I love you more

I’m here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me.
I’m so scared.
Scared that you’ll get over me so fast.
That I am just a pass-by, a fling for you.
That you do like that girl that comments on all your instagram pictures more than you like me.
Even though you said you don’t.
That you’d prefer a girl who does look good in the morning when she just woke up,
without having to conceal the dark circles under her eyes.
That every moment with me would easily be replaced for moments with others.
That even though you say you love me, you don’t do nearly as much as I do love you.
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Please don’t leave

Excerpt of a book I’ll never write.

I’d always say, “I love you more” and even though you’d always say, “Not a chance,” I was right all along
—  I wish you loved me more than this
Take some advice from a girl who’s been through it too…
1.) Trust me, it will get easier. I know right now you’re choking back your tears and trying not to cry in the middle of class but whether it takes you a week or 3 years. Everything will get easier.
2.) Hang out with your friends. Don’t sit at home and let your thoughts take over, go out. Go get drunk and party all night. Or simply just watch a movie and eat some popcorn. Do something so your thoughts don’t take over, because I know right now they aren’t the best.
3.) Don’t cry alone. When it’s 3 a.m. and you’re laying all alone in your bed sobbing into your pillow, go in your moms room. She understands what you’re going through, let her help you.
4.) Cry as much as you need to. Whether it be in your car or in the bathroom at school during lunch. Cry, seriously. Crying is one of the best things you can do right now.
5.) Kiss as many boys as it takes to take the taste of his lips off of yours.
6.) Talk to someone. It can be anyone. Your best friend, mom, dad, grandma. Anyone. They won’t get annoyed, as a matter of fact they will probably feel so good you came to them for advice.
7.) Get some sleep. I know right now he’s taking up your dreams and you don’t want to fall asleep because you will see his green eyes again. But you need sleep, love. Go to sleep.
8.) You aren’t alone. You have people who love you, trust me.
9.) Don’t forget to eat. I know you aren’t hungry and I realize that you feel like you can’t go on but drink a cup of water and eat a sandwich. It will make you feel better.
10.) Just because he left doesn’t mean you’re worthless. You are beautiful, kind, and caring. You will find someone else, and I know first hand you think that you won’t. But someone will come into your life and pick up all the pieces he left scattered and glue them back together. You just have to be patient.
—  Things I wish I was told after my heart was broke