I should delete it

I swear, one of the most frustrating things in the world is being a social worker with chronic depression. The amount of times I’m told to get my diet and exercise into a good routine because it will help is staggering.

And it’s extra frustrating because I know that. I went to school for that. I teach my clients that.

But I work 50-60 hours a week to take care of men with addictions and very serious mental health issues and it’s hard to have enough energy for myself when I get home every day.

Then of course the negative self-talk kicks in. “Your clients have it so much worse. Why are you so lazy? Just get your shit together. You’re faking your way through life, you’re such a disaster.”

I tell my friends all the time, “Be gentle with yourself.”

Wouldn’t it be nice if we could take our own advice?

anonymous asked:

me and my ex broke up a month ago, and the last time we talked was exactly a month ago today. the other day i noticed he unfollowed me on instagram, but he still has me as a friend on facebook and snapchat, and he always watches my stories regardless of when i posted them. i want to reach out to him but i know i'll be disappointed if i do and probably won't get any closure out of it. should i just delete him off everything?

Yes. It’s hard but it will be better. Delete him on snapchat etc. Delete all the pictures you both have together. The memories will haunt you for some time, but they will fade. You’re strong. You can find someone else. 

160816 Suga’s FC Post//Trans

The thing with music is that it comes easy then becomes really hard then comes easy again / sometimes (I) sit there for dozens of days and nothing comes out and other times (I’m) there for only ten minutes and music comes out / hmm (I’ve) been making music for 11years now and it’s still hard haha like life
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Turns out I started making music since I was 13

During this long journey I think I was able to take time to organize my thoughts on who the person ‘me’ is / although I was able to organize my thoughts on who I am, I’m not going to tell
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Of my beats, I chose only the aces to work with / I had saved them for Bangtan’s album but well…I think I’ll be able to make better music anyways :) / I’ll be doing music for much longer than I have been so far *laugh*
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I spent close to half my life making music, you’d think it’d get tiring but while living my 24years there hasn’t been anything else I’ve been as passionate for / since my personality is impatient anytime I started something new it never lasted :)
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I’ve always wanted to be the best to someone

That’s why I was restless and anxious while comparing myself to others, not being satisfied (with my work), being greedy, thinking, being sad…

Greed which was a weapon sometimes turned into anger

While working on this mixtape, (I) went back to my 13 year old self and saw a memory stuck in the corner of my mind / When I first started making music, rather than someone who is the best at making music, I wanted to make music that would give comfort and emotions to someone.
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I think this work has been work that brought me comfort

Why does this young guy have so much resentment

The guy of expectations was always so far from me so there were many times when I clenched my jaw* / due to that I was always able to show you beyond expectation

What a relief :)
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I don’t really like interpreting and explaining songs

Music isn’t the creator’s but the listener’s

That’s why during my album reviews I don’t explain the song or the lyrics but I focus on the process in making the songs / Even if I were to explain, it’s not something that really can be understood / Interpretation is solely on the listener

Chew it out, tear it apart, taste it, enjoy it to your heart’s content
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While doing this work I felt like I was going back and forth between heaven and hell multiples times a day / Sometimes I’d feel great about something and then get scared about messing it up / sometimes I’d feel ah this is enough and then feel a bit of regret / It felt quite different from what I felt (while doing) Bangtan’s album / I started this while going around on tour and it was crazy but while working on the second half I’m thankful I had some breathing room because the bighit family helped.
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Thank you to Yankie hyung and Suran nuna who helped without hesitation with just one phone call even though it’s not even an official album and just a mixtape :)
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Will be together with you at your creation and at the end of your life
Wherever you are, will welcome you
In the end, at the end of adversity, will be in full bloom
Though the start may be humble, the end will be prosperous
*lyrics from so far away feat. suran*

(trans cr. Joyce @bts-trans)
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Min Yoongi is most definitely a genius

DO NOT REPOST
Trans by @bangtoori​ 

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Peaceful mornings at the Skywalker residence. Sorry I was too lazy to google a more legit prosthetic.  EDIT: This is way too late and probably futile, but for the record, this comic takes place in a domestic Earth AU.

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You’re right. I can’t save you. The whole time he had me, there was some part of me that fought. There was some tiny corner of my brain that tried to get out. And I’m still fighting. I won’t stop fighting. But if you give up, I lose. Do you get that? He did this to you to get at me. To isolate me. To make me feel like an infection, one more person dead or dying because of me. So why don’t you remember how to be a goddamn human being again, instead of this self-pitying piece of shit that he turned you into, and save me for once? You choose.

AKA The Sandwich Saved Me