The reason why I love kaneki ken turned into a character explanation, non text version
So I guess the reason I love kaneki is because of how complicated his character actually is.
Its not something that you’ll probably understand, and I’m sure you see him as some psychotic freak (my friend seriously has something against him).
But when in reality kaneki is just a lonely and broken child. His mother died when he was a young age, leaving him all alone with an aunt that only took him in because she felt guilty.
His aunt totally ignored his existene, which led to kaneki working harder in school to get good grades so his aunt would notice him. But in fact it cause the opposite. By getting good grades, it made his aunts son look bad. Which made his aunt hate kaneki.
So after kaneki’s mother died, he had no one else that loved him in the world until he met hide,(at least that’s how I’m guessing he saw it) which is probably why kaneki never wanted hide to know that he had become a ghoul. Kaneki didn’t want hide to leave or hate him.
We all know the story of the failed book store date, so I won’t go into that (*internally sobs*)
Eventually, kaneki got mixed up with some bad people who wanted him because he had Rizes organs in him.
He was given to Jason, who then because he never got to torture rize, decided that the next closet thing would be kanekk. (I’ll say this once more, this is all what I think, it may or may not be true).
During the week he was being held captive, kaneki created his own world to keep him from going mad, and Rize was the person who his mind had decided to project.
The questions that Rize asks kaneki in his mind is actually kaneki starting to question his mother’s true motives. (Once again, this is my theory)
He finaly meets his breaking point when he finally realizes, that yes, his mother chose her work over him. His own mother deemed her sister more important and worked herselfbto death trying to keep her lousy sister afloat.
Kaneki’s previous mindset that his mother was right is shattered and he realizes that its not fair, he for ONCE in his life decides to fight back. Causing him to eat the figmited Rize, which probably represented his doubts and fears.
Of course, you can’t expect someone to come out of his endeavour squeaky clean. The stress caused his hair to go white and the constant need to regenerate his fingers caused his blood under his nails to clot and thus make it look black. (Poor soul)
He also came out with this new mindset, ‘I have to be strong’ 'if I’m strong then no one will have to die’ .
Which led him to start canabalizing other ghouls, because somewhere along the line, he had heard that it can make you stronger, and kaneki needed to get stronger so he could protect those he loved.