I'm so proud of you

Light and Flame

(For Kitana)

Today I found out that the 21st of May
was more special than I had realized.
A child who longed to conquer everything:
the world, herself
and all the demons in between
was born.

For a second the world turned Crimson,
and the roses she dyed cried ‘She is near, she is near;’.

I paced my room on the morning of the 21st,
thinking: (What could I give you?)
My gifts would not reach you in time
My voice was not strong enough to reach your lands
and time slips through fingers like sand.

If distance was not so crippling a force
This is what I would do.

I’d clear the way for your arrival

Tell the flowers: She is coming (My dove, my dear)
and teach the red roses to speak
and the larkspurs to hear
and the lilies to wait.

And as for the white roses, with a whisper I’d remind them:
“The queen is never late. Everyone else is simply

She is coming. My own, my sweet, my one and only.
She is here.

There are certain Months that are special to me.
Januarys and Decembers
June, November (now),
with a few in between
But now

Because Today (in May)
Light and flame ascends
Light and flame turns a year closer to becoming
all that she was marked to be. A year closer to conquest
and deeper shades of grace.

My loved one –
I’m deeply proud of you.
I admire you. I am scrambling for words.

Today I have no gifts to express myself with
no soothing scents to invigorate your bones
no streamers to adorn your arms with

But I do have a seat on the crescent moon that you reserved for me
on the 2nd of November.

Today I want you to sit on that which you honored me with.
Today I want you to sit and see from above
all the lives you’ve touched
all the smiles you’ve caused
and all the strength you’ve imparted in us.
(I tell heaven about you, and they often say “We know! We love her.”)

I’ll lay Nasturtiums around you while you sleep (feeling loved)

as you dwell around the piles of letters and kind words
and the company of loved ones, near and far
The embraces of those
who will never let you go.

Dear light, dear flame
my one and only

Today you are my stardust.

Happy Birthday, Kitana. I wish you every happiness, for you’ve been a big source of mine.

- Marianne

Followers 30 and I’m a 100 … I can not tell you how much I love you all. There are only 2 months I dreamed of Olicity alone in my little corner.

It was a dark time… Yeah I know. Now, I talk with you and I have so much fun! 

I am so proud to be part of this fandom. Thank you to all. Big hug for all of you


I thought Eddie Redmayne portrayed me very well in The Theory of Everything Movie. He spent time with ALS sufferers so he could be authentic. At times, I thought he was me.

Seeing the film has given me the opportunity to reflect on my life. Although I’m severely disabled, I have been successful in my scientific work. I travel widely and have been to Antarctica and Easter Island, down in a submarine and up on a zero gravity flight. One day I hope to go into space.

I’ve been privileged to gain some understanding of the way the universe operates through my work. But it would be an empty universe indeed without the people that I love. -SH


Winter’s Bone - Silver Linings Playbook
Congratulations, Jennifer Lawrence, for your second Academy Award nomination. 

“I’m not sure I’d recommend this kind of thinking to anyone else, but I’ve always known I’d be successful in acting. I have certainly worked for it. (…) To you it looks emotionally straining, but I don’t get emotionally drained, because I don’t invest any of my real emotions. I don’t take any of my characters’ pain home with me, I don’t even take it to craft services. I’ve never been through anything that my characters have been through. And I can’t go around looking for roles that are exactly like my life. So I just use my imagination. If it ever came down to the point where, to make a part better, I had to lose a little bit of my sanity, I wouldn’t do it. I would just do comedies.”