow, like we were supposed to meet and become best friends. In Doctor Who terms, I think us meeting was a fixed moment in time. I’ll never let you go.
3. What does the rush of love feel like as opposed to infatuation or obsession?
Love, as in a more respect and admiration or unconditional sort of love isn’t really a rush for me - it’s more passive and ebbing, it’s there underneath everything, it’s calm, it doesn’t force anything, it feels like the furthest thing from risk. If it’s true, nothing feels at stake, nothing that matters anyway, nothing important. Obsession grips fast and pulls me out of myself, I always forget who I am and become a sponge, to absorb and ingest any new information about the subject as soon and as fast as possible. Obsession has no regard for my wellbeing, and everything seems like a risk or absolutely wild, or like some sort of invasion. Like I’m going places I’m not meant to.
4. If you had 6 months left to live, what would you spend those months doing?
Skydiving, bungie jumping, flying all round the world and taking lots of photos, writing. I think I’d write a lot. And I’d pray, and try to be the kindest person to everyone along the way. I’d try inspire as many people as possible, and help people with their problems. 
5. An artwork/an artist that has inspired you a lot with your art/your life?

G   E   R   A   R   D      W   A   Y

6. (If you’re a Placebo fan) What’s your favourite Placebo song, and why? (If you’re not a Placebo fan) What’s your favourite song by your favourite band, and why?
Space Monkey - I love minor keys most and it sounds like trouble and danger and injustice and destruction and ill fate and knowing, but it’s also tragically pleading. I really enjoy the enigmatic lyrics, Brian’s vocals are amazing - I really like how in the verses it’s like he’s telling secrets but in the chorus he’s crying out for something. I love how the bass sounds like it has a grudge, and the slow inevitable walk of the drums, like a machine or like terminator. The alternating minor/diminished chord or apegio on the keys and guitar bring an edge and an air of uncertainty. I also love their tick tock with the kick drum then snare in the outro. It’s like time is limited, and something big, bad and unstoppable is coming. It’s like vengeance, it’s hypnotic and dark and I love it. I could be way off with my interpretation because I don’t know what it’s actually about and I haven’t yet listened to all the Placebo bmolko gave me :o
7. Best show you’ve been to (musical, concert, or otherwise)?
GERARD WAY AT SOUNDWAVE 2015!!!! But I also went to see 42nd Street and I really loved that too :) Another one is when the Royal New Zealand Ballet performed Giselle I almost cried it was so beautiful (I never cry at shows) :)
8. How would you describe what dysphoria feels like? (if you’ve experienced it. If you haven’t, what do you imagine its like?
I experience gender dysphoria on a daily basis. It’s a bit like in primary school when you get put in the lowest math group in class, even if you knew all your basic facts 100% and you know you’re smarter, you know you can do it all fine, you were just slower at processing things and so you scored poorly on timed tests. And you have to sit through class not learning anything new or achieving anything great, sitting next to the simple minded and being talked down to by the teacher. Even worse, the kids in the higher math groups make comments about it and treat you differently and speak to you differently - like they think you aren’t capable of understanding what they mean. And everyone thinks they know how smart you are, they think they know you but they are such a long way off and it stabs you in the ribs when you try to explain it and all you get is shut down. And you start hating yourself, hating the fact that you aren’t fast enough. Every day you grow more and more negative towards learning maths and you stop doing the homework and you stop talking to people and you stop going out of the house and the thought of it makes you want to vomit. And instead of finding relief, the listening ear turns into a mouth that tells you to sit down, get over yourself and try harder. And you think it would be easier if you didn’t exist at all.
9. What sort of impact would you like to have on the world, given the opportunity?
I want to bring positivity back. I want to open up minds, alter people’s thinking and help them find what they’re called do in life. I want to make people question themselves, and to urge everyone to search for more than the simple pleasures of living. To search for more than comfort. Search for more than ease. Search for whatever’s out there that wakes you up from the dreamworld you’re in. Wake up.
10. What’s holding you back?
Comfort.
11. What’s your belief on what happens after someone dies?
The body returns to it’s elements, but the soul and spirit will meet the creator. I believe there is a creator, there is no way this universe could happen by it’s self. Especially when you look at something as complex as an eye, our exact living conditions on earth and placement in the universe, or even a human cell - it has a nucleus which contains DNA, which is basically an instruction manual for the cell. Go and tell me that something that comes with instructions wasn’t carefully designed and thought of.
It’s mathematically impossible for something to happen by it’s self anyway.
0 + 0 = 0
0 x 0 = 0 
If there was a big bang (which scientists have found that the universe is expanding - which would suggest it all came from one central point, and that there was a birthdate for the universe. Scientists have also found that all matter is simply energy - a frequency, a vibration, that everything is actually just sound energy) somebody or something outside of time had to be there to make the first noise.
I find it impossible to believe that everything came from a primordial soup and that when we die we become nothing. I think death is a door, one we pass through from this life into an eternal one. 

dontclimbanymore’s questions:
1. most emotionally touching song to you, and why?
Sleep, by My Chemical Romance. 
2. your favorite smell and why?
The night air. I’d spend so many nights dangling my arms and neck out my window staring at the path far below and waiting till 4am for the moon to pass over our house roof so I could silently share with it my hopes and dreams. I always liked the damp-ish colder smell of plants respiring better than the sticky rubbery smell of day. At night even the plants sleep. Everything’s more private and peaceful at night. 
3. describe your place of comfort?
It’s two faced like a coin. I’m very thankful that I have this place at all, it’s home to me, I can truly rest here, but it feels like a cell a lot of the time and if I let my mind go I’m surrounded by eyes and I wish I had more so I could watch them all back.
4. something you’re looking forward to?
Starting uni next week :)
5. can you recall the best day of your life so far? if so pls describe uwu
Aside from meeting Gerard Way at Soundwave festival last Saturday (CANNOT BELIEVE), it was performing my Black Parade medley at the Lipsync competition at school last year. I was so nervous and worried nobody was going to get it because I met up with a friend on the Monday beforehand and told them about it excitedly, and they told me that no one would get it because no one gives a shit about My Chemical Romance anymore and everyone in the crowd would be silent and I’d embarrass myself - except for maybe one junior up the back that might jump up and down.
I was so discouraged that afternoon, I almost wimped out, but I decided to do it anyway, and I practiced a rough idea of what I’d do to the track I put together in the art room for my whole free period that day. I didn’t sleep well the night before. I was trembling, tired, and I felt sick in my stomach while I waited on the side of the stage watching the other girls parade around with their friends to a bunch of well known, current pop tunes.
The crowd was loud, and there were a lot of people expecting something great from me since all I did the week before was excitedly tell everyone I could about the event and how I was taking part in it. I handed my ipod shuffle to the sound man (worried it wasn’t going to work), set up a chair and an old microphone stand on the stage which I hooked my fake blood IV thing onto. I sat in the chair and waited.
They started the music and it missed the beginning where I’d put in hospital monitor beeps. I carried on anyway. The crowd was fairly quiet, and some were talking like they weren’t interested in what I was doing. I stood up from the chair too early, and gestured too strongly too early, and decided I would give what was to come everything I had. I made some nervous mistakes, but the moment I aggressively pointed at one girl in particular with wild eyes and mouthed what Gerard sang “WILL YOU BE… THE SAVIOUR OF THE BROKEN…” was the moment I started having fun, and the moment I could really believe I was this crazy parade character telling the story of the album (albeit condensed to less than four minutes).
After jumping around and headbanging like a nut, sassing it up to teenagers (and that really badly executed knee-drop that I felt 10 minutes afterwards - had bruises from it for two months), and cuffay dressed as a nurse strapped me into the fake straight jacket I made, I came off stage grinning and shaking again. ( cuffay thank you so much again for being the nurse on practically no rehearsal you did really awesome :’) )
I wasn’t expecting to get a place, but even though one of the judges Mr J said it was one of the creepiest things he’s seen, he announced me as first place and I was the most surprised and happy person on the planet. They gave me some flowers and people cheered for me and it was such a great reprieve from the apathy and depression and frustration I was feeling up until then. It was the only thing that mattered to me, and for once I achieved something I dreamed of achieving.
(Sorry for the rant)
6. talk about your favorite thing to talk about
I think I’ve done enough talking right now……. *nervous laughter*
7. describe your favorite article of clothing/accessory that you’re the most attached to?
I still really love my “Ride it like you stole it” MCR shirt with the hearse on it, but dad bought me some G shirts at Soundwave and I love them a lot. I also love my boots that I got for Christmas very much :)
8. what can you not live without?
Air.
9. favorite lyrics from uptown funk? *me uptown scREAMING IN THE BACKGROUND*

GIRLS HIT YOUR HALLELUJAH

GIRLS HIT YOUR HALLELUJAH

CUZ UPTOWN FUNK GON GIVE IT TO YA
SATURDAY NIGHT AND WE IN THE SPOT

…and “IF YOU FREAKAY THEN OWN EET”
Man I always hated Bruno Mars (Muno Bras) and now I hate him even more because that song is so fantastically groovy and it makes me start dancing in random places like the supermarket and crossing the road and in the middle of dinner…
10. favorite band/artist/musician?

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE
GERARD WAY


11. what will your last words be?
So long and goodniiiiiiiiiiiiiggghhhhthtttttttttttt- *exhales* *eyes turn into Xs* *joins Black Parade*
IDK

My questions:
1) What’s the best compliment someone has given you?
2) The perfect pizza is…..?
3) What question do you hate answering?
4) What’s the longest you’ve gone without sleep?
5) What’s one song you wish you had written and why?
6) Would you ever dye your hair a really bright unnatural colour? (eg. neon green)
7) Have you ever donated blood? If not - would you?
8) If you had to be trapped inside a tv show for a month, which would it be?
9) What’s the closest thing to you that’s red in colour?
10) What’s the worst injury you’ve had and how did you get it?
11) What’s your favourite thing to spend money on?

I tag anyone that’s still here reading omfg….

I'm trying to be cool, I swear

Mod Star here, I’m sorry that some of you were upset by Mod Viena’s response however that doesn’t change the fact that I can’t give you guys links if I myself don’t know where to watch other than CrunchyRoll. 

 We always tell people to watch it free on CrunchyRoll because it supports the official release. In another two weeks, the full show will be free to watch on there. So, we aren’t telling people to spend money if they don’t have it. 

We never said you could only watch on CrunchyRoll. We have always said that people should just try to rewatch the show on CR when possible, because we would like people to watch and support the show. We do not know what other sites have it. 

I don’t want to be mean but some of you have really upset me. Honest to queen Kubo-Sensei herself, I know what it is like to go without. Hell, I have to split my CR account with my BF. 

I grew up in the projects so I know what it’s like to not know when your next meal is going to be. I have lived in less than $5 a week. Don’t you dare try to talk to me like I have shit when I’m just like every other other broke college student with the minor exception that I started uni late because I served my country. Without my service ed award, I wouldn’t even be in college right now. So, unless you’re also the child of a single parent with cancer, you don’t get to accuse me of having jack shit just because I spend $2.50 a month on anime, one of the few things I enjoy. 

I’m done. I am going home for break and taking a couple days to cool off. If the queue runs out, then I’m sorry but you guys really should think before you hit “send as anon” because we are real people too.

I truly hope you all have a wonderful holiday because I love all you little buggers, but I think I need a break from this site. 

 Mod Star 
(Can someone pass me a tissue?)

EDIT: Okay, I am big enough to admit I overreacted. I can usually laugh off trolls but this was a little too close to home. I’m really sorry, I swear I’ll be over it tomorrow. The queue should hold up so no worries, we will continue producing content. We got some really nice words of support and I’m truly thankful for this fandom.

We can’t let trolls get us down! That would just take away from the message of this beautiful show we’ve all united over: Love Wins.

I’ll delete this trash pile later and we can all go on with our lives. Once again, happy holidays! I hope that Santa!Yakov brings you all lots of Katsudon!

Updated Fics from September 20th to September 27th

Hiiiiii beautiful people!!!! I hope you are all having a wonderful weekend!!! 1DFF IS BACKKKKK!!!!! Thank you to all the admins and their hard work!!! You are amazingggg!!!!!

We have so many fics updating and so many drabbles! I don’t knowww how am going to pace myself and read all of this!

All I Want by americanowritesThe One Where it Ends”, “Jealous April” & “The One with the Moving Van”  Drabble

Up Where We Belong by alwaysinstylesfics​ Chapter 24

Down & Out by inkoasis Chapter 3 

In Your Atmosphere by fromherlips Chapter 8

Res Ipsa Loquitur by bioluminescentwriting Chapter 8

Rivers and Roads by harrystyluhs Chapter 16 and 17

A League of Their Own by alototalk Chapter 9

Evaporate by standingfacingwest Chapter 14

Running Home by 1dable Chapter 24

How You Get the Boy by booksncoffee Chapter 9

Nom de Plume by stylesprimes Chapter 40

If You Ever Leave Me by inficwetrust Chapter 7

Murphy’s Law by rlwrites Chapter 9

Strangeness and Charm drabble by nebulastyles

XO Series Part 6The Wedding” by deathbyfics

DisconnectedThe 5 times” drabble by afitzgeraldfic

Sturmflut by escapistwrites Chapter 9

Baby Love “Date Night” drabble by mackabees

Valley of the Dolls by onismanxiety Chapter 5

Less Than Lovers “Sick Harry” drabble by ticketchanges

Valley of the Dolls drabble by onismanxiety

Someday, Someday Sick Harry” Drabble by beautifulletdownfics

Evaporate drabble by standingfacingwest

Sugar on the Asphalt drabble by justanchorandhope

Res Ipsa LoquiturUni Days” drabble by bioluminescentwriting

Different Colors by ninetyfovr Chapter 2

Don’t forget to READ AND REVIEW!!!! and if I forgot anyone I apologize and please let me know so I can fix it!!!!!!

Have an amazing Sunday!!!! and see you all next week!

Happy Reading!!!

Isabel

8/5/2015:

And I am back. Hello guys!!! I had a great break, which I wished could have been longer but life is life and I’m back in uni. This is my final year in college so I’m super scared and nervous 😔
I already missed my first week because I was still back in my home country and work has piled up. I’m slowly trying to work my way through it before next week starts. On the bright side I have a really nice timetable, just 10 hours per week.