Word of the Day: Sunshine


  1. the shining of the sun; direct light of the sun
  2. brightness or radiance; cheerfulness or happiness
  3. a source of cheer or happiness
  4. the effect of the sun in lighting and heating a place
  5. a place where the direct rays of the sun fall

me and atherys will go from barely speaking for a month to having a 35 minute conversation where she writes in french and i write in italian.

it’s surprisingly good practice. and a lot of fun.

Do you ever see like, a single thing, and you stare at it for a moment, or maybe let it pass for a while, completely neutral, until you suddenly start to think about the thing and then something fucking snaps inside you and there’s this torrential downpour of 

1. “I can’t believe the person who made this would insult their own intelligence so much by bringing this into existence, and I am insulted on their behalf”

2. Extreme pity, aka the only fate truly worse than death

3. “I can’t believe the person who made this would insult me so much by forcing me to know of the existence of such a pathetic concept, and I have never felt more insulted”

4. “I can’t believe this thing, or even the concept of this thing’s existence didn’t collapse inwards on itself and become erased from the concept of reality, fantasy, infinity, everything, it would have seriously done itself a favor by not existing, and I am insulted on its behalf

5. “I am disgusted that I exist within a universe in which this thing, or the concept of this thing could theoretically exist, if I were the universe I would be insulted, in fact, I am insulted for the universe”

6. Suddenly being okay with the inevitability of death and the concept of no life after death, no thought, true oblivion, a peaceful world devoid of having to think about this

7. And many other indescribable levels of hatred and disgust

Tao. My little baby boy. ;^; 

I can’t say anything about what’s happening right now, but whatever it is, no matter what you’re doing - whether it be now or in the future, just WHEREVER you are, please do something that makes you smile. I want nothing more than for you to be happy. You have done so much for me and I can never truly repay you. Even though you deserve the world and more, all I can do is pray for your happiness. 

You are a beautiful person and I hope you never forget that. I hope you’re always taken care of and receive all the love you could ever need from those around you. 

Please please please just do what is best for you. 


puncromancer replied to your post “oh my god i just realized i’m like Jimmy Neutron’s dad.”

do you also hate raisins so much that you eat grapes that roll away to prevent their transformation into raisins?

no but thank you for giving me the idea to do so.