so I decided to hide my follower account. why? because it was disheartening to see that after nearly every other post I’m losing followers. It shouldn’t matter, but in a way it does. it makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong though I know that I’m not. I can’t help it that I don’t have muse for every thread all of the time, so it’s only certain people that I rp with at times. if I need to, I’ll start tagging m/m and m/f, though that shouldn’t be necessary.
oh btw yeah sorry about those art requests I’m having that thing where you draw something when you’re half awake and it looks RAD as hell and you love it but you go to sleep and you wake up the next day and try to finish it and it looks ok but everything you try to add just looks pthbbbbt
[ quick update on my obvious absence. I’ve been dealing with having the wrong prescription of contacts/glasses for the last 5 days and went back today for a new exam only to get home and realize I still can’t see shit. I can’t really sit around and type for too long without getting a headache. So consider this a tiny semi-hiatus until I can see again. Which at this point could be longer than a week because I have a feeling I’m going to have to fight with this place to get the $200 back so I can go elsewhere. Sorry to anyone waiting on a reply. I promise they’re all still in my tracker. ]
Hi everyone. I’m not sure why I’m doing this but basically I’m just trying to distract myself from my thoughts. So the past few year have been pretty hard for me because of several reasons. The boys have always been my escape and gave me something to fall back on. I realize that it’s not over yet and I hope that the future for the band is bright but I saw them on The BBC earlier and suddenly felt so many things at once. I often don’t realize just how important they are to me, despite all the nonsense, drama and manipulation, the boys themselves make me so happy. Looking back at everything they’ve achieved over the years, I feel so proud of them and I’m so pleased to see that they are still the band that got me here in the first place. I have this collection of memories of various concerts, red carpet appearances, you name it…So many things that I have memorized and wherever I am, whatever I’m doing, I always manage to associate my surroundings with the boys. Like I said, this isn’t the end but I’d just like to thank them for making me happy when other things didn’t. The past four years of my life they’ve made me smile and I love them so so much. Of course I have to thank all you lovely people as well because I’ve made quite a few friends along the way. This fandom can be so funny and creative, it amazes me every single time. I think you’re all incredible and I love how passionate we all are. It feels so good to be able share that kind of happiness and excitement. In real life I don’t know many people who’d get up to see which suits a few boys are wearing to a random award show yet you lot understand just how important that is ;) Anyway, today I realized that I might never see the boys again. At the time I didn’t buy a UK ticket for some silly reason and now I really regret that. I was already emotional to begin with but that kind of made eyes flow like the Niagara Falls (not even exaggerating). This isn’t goodbye but just me expressing my love and sadness at the same time. I really love those boys more than I ever thought I would and they honestly mean the world to me. God Bless One Direction and ignore this completely because I’m a bit of a mess right now.
Im super duper excited for uni too!!! Theres a really big desi and muslim community here, so there are prayers led by some of the students which is super cool. Insha’ Allah there are good things in store for both of us!! Good luck, Bisma!
oh my God you are so sweet sadjksjdhaskdjasd
i’ve been feeling really bad lately but this really cheered me up so thank you
i hope everything works out for both of us! i joined the muslim student association and the pakistani club and a bunch of social justice clubs L O L
they lead prayer here too! i’m excited for that !
we can go on this college freshman journey together ! hahaha
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sure he had butchered the name but Noiz didn’t show that he cared. He had only
paused slightly at the mention of the name before tying away in his coil.
Mizuki moved closer to watch as he worked only to pause when he realized Noiz
wasn’t looking anything up. He frowned “What are you doing?”
gee I really don’t want to do this. I go to youth group at church every now and then and next week they’re talking about homosexuality and I truly don’t know what to expect. I’ve gotten homophobic vibes from them before and I feel kind of pissy thinking about what ignorant comments they might throw around. last time they spoke about women being stay at home moms and I spoke out saying I’d rather have a job and support my family than be a stay at home mom/rely on my ‘husband’. honestly I just feel so bitter right now. sometimes I enjoy going to youth group because I enjoy some of the conversations but other times our views clash and I lose my footing. religion confuses me and I don’t know where I stand.
Who starts most fights? uhh this is a tricky one. they both try not to fight with the other because they don’t like fighting but… i’d say it’s 50/50. they don’t fight often, but when they do, it’s bad.
Who surrenders at the end of most fights? rick
Who is more likely to cry during a fight? carol. it can be either angry tears or upset tears.
Who is more likely to storm out during a fight? 50/50.
Who is louder in fights? rick.
Who is more likely to throw things in fights? carol. she’d never try to throw something AT rick, but just in general out of frustration.
Who is more likely to bring up past mistakes? carol.
Who is more likely to give the silent treatment? carol. she’s incredibly good at being silent. thats when rick really knows hes fucked up.
Who is more likely to blame the other? rick. it’s sometimes hard for him to accept the blame.
Who is more likely to blame themselves? carol
Who gets jealous more easily? carol
Who is angered more easily? rick
Who is more likely to break off the relationship? carol
Who is more likely to threaten to leave? neither
Who is more likely to actually leave? rick
Who is more likely to forget the other first? that should probably say forgive right? either way, they typically forgive each other at the same moment. carol will make his favorite dinner and rick will pick up her favorite flowers and they both say i’m sorry as soon as he walks in the door.