I try to remember that every day

I couldn’t choose/didn’t remember to choose which challenge I’ll do this December so I just decided to do some random sketch every day about anything I want. So uh… Sketcember? Not all of them are going to be this polished probably though, I try to keep them quick and fun. Also if days get skipped then they are skipped and I move on. And I’ll post them in batches from now on.

Since I finished Pokémon Sun lately, here’s my son and his baby aka Gladion and Silvally.


Frankly, to say, i need something. I know people have been trying to help me or sent nice words to me, and I’m super grateful for that and it helped in some regard. But a part of me is still lost. And me being a religious person, i don’t deserve to ask God for anything. I can’t remember the last time i felt worthy of anything. I let go of every thing i ever known and i want to die more and more each day. But literally Sean is the only person that keeps me here, but he’s only been in my life for like 9 months. And it sucks to say that as well for some reason. All truth hurts. And i know all too well how much Sean cares for each and every one us and who loves us all. And I’m not trying to be an attention seeker. But as the days go on, my mind is trying to convince me that he doesn’t. Which makes everything so much harder. I need reassurance. Crap.
I need him..
I’m such a jerk..
He’ll never see this..
It’s so stupid..

pwnerninja  asked:

I'm really sorry in advance for this question and I wouldn't blame you if you don't want to answer, but I went through your entire faq and found nothing: Do you remember approx. how much fabric it took for your Keith jacket? I have a lot of fashion/sewing experience, and I'm going to help my friend make a Keith jacket. But they need to buy the fabric soon, and I've been searching online for the past hour or two trying to find a similar yardage(also where did you get ur mannequin?) Thanks!

Haha I’m sorry everyone’s so scared to ask me for Keith advice. On the other hand, it’s nice not getting a Keith message every day. \o/

That aside, I bought all that fabric from fabric.com and I think what I ended up getting was:

Red: 1yd
Dark red (including lining): 1.5yd
White: 1yd
Yellow: 0.5yd

Also my mannequin’s from Joann’s and it was a gift. If you’re in the market to buy one for yourself, you might consider investing in a dressform that’s made to your size, especially if you do a lot of sewing.

Today’s sketch turned into a tiny comic about crows. I think I’m going to try making small comics every day just to get accustomed to the process of making them. I really enjoyed this entire drawing, and I want to do more comics ANYWAY, so it seems like the logical thing to do. Crows do exhibit this sort of behavior. They will remember people’s faces or traits about them, and will tell other crows if that person treats them poorly.

These days I just can’t seem to say what I mean. I just can’t. Every time I try to say something, it misses the point. Either that or I end up saying the opposite of what I mean. The more I try to get it right the more mixed up it gets. Sometimes I can’t even remember what I was trying to say in the first place. It’s like my body’s split in two and one of me is chasing the other me around a big pillar. We’re running circles around it. The other me has the right words, but I can never catch her.
—  Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

The last time you hugged me I felt your hand on the back of my head as you pulled me into your chest. I try my best to remember that feeling when I fall asleep at night.

The last time you hugged me I felt your body heat radiate through me. I try to remember how that feels through the cold months that I won’t see you.

The last time you hugged me I felt the impression of your body on me like a stamp. I try my best to remember that feeling against my body every waking moment I miss you.

—  A 60 day love letter

I remember in middle school and high school being so concerned with what everybody else thought. I was trying to be someone I wasn’t. I wish I could’ve just let it slide and not cared about it. I think I was trying to be someone I wasn’t. If someone doesn’t like you, you don’t have to be mean to them. Whatever people tell you, don’t take it to heart. Just be the bigger person, let it slide, and find something every day that makes you happy

You know, sometimes I wish I’d known it’d be our last time. Our last kiss, our last touch, our last conversation. I wish I’d known because I would have paid attention to the details. The way you tilted my chin up with your hand before your lips brushed mine, the way your gentle hands caressed my skin, the way you smiled whenever I tried to make you laugh, even though what I said wasn’t remotely funny. But I didn’t. I didn’t pay attention. Because how was I to know it was the last time, that there wouldn’t be one to follow? All I see when I try to remember are your ghosts that still haunt me - but one day they’ll eventually leave me too. You turn into more of a stranger with every passing day.
—  evening thoughts #41
now it’s too late to pay attention

If you want to change your life, just start now:

1. think positiv
2. go for a run more often
3. be nice to your family and friends
4. eat something healthy every day
5. eat some chocolade
6. buy some new things
7. buy a good tea
8. don’t think about everything so much
9. be happy
10. train your mind to see the good in everything
11. remember that everything happens for a reason

—  I try to change and i think i’m on a good way :)

„I’ve always had. I always will. Just remember that, Stiles.”

For all my followers. I planned to do something like that ages ago, for my 1k mile stone, but I didn’t know how to say thank you properly. Now when I know, I’m far past that mark but I still try to figure out why all of you follow me :D Nonetheless I’m incredibly, deeply and seriously grateful you do so. You, guys, give me the energy, the reason to wake up every day and the purpose to come here. This tumblr wouldn’t have sense without you, and I know that this post is a small gift for everything what you give to me every day, but I hope that at least it would make you smile in the same way seeing your icons on my dash or in the activity log make me happy. This is my way of saying ‘I love you’!

hey hey hey everyone!! as a self-proclaimed mathlete & absolute math nerd, i figured i could share some quick little tips for such an amazing subject! soooo here you go:

practice, practice, practice!!

I always say that practice is the most essential aspect of studying & learning math- and many other subjects! This can take the form of homework (mini tip: always do your homework if you are able!!! it’s only to your benefit! even if it’s not for a grade, try your best to work on it anyway), practice problems from a textbook or workbook, old questions from a past quiz or test, etc. Even just a couple of practice problems every day, or some quick q’s before a test, can help a lot. Remember, repetition is a key form of revision!

take active notes

Math is a very active subject, so it’s important for your notes to reflect that. Basically, if you’re working on an example problem in the middle of your notes, write it down too. These problems can come back in quizzes or tests, and they really help reinforce material when you’re reviewing. Another way to keep your notes active is by drawing diagrams!! Diagrams can be essential for certain topics, so please don’t ignore them, even if you think you can remember what that graph looks like. Also, if you ever need to jot something down in the margins of your notes, do it! All of this will really help when you review.

know your calculator 

Whether you need to know how to use one, or how to survive without one, calculators are pretty much always relevant when it comes to math. If the subject you’re learning allows it, you should always have a calc nearby, and you should know its basic functions. That doesn’t mean know how to add & subtract (unless that’s all that’s necessary for you), it means being able to work the graphing function, or how to enter data into your calculator for statistical evaluation, how to find certain functions in your calc, etc. It’s also very important to know how to work without your calculator. As you progress in math, there will be certain things that you just need to know how to do, because they take too long with a calc. Basically, make sure you understand what you’re doing with your calculator, so that you can understand how to do it without your calculator.

keep track of everything!

Math is a lot of data & different steps that you need to keep track of. When working on something, know where your numbers (or other forms of data) are, make sure you aren’t missing any! Do your best not to skip steps, even if you’re great at working in your head. Missing data & skipped steps are major sources of error and tiny mistakes that can mess up a whole problem. Also, know your common errors! Do you tend to skip a certain step because you think you’ve got it? Do you sometimes misinterpret graphs or data? Once you’ve figured that out, be extra careful with the specific problems that you have trouble with. Keeping track of your work & your mistakes can help you improve a lot!

memorize what needs to be memorized

A lot of math can be done with basic understanding of how to work a problem & the process to find a solution (these things are generally memorized with practice!) but there are some things that just need to be memorized. Whether it’s elementary functions like addition & division, or basic trigonometry, if it’s not a process you can learn through understanding, and need to know, make sure you know!! Some things can be memorized with practice, and others require different methods of memorization (I typically write & rewrite things multiple times). You can find some great posts on memorization here!

more masterposts!!

i really love math & i wish everyone could see it like i do, so i hope this was helpful! keep shining like the star you are and don’t forget to be awesome today!!

- Aza

A trip down memory lane

Since it’s the one year anniversary of this glorious show, time to remember some of the random and weird things experienced by this fandom in no particular order (and please add to this because I can’t remember everything)

  • When we thought Volpina was going to be a superhero and join the team… and then Lila happened
  • the Valentine’s Day episode that would “break the internet”
  • mlsubbing’s subs. All of it.
  • “who is that cool girl who sits at the back with purple hair?”
  • Korean episodes airing earlier than French episodes
  • ml safe haven
  • trying to figure out who would be akumatized next even when we didn’t know all the classmate names
  • “Every time someone asks Hawkdaddy about Felix, a kitten dies”
  • trying to spot Fu in the background of every episode
  • when everyone thought Kim and Alix were friends because we hadn’t seen him interact with Max yet and omg the Heartrate. So much. Everywhere. Where did it go
  • #adrienknows2k16
  • #letadrieneat2k16
  • #savenooroo2k16
  • #probably some other stuff 2k16
  • The Stare™ in the Mime episode which made everyone thirsty for Ladrien
  • The Shower Scene™ in Jackady which quenched everyone’s thirst for Ladrien
  • Who is this red-headed jerk with a crush on Marinette getting in the way of the otp- wait actually he’s adorable nvm I love him
  • Theo having like 3 million jobs
  • When everyone supported France in the football/soccer because we wanted spoilers
  • The Kung Food episode when Marinette and Adrien were really friendly and close and it was so sweet and lovely and everyone was happy
  • People suddenly shipping Marichat after the Evillustrator episode because Chat actually flirted with Marinette and it was like whoa
  • “There’s an ad for the weather competition on the side of the bus, so what if Animan actually takes place before Stormy Weather”
  • trying to make a chronological order based on the pictures in Marinette’s room
  • Thinking “about time!” when Chloé finally got akumatized
  • Chat Noir murdered the Gorilla
  • “tomato son”
  • that time everyone thought Nino’s surname was gonna be some huge important part of the plot
  • #bowlprince
My Backpack Essentials (College)

Aside from textbooks and class materials, here are some things that I have found to be incredibly useful for long days at school:

  • Planner: My planner is what keeps my life from spiraling into an abyss of confusion and stress. I use it to jot down and keep track of any deadlines or events that come up.
  • Small notebook: Mine doubles as a bullet journal as well as a notepad for thoughts and ideas. In addition to my planner, I like to write out a tentative, detailed schedule / plan of action for each day - Crossing out tasks is one of the most satisfying feelings ever. One of my goals for this year is to write more, so having a notebook on hand keeps me accountable. I’m less prone to forgetting or losing inspiration if I write a thought down right away rather than try to remember it later. 
  • Pencil case: I keep pencils, pens, erasers, highlighters, post-it notes, and paper clips - basically every utensil that I would need for class or a study session. I hate having to dig through my backpack for a pencil, so having it all in one place is nice.
  • Lotion & lip balm: When my lips or hands are dry, I tend to focus on the discomfort of it, which prevents me from paying attention to class or whatever I’m studying.
  • Hand sanitizer: Some people are sick. Some people are gross. Colleges have a lot of people in a small area. Sometimes bathrooms run out of soap.
  • Feminine hygiene products: Mother Nature is full of surprises. Even if you don’t think you need to have some with you at all times, a friend might and you’ll be a superhero.
  • Tissues: Sniffling like a bunny in class because your nose is runny isn’t fun.
  • Water bottle: Staying hydrated is the key to good health, good skin, and staying awake. If you’re feeling burned out and unfocused, chugging some cold water could help. I like to keep a reusable water bottle so I can refill it at water fountains. 
  • Travel mug: I love having caffeine or just some herbal tea with me for long study sessions. It’s a lot cheaper to make your own coffee/tea or to fill up your mug at the dining hall rather than go to Starbucks/your campus coffeeshop.
  • Medicine & band-aids: Vital for headaches, cramps, colds, allergy season, accidental boo boo’s, etc.
  • Floss: This sounds strange, but there have been so many times where something has stubbornly gotten stuck in my teeth at the worst possible moments (think before speeches, presentations, interviews). 
  • Headphones: Awesome for walking to class, concentrating while studying, and avoiding people you don’t want to talk to.
  • Glasses: I wear contacts, and glasses are great for when your contacts get dry and uncomfortable or you accidentally rip one.
  • Cash: I don’t recommend carrying around a lot, but there are some places that don’t accept cards. 
  • Homework/study material that don’t require extreme focus: Bring some assignments or notes to review that aren’t too labor-intensive for those chunks of time between classes or your commuting time. I find it difficult to sit down and work on something “big” if I only have a 30 minute time slot, but a lot that can be accomplished during that time! I recommend looking over notes, watching tutorial videos, or looking at flashcards. 
  • Laptop/tablet: None of my classes allow having a laptop in class, but I use it all the time for homework and studying. 
  • Snacks: Food = energy and motivation.

I hope this is helpful for some of you! Best of luck and happy studying :)

I remember where I was during 9/11.  I was in middle school living in Chicago and my mom picked me up and drove me home because she didn’t believe I was safe.  I remember that the sky looked green that day.  My uncle was in the FBI and his wife was a flight attendant, I remember him and my mom and the rest of her family going to every extent possible to try to figure out where she was since all communication had been cut off.  My aunt was on a different flight and was ok.

I remember where I was during the Virginia Tech shooting.  I was in middle school in Connecticut and my mom picked me up from school at the end of the day and held my hand from the front seat the entire way home because she needed tangible proof that her own child was still with her.

I remember where I was during the Boston marathon bombing.  I was in my first year of college living in Boston and I had just gotten off the train. I had been at Copley Square not even twenty minutes before.  I remember how lucky I felt to have left the scene before they went off.  I remember being kept under lockdown in my house for days, we couldn’t even take out the trash without being ushered back into our homes by the police.  The streets were completely silent.

I remember where I was during the Orlando shootings.  I was drunk on a rooftop in Boston, watching the sky get lighter as the sun started rising.  I was making my friends listen to my favorite Bright Eyes album and we chain smoked cigarettes as the sunlight sobered us up.  I woke up a few hours later to a text from my mom “did you hear the news?” I felt my lungs drop into my knees and I wished I could feel marginally safer in my own city a thousand miles away from Orlando.

Before now the killings were indiscriminate. They involved the people who just so happened to be there at the time, they hid behind a veil of happenstance and impulsiveness.  This time it was different, this was simultaneously a mass murder and a hate crime.  The ‘audience’ was planned and calculated.

This shooter did more than just massacre over 50 people.  He took away every single safe space for LGBTQIA+ people in doing so.  He knew exactly where and how to find us because we did not feel the need to hide.  He went into our safe space and he destroyed it.  I am mourning the loss of every single life that he took, and I am mourning the security of explicitly queer spaces.

I have lived through too many mass killings in my lifetime already.  So have you.


I remember in middle school and high school being so concerned with what everybody else thought. I was trying to be someone I wasn’t. I wish I could’ve just let it slide and not cared about it. I think I was trying to be someone I wasn’t. If someone doesn’t like you, you don’t have to be mean to them. Whatever people tell you, don’t take it to heart. Just be the bigger person, let it slide, and find something every day that makes you happy.

Study Tips from a Law Student.

Even if you are not a law student, I think these study tips can be helpful regardless of your program :)

1. Review your notes daily and weekly.

Many people in the studyblr community will recommend this and I completely agree: STUDY YOUR NOTES DAILY! Before I start assignments that are due the following day, I always review my notes from readings and class that I wrote for that day. Reviewing your notes daily helps you to remember the information! 

At the end of the week, I study all the notes from the past week. Studying the material at the end of the week helps to conceptualize the information into bigger concepts (which leads to a higher level of learning). Definitely try to review notes from class and any reading assignments both daily and weekly!

2. Make an Outline.**** 

Making an outline for a class is A LOT of work. However, I recommend outlining bi-weekly (every other Saturday works well for me) or at the end of a unit/section of the material. Outlining is not only a good way to review the material; it also helps to create a study guide that you can use for final exams! The more effort you put into creating an outline, the more useful it will be! I starred this tip because this is THE MOST HELPFUL! I promise. If you need help or want more tips on starting an outline, don’t hesitate to ask :)

3. Use Color. 

Studying with multiple highlighters motivates me! I can’t study on white paper for an extended period of time; my mind gets bored and then will be distracted. Using highlighters brightens my notes and my mood. Also, it can help you focus on the most important material for your class! 

4. Study with Others.

Group projects are the worse. However, in law school, studying with a group is ESSENTIAL (see Legally Blonde, also known as one of the best movies of all time). Meeting with other classmates and talking about the material will help you! I promise! You can identify and clarify any disconnects in your knowledge of the information. Plus, there’s usually food involved (so that is always a motivation lol)

5. Know Yourself. *cue Drake’s Know Yourself*

SERIOUSLY. Know how you operate! THIS IS A MAJOR KEY TO SUCCESS (Thank you DJ Khaled). 

Are you a morning person? Or are you more productive at night? When you know how you work best, you can arrange your schedule to study at the most productive time for YOU!

I hope these tips help! :) Any questions, feel free to ask :)

‘These days I just can’t seem to say what I mean’, she said. 'I just can’t. Every time I try to say something, it misses the point. Either that or I end up saying the opposite of what I mean. The more I try to get it right the more mixed up it gets. Sometimes I can’t even remember what I was trying to say in the first place. It’s as though my body’s split in two and one of me is chasing the other me around a big pillar. We’re running circles around it. The other me has the right words, but I can never catch her.’
—  Haruki Murakami, Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman (Firefly)
It’s fucked up how now, two years later, I can sit on a park bench with my best friend and still spew your name from my mouth. I shouldn’t even remember how it tastes, let alone want to taste it almost every day. It’s fucked up when she asks about people after you and my love for them, and how I answer with the truth. “I haven’t loved anyone the way I loved her.”
I try to make excuses for the missed relationships I’ve had now, but I have no reasoning passed knowing I can’t feel the way I felt with you. I can’t wake up in the morning knowing that life was beautiful because your face was in it every day. I can’t consciously tell anyone that I’m in love with them when I get annoyed that they sing the wrong words to your favorite song while its blasting in the car. I can’t talk about a future with a lover when no one makes me look forward to seeing the morning sunrise tomorrow the way you did.
So I sit on the park bench with my best friend and explain to her; “I won’t be with anyone until I’m with someone who made the ‘butterflies in my stomach’ expression real again. I won’t be with anyone until I go to bed eager to wake up and take on the next day. I won’t be with anyone until I’m okay with all of my secrets being shared with someone again. I won’t be with anyone until I feel the love I felt for her, because that’s when I know it’s real.”
She tries to explain to me that you love different people in different ways. Convincing me that I’m not completely broken and just because I wouldn’t have died for her doesn’t mean I didn’t love her as much. But every day with her my heart broke a little knowing she wasn’t you.
And I hate myself for trying to love anyone how I love you. I hate myself for knowing that that love only ends in pain and here I am, trying so fucking hard to feel it again. But now I know.
I won’t be with anyone until your name is nothing but a distant memory, and a sour taste in my mouth.
I won’t be with anyone until I forget you.
—  Who are you?