I have been on and off crying all day

I’ve gotten tons of messages and responses in reply to my original post.  I can’t say how grateful I am to all of you individually right now (I’m checking tumblr at 2am here!), but my god I can’t stop smiling at all of you, even those who just liked the post.  I’ll reply to you later because I want to, and I want to express my gratitude to each person individually for how wonderfully you’ve treated me (even if it’s just a short casual informal one!).

Not to sound big headed, but I’m glad to know I’ve helped the community, and that the community has enjoyed what I’ve provided, even if it’s just reblogs. 

Thank you again, I’ll be on sporadically as usual.  Be good to yourselves :)

@alexholtondxo

look, i’m not usually one to pull the plug on relationships that aren’t mine, but the on and off thing between tiffany and your delta brother has got to stop. she’s been crying in the bathroom for days on end, and i’m sick of having to pretend to care every single time. i’m all about the bonds of sisterhood, but i’ve got limits and she’s severely testing them. — so, what do you suggest we do? 

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If you listen REAL hard, you can hear me crying as I posted this like 15 minutes before the deadline hit. (And I had all day yesterday off too, a Tragedy…)

Anyways, Swirling Rebirth and Lava Reach have been entered into the Flameforger’s contest! I know Swirling Rebirth is skincent territory definitely (and will be priced at 750g in my shop in the case it does not win), but I still need to do a check on Lava Reach to see just how much it covers- anyone with PS who knows how to check accents, can you PM me please Crateshya #124282? 

I’ll be getting up previewers for both shortly- for now I need some SLEEP X_X

If you want to get on the pre-order list early, please visit my accent shop! :> I’ll try and get a price up asap on Lava Reach, as well as previews.

I AM LATE TO THE PARTY BUT W/E

THIS IS THE YEAR WHERE ALL MY OTPS HAVE BECOME CANON. I HAVE BEEN SUPPORTING THEM SINCE DAY FUCKING ONE. OVER 13+ YEARS AND IT HAS PAID OFF WITH CANON-NESS. HAHAHAHAHA WOW I AM SO HAPPY. SASUSAKU, ICHIHIME, RENRUKI, GOD DAMN THIS IS GOOD YEAR. I’LL EVEN ADD IN STEIN AND MARIE FROM SOUL EATER.


I’m also crying because I feel old as shit and my childhood is gone. it’s fine.

Life Update Number whatever: I only need to make it 5 more days. I can do that right? I can… Only 5 more days of spending all day in a room that smells like piss and having to clean up or step on said piss while taking care of a bedridden father. So. Close.

And I know it’s stupid but honestly my privacy just feels so violated right now. All day, I’m available if my dad needs help. I wake up early so I can. But tonight he made me stay in his room from 9 to almost midnight. And that’s my time. That’s my writing time and my relaxing time and my catch up on drinking enough water or whatever other self care thing I put off during the day. That’s my. Time. And he didn’t let me have it today.

It’s so stupid but I’m honestly crying right now. And I’ve been wanting to cry for the last hour. I was going to write tonight. I have so many projects right now. I can’t do them all even when I do manage to write. And writing lately has been hard anyways. I do it but there’s so much other stuff to do and I only have evenings to do it and I can’t damn focus and I usually only write 500 words and I need to scrap 1-2 days of work anyways cause it blows and just.

I just can’t. I can’t handle this.

IM NOT DEAD ??!!

I’m just !! BUSY !! I’ve been working & I start college on Monday, and I only get like 2 days off a week, so I’ve been spending those with my best friend, since she’ll be attending beauty school & then our schedules won’t give us time to see each other much once everything starts up again. So all of my time is dedicated to her when it can be.

I have my blog on mobile view just bc i’m not here, & once I adjust to a new schedule i’ll try to be on more !! I’m also trying to revive my Prompto blog, & i’m seeing Kingsglaive tonight !! So my hype for XV is still up there, despite the delay.

I love Serah & I have no plans to leave her blog, but I just have no time, & when I do, it’s given to the person I love the mostest !!

@ranirus @tsubatai-ffxiv @oneleggedwaifu @aethericseafarer @raspberrysgamingcorner @ferai-caolann @lauranis

AND SO MANY BLOODLY MORE BUT I DONT REMEMBER BLOG NAMES

Seriosuly though, its been a year. A full year! What started off as old Mabinogi friends asking me to play only to tell them I didnt have the money to pick it up. Then those fuckers surprised me for my birthday. The game, game time and server transfer. Today was when I started. The 23rd was my first day on Balmung. I don’t regret it, I don’t think I every will. I floored them all with how engrossed and attached I became. Next thing I knew I was doing everything I could. I’ve met so many amazing people, even with some ups and downs. I got into rping threw the game, something I never enjoyed before! I changed my race so many times and even my gender. I laughed, I cried and I panicked. Most of all I enjoyed myself threw it all no matter. The amount of love all you amazing people have showed me is just mind blowing. Theres more I want to tag but I don’t remember blog names well so I’ll leave it at that.

Thank you all for the amazing year, and remember. You guys are some of the greatest friends I could ask for, even if we’re terrible and don’t talk often.

From myself and Rin, Thank you <3

anonymous asked:

I've been calling dog rescues and looking at lost n found dog websites for my girls dog all day do you have any positive stories bc I'm emotionally exhuastedlmao

my doggies tag is full of super cute pups!! but if you’re tired of dogs try the im crying tag…but uhhh my dad shaved his eyebrow off when he was a kid and he told his dad he fell off his skateboard onto his eyebrow and scraped it off. and my grandpa said “stop playing around with my razors” and send him to school with one eyebrow LMAO

bkayl  asked:

Nissy, your story is one of the best I've read right there at the very top of the list. So well written, such a good plot and I absolutely love what you did with the character's personalities, all of them. This is such a good read. (The tension between jikook.. I have no words) In conclusion, I love you, have a nice day

im gonna cry i was rly worried i could barely sleep last night but i think a weight has just been lifted off my chest i lov u so much

jeremy-bentham replied to your post “welp i went and bought a new monitor bc my other one, as the guy so…”

I’m on the last episode of my Lost rewatch too and I’ve been putting it off for a couple of weeks because I’m not ready.

i marathoned almost all of season six on friday (before my monitor decided to die) and MY PLAN WAS to watch the finale on sunday bc i literally had no plans so i was like ayyyy i shall set aside my afternoon for crying

then the computer issue happened so i didn’t get to watch it yet but i’ll prob watch it tmw bc i only have a half day at work

leaves me plenty of time to be an emotional wreck in the privacy of my own room

Improvements

Today I took Rico for a walk around campus, something we have been doing a lot lately since he doesn’t have a yard anymore. It was definitely a good day for him, perfect loose leash walking and good checking in, amazing. Then, a large black lab came pulled out of her owners hands and came charging up to us. I stepped between and told her no, and she did sort of stop, but she was within a foot of Rico and huge and off leash. All of which would normally incite the biggest screaming fest known to man as Rico tried to Slaughter this dog. But after minimal snarling, he settled down and held a sit while the owner collected her and apologized, and we walked across the street from them for quite a ways and he totally ignored her. It was such a huge difference from a couple months ago I was blown away!