my aesthetic is adansey secretly making out in suits at one of the ganseys’ events with adam taking a glass of champagne from gansey’s hand to initiate the kiss and gansey holding onto adam’s jacket because his legs are giving out
ok we all know and love demisexual neil but what if in addition he’s aromantic
he’s never experienced romantic love at all and maybe that’s what he wanted to find kissing that girl but all he felt was lipstick and fear, so he accepts what his mother told him and it’s not for him
so when he meets andrew he never considers relationships because it’s dangerous, because he doesn’t do that, he doesn’t swing but that doesn’t matter.
andrew becomes (over time, mostly post-tkm) comfort, he holds neil up always and he’s always a secure place, a safe bet. they love each other very much, but there’s no romantic love tying neil to andrew; he doesn’t need that, he just needs andrew to be there.
(andrew probably isn’t aro but rejects the notion of love from far too much trauma and lack of trust and generally shitty people. through months and years of neil’s yes and understanding and trust, he comes to terms with what he feels for neil, but it doesn’t change the nature of their relationship because there’s so much else in the relationship that it’s not necessary to change the terms. neil knows, anyway. he knows the way andrew looks at him and he knows that it’s more love than he’s ever had before and he’s grateful every time.)
Hi everyone… it’s been a while… and I’m still in deep… maybe too deep…
quick side note: NO ONE TELL ME IF ANYTHING IS WRONG WITH THE SPELLING. I WILL FREAK OUT. I did as much research as one can and didn’t rely on google translate so I can only PRAY that it’s right and please please PLEASE don’t tell me if it’s wrong <3 <3 <3
this is a secret santa gift for spidersekret (only one of them, you have to wait for me to give the other one to you in person ;3c) and i liked it enough to post it here so happy hankwanzanakamas! (by the way steven made peridot that sweater, he got advice from his friend from Oregon yes it’s totally maybel from gf because i love the idea of them being friends)
Can you ever just tell someone is getting tired of your existence but their existence is so important to you and you don’t want to let them go so you just mentally hurt inside and think of all the reasons why you’re not good enough for anyone to ever stay in your life?
my dr confirmed my self-diagnosis of perioral dermatitis (actually, she was like “you have rosacea” and i was [not] like “well perioral dermatitis is like a specific form of rosacea that is the form i have but okay” [bc doctors hate when u do that]) and like! tbh!!! it seems like too much work to actually treat it so i think INSTEAD i will just whisper “i have rosacea it’s not acne don’t worry” anytime anyone looks at my horrible pustule covered face