I'M NOT OKAY

can u believe that in o helga natt even thought he lost isak just like he lost the balloon boys back at bakka….and he just accepted the fact that he was toxic to other people and he was destined to be alone…….and then isak showed up seemingly out of nowhere and even was so shocked he couldn’t find any words…..and isak just held him and told him he was not alone and even still felt like he didn’t deserve him because his thoughts were so insistent that he just ruins all good things…..do u ever cry about even bech næsheim

don’t imagine dan and phil on their last night in the london apartment, lying in phil’s shitty wicker bed and reminiscing about all the memories of the place that has sheltered them for the last five years, the good and the bad

don’t imagine them facing each other and staring into each other’s eyes, holding one hand in between them and giggling endlessly about the cracks and dents in the walls and floor due to the age of the building, and the ones they managed to make themselves over the years

don’t imagine them whispering quietly to each other about how excited they are for the new place, and how much they can’t wait for this next big step in their lives because as sad as it is to leave this place behind, many more amazing things still lie ahead of them

don’t imagine them cuddling up to each other before they fall asleep, dan wrapping his arms around phil’s waist and burying his face in his chest while phil rests his chin on top of dans head, rubbing the younger boys back- a position they’ve been in for thousands of nights, but it’s the last time that it’s happening in that particular bed, in that particular room, in that particular flat

don’t imagine dan whispering into phil’s chest when the older boy is fast asleep: “i don’t care where we go; as long as i’m with you, i’ll always be home”