I feel so emotional right now

For years now, Dan has told us how he always wanted Phil’s straight hair. Now that he has embraced his curls, and Phil made a video about curling his hair to match and even saying that he wants a “Dan curl,” i just…… am feeling so many things right now…

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Okay! confession time!

The reason I’ve been so slow about Prompts and Fanfiction lately is because I’m going through a depressive episode (I just have to give it time, they said?) Where, basically, my mind is trapped in a spiral of odd emotions right now. It’s taxing and I’m just trying to smile while it takes it course, I’m hoping it leaves soon cause… honestly?

I’m too happy to be depressed! lol (So it’s frightening to me that I’m feeling this way…)

Anyway, that’s the story, :) I appreciate the support, and I will DEFINITELY get your prompt requests and Fanfiction edits, seasons, and new editions going but for now, please give me time and patience.

 I need to move at my own speed for a while, okay?

I’ll keep trying my darnest though to get those posts out! Until next time! Stay tuned ;)

shaish  asked:

Your tags about Scarlett being a douche canoe white feminist sAME EVERY TIME I SEE A NAT ANYTHING NOW WHY

RIGHT LIKE Natasha Romanoff is the actual LOVE OF MY LIFE (if i loved nat any more i’d be Bucky barnes) but i can’t fucking STAND scarjo and her White Feminist™ bullshit so i always feel such conflicting emotions whenever i see MCU!Nat like I will literally sell my soul for them to re-cast Nat (preferably to be played by an eastern Russian/Kyrgyz/Uzbek actress!!)

I was tagged by @biancadelbitch​ and @ic-chi to list 10 of my fave songs right now 💞

  • love on the brain- rihanna
  • best to you- blood orange
  • deceptacon- le tigre
  • so emotional- whitney houston 
  • feeling so- shea couleé
  • swing tree- discovery
  • pressure- milk & bone
  • want you back- haim
  • lipgloss- charli xcx ft. cupcakke
  • 12:51- the strokes

i tag: @afterdearest @taylortrinity @yekatarina @freaksofinterest @biancavelour @assleak @cygnerose and anyone else who wants to do it ✨

Well Mamoru showed up, so that’s that fun over.

And actually that’s about time, so I guess that’s where we’ll call it. We did exactly nothing new todayI didn’t even get as far as I usually try to get when we’re doing Pixie Excuses.

REGRET NOTHING

I WALLOWED IN A POOL OF SENSHI BAND AND AM REBORN CLEANSED AND UNBURDENED

If ever there is doubt that I am an absurd human being who somehow manages to function despite all appearances, let days like today remind you, where at one point I was so overcome with Senshi Feelings that I teared up a little for absolutely no valid reason whatsoever.

I hope you guys had fun. I sure as fuck did, and loathe as I am to admit it, I have @docholligay to thank for it. If you enjoyed too, make sure to drop her a note of thanks. That asshole, making me HAVE JOY and EXPERIENCE EMOTIONS.

I leave you with this, which truly is my entire state of being right now.

God, being on my period I just feel so Extra™, and it feels like I’m sensitive or emotional over things I hadn’t thought about it forever, and it’s like???? Why, brain? That shit hasn’t mattered since forever now, and you wanna bring that up? Nothing’s even wrong, everything’s going fine, that person is chill!!! But then my brain just decides it’s that periodic time for me to be upset or emotional about xyz wow ok thanx

CPR | Chapter 2 Pt. 4

Hello! This is part 4 of the second chapter of CPR! I hope you enjoy this chapter as much as the first one!

After Dan had agreed to have the conversation with you right then and there, you asked your boss if you could take your 30 minute break early, and he let you. You took Dan to a small outside patio meant only for employees, so no one could disturb you. You sat down in one of the two lounge chairs and waited until Dan had sat down as well before you started talking. “Look, I… I know I didn’t really do a very good job of explaining what happened five years ago, but I…” You started, feeling your emotions overwhelm you now that you were actually going to have to talk about this. You’d had this conversation in your head many times but even that could not have prepared you for the real thing. You knew how you felt and what you wanted to say, sure, but there was no way of knowing what Dan was feeling or thinking. “I didn’t even know what I was feeling back then myself. Now I think I can admit that it was fear, it wasn’t you, like I told you it was. I should never have said that, I didn’t even think about what it might have felt like for you.” You explained, shaking your head as you remembered what you’d said that night. Telling someone they aren’t worthy of love is pretty much the worst thing anyone can do. “I was furious and hurt for a long time after that, I have to admit. Really called you every name under the sun.” Dan took a sharp breath and he looked back up at you. “But when I met Jake and we started dating I started to understand how you felt. I was so scared of him, so scared of what would happen if it really took off and I would fall hard.” Dan looked down at his hands, his fingers fumbling with the hem of his shirt. You’d never seen him quite this nervous. “I didn’t know how to be with someone who made me feel so much.” Dan admitted, a long sigh escaping his lips.

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first off, jaemin’s health is absolutely the most important thing, and i’m so glad sm isn’t putting him at risk of further injury. but i’m just……my heart is so sad for this poor boy and how he must be feeling. since his injury, he’s missed:

1) the first major awards show of his career
2) the first year-end shows of his career
3) all the v lives/videos from the end of november til now
4) the fan interactions the rest of the group has had (christmas fanboard, new years greetings, etc)
5) HIS GROUP RECEIVING THEIR FIRST AWARD

and now his group is making their first comeback without him…….i can’t even imagine how overwhelmingly disappointing and frustrating and painful this has been for jaemin, watching his group do all these things without him, i am so crushed for my child i just

Wonder Woman was the superhero movie we all deserved. There will never be a moment more iconic than Diana Prince rising from the trenches and storming No Mans Land like the motherfucking queen she is.

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Hey.

Just listen to me for a sec.

Breathe. Breathe deeply.

Stretch for a minute, straighten your back, have a drink and maybe a snack if you need it. Wash your face if you want to and freshen up, maybe rest once you’ve finished reading this.

Whatever you’re doing will still be there when you get back.

You’ve been working hard and doing a good job and I’m proud of you. You deserve a break for a second.

Just trust me on this, okay?

You’ve survived everything that’s happened to you up until this point.

That’s a lot of things, isn’t it?

You’ve gone through all that, and it doesn’t matter if you fought through it or cried through it or nearly didn’t make it.

It doesn’t matter because you’re here now.

You’re real, you’re here, and you’re okay.

And if you’re not okay right now, I promise you will be again sooner or later.

Because I believe in you.

I love you.

I’m so proud of you for being here today.

I’m so proud of you for existing here right now.

It’s a scary, painful, difficult world. I know. And sometimes it gets hard to exist and want to exist. I know.

Let out the emotions you’re bottling up. Let yourself breathe. Let yourself feel. Let yourself rest. Let yourself be you.

Just always keep existing. ‘Cause I’d miss you if you ever stopped, and there’s so much left in the world that you haven’t seen yet.

And always remember to breathe.

After some thinking, I want to politely point out a few things to those of you saying Touka and Kaneki’s sex scene was rushed and meaningless.

Did kaneki and touka rush into having sex? Yes. But that’s entirely the point - in no way does that make it meaningless or perverted.

Kaneki and Touka have seen all of this happen before. Their hideout has been found. Their faces have been unmasked. Kaneki is the most wanted ghoul in Japan, and this is pretty much the beginnings of war for them. People are going to die. And they both know it can be either one of them at any time. Neither of them were going to wait for the “perfect moment, ” not when there’s a good chance that neither of them will live to see it.

What you’ve got to remember is that people don’t always make the best decisions when it comes to sex. More often than not, people get caught up in the moment and do it before they should do. This rushed nature is actually quite realistic. Even with Yorirko’s life hanging, Touka is keeping cool because she knows jumping to conclusions and being rash will do no good - she’s seen this before with Hinami’s mother.

Touka has experienced enough loss to know that she has to live for the living, and do whatever she can to keep those people alive. Sure, she’ll fight to protect kaneki, but that isn’t always what it’s about; with kaneki being suicidal in the past, she’s trying her best to give him an incentive to live. She’s letting Kaneki know that he’s loved even though she struggles to express anything other than her primal emotions. Kaneki needs to know that he’s loved right now. If there was anything more about Hide right now, it would be a bad turn for kaneki since he’d be living for the dead. It’s so important that he learns other people than Hide care for him that I’m shocked that people actually want Hide related stuff instead of this. Even though Touken wasn’t my favourite ship, I’m so happy because this is such an important hurdle for Kaneki’s character being overcome.

So yes, they rushed into having sex. However, I honestly feel this was a perfectly natural action for two broken people under pressure. They weren’t going to wait when there is a good chance there wasn’t going to be any other time for them. They both wanted to do it. Even if this is a sort of humorous thing to add remember they were virgins in their twenties as well; touka has done enough waiting on Kaneki, haha.

Please stop saying that their relationship is meaningless compared to his and Hide’s because it just isn’t true. The only other time Kaneki cried during a happy time was their first visit to :Re when he was so relieved to see Touka alive and he thought about what a beautiful person she was. After this, Haise gazed at her the same way Kaneki gazed at Rize - which Kaneki didn’t deny. If this doesn’t show how much Kaneki loves touka then I don’t know what will.

I’m honestly so proud of Touka for being so bold and collected here. She’s developed in so many ways. Sometimes, when written well, sex can really bond characters in books. While it remains to be seen, I’m really excited to see their relationship change and, hopefully, kaneki opening up to her by learning that people other than Hide love him. This is a good turn of events for both of them.

anonymous asked:

Hello! How would you write a dialogue in which a character is freaking out about something? I generally have them word vomit but I don't really like that style. If its too much could you show me an example as well?

Hi!

You could definitely word vomit – especially if your character is hysterical – but that’s not the only way to do it by any means. I know a few other ways.

1. Calmly.
This is strange, considering your character is freaking out, but the freak-out is internal – they’re shutting themselves off due to shock. In this case, they would be quiet, sane, and even if what they’re saying is illogical, it would probably sound reasonable.

“I was right there when she shot him. He dropped like a sack of flour. I figured he was gone as soon as the bullet hit his chest. So now I’ve decided I’m gonna go after her. Right now. And I’m gonna kill her.”
“What? You can’t do that!”
“Sure I can. She killed him, so I kill her. It’s called justice.”
“But- With just your bare hands?”
“The way I feel right now, my bare hands are more than enough.”

Notice how the character who just watched their friend die in front of them isn’t yelling, isn’t stuttering, isn’t getting angry or crying – they’re perfectly calm, almost to the point of complete emotional shutdown.

2. Angrily.
Some people get angry when they lose control and freak out – it scares them, and the fear manifests itself as anger. This type particularly happens when they’re upset about something and other characters aren’t taking it seriously or are shrugging off their concerns.

“No! It’s happening tonight! We don’t have time to think, or weigh things, we need to fucking leave! Now!”
“We can’t. You know that, and you’d remember that, if you were thinking straight-”
“I am thinking straight! It’s you who’s fucked in the head. I don’t give a damn what you think we can and can’t do, we need to clear out of here, right this second.”

As you can see, this character is freaking out – their concerns may or may not have a firm foundation, but obviously they are concerned, and that concern is manifesting itself as fury.

3. By stuttering.
For some people, it’s hard to talk when they panic, because their minds race forward ahead of their mouths and they get tongue-tied. I typically see/use this with more anxious characters, or with characters who aren’t typically good at speaking anyways (in other words, who are uncomfortable with talking).

There are a couple of different ways to stutter:
a. Repeat the beginning of each word.

“I tr-tried to s-save him, but he wuh-wouldn’t l-let me … he knew it was g-going to happen. It’s my f-fault!”

(However, keep in mind that this kind of stuttering is more as if you’re character is crying and trying to talk through sobs and hiccups. Please use it sparingly – it can get old fast.)

b. Repeat words.

“No. No, I don’t know what’s going on, Ricky. Ricky, why would I have any idea? Don’t fucking look at me like that, Ricky. Don’t look at me like I’m lying.”

c. Insert filler sounds: “ah”, “uh”, “um”, and/or curse words.

“I, uh, I- fuck. I,ummm, I think maybe, ah, maybe we should leave?”

For more on stuttering – it can be hard to peg correctly – check out this post.

I hope this helps! If you need anything else, please feel free to ask. - @authors-haven

Ai Yazawa End-of-Book Notes 1-21

So at the end of every volume of NANA, Ai Yazawa has a brief paragraph about the manga or just some introspection about her life. They give great insight into the series and I think only a few are found on the scans of NANA online, so I thought I’d share them all!

Volume 1

The creator, Ai Yazawa, told us, “I created this story so that it could be enjoyed as a stand-alone and, at the same time, have a complete ending that could be connected to an ongoing series.  I hope you’ll look forward to the future of the two Nanas!”

Volume 2

A note from Ai Yazawa: “I had thought that if the two Nanas met each other, they would probably be constantly fighting, but they seem oddly friendly.  What’s up with that?!  It’s one of me (not so) seven wonders (ha-ha).”

Volume 3

Since childhood, the artists I’ve looked up to haven’t been writers and illustrators, but mostly musicians.  Music provides me the most emotional effect and excitement.  If there was no music, I don’t think my creative juices would boil.  Music is that important to my life.

- Ai Yazawa

Volume 4

I realized one day that there are hit songs with the same names as the main female characters, NANA, JUNKO, and SACHIKO (the kanji for JUNKO is different, though).  It’s not that big a deal, but I sometimes just hum the melodies longingly.

- Ai Yazawa

Volume 5

In the initial drafts, Nana’s band was a rockabilly band like the Stray Cats.  But due to various circumstances, I didn’t keep it that way.  But if they were rockabilly, Ren, Nobu and Shin would have had pompadours.  And Yasu too?

- Ai Yazawa

Volume 6

When I was a child, I used to take piano lessons.  Even after I stopped taking lessons, I bought sheet music I liked and continued playing.  I’ve had my hands full for several years now, but one of these days I’d like to learn how to play jazz piano, which I’ve wanted to do for years now.

- Ai Yazawa

Volume 7

I had an opportunity to interview a group of professional musicians.  I showered them with questions, but they answered willingly, and it was very helpful.  I was having problems balancing the fictional world of manga-like simplicity and gorgeousness with a sense of reality.  But I realized again that what’s important is the humanity of the characters.

- Ai Yazawa

Volume 8

When I was in high school, there was a cool girl in my class who was a lone wolf.  I was really into a foreign New Romantic-type band then, and when she asked me one day, “Do you want to go to their concert together?” I was overwhelmed.  My heart fluttered more than when I was with my boyfriend (☺).  Have you had a Hachiko experience like that?  - Ai Yazawa

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anonymous asked:

Hey I just wanna say that I really admire the way you can just... put yourself out there on the internet, and talk about your feelings and insecurities and stuff. As someone who kinda struggles with talking about their emotions and stuff that's really cool to see. Plus the Sanders Sides videos are probably some of my favourite on the internet right now so... yeah 👍🤗 Also your friends are all adorable and I love them.

It took a bit to start doing but it’s really therapeutic and it’s absolutely lovely hearing back from YOU guys and getting all the support for doing so!! And my friends are absolutely lovely, aren’t they?? I’m honored you love the videos!!

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So… I took a bit of an ‘unannounced vacation’ for a few weeks while I tried to regain my sanity but everything’s cool now and I’m going to get back to drawing responses.

Who cries the least?

Of the four main characters on Steven Universe, it’s pretty obvious that Steven and Pearl cry pretty frequently. Steven’s a sensitive meatball and he’s a child, and Pearl is … let’s just say emotional and a little fragile. But most people who haven’t watched carefully would probably assume Garnet cries the least since she’s basically the poster child for stoicism. But that isn’t true.

Amethyst cries the least.

That isn’t to say Amethyst isn’t emotional. Garnet is certainly the least outwardly emotive, and many of Amethyst’s negative emotions manifest in outbursts of anger–being loud, being destructive, lashing out. She just doesn’t accompany her breakdowns with tears most of the time.

Let’s take a look here. Obviously there have been times when everyone’s losing it and there are tears, like at the end of “Bubbled”:

(And we won’t talk about this one because it’s “Say Uncle”)

But it’s interesting that sometimes when everyone else is turning on the water works, Amethyst’s eyes are dry.

In “So Many Birthdays” Pearl cried rivers, Garnet had a little trickle going, but Amethyst was just redirecting her frustration onto Garnet because she didn’t know how to fix Steven.

Most of the time Garnet cries when she’s worried about someone else.

And sometimes she might just be crying behind those glasses when we don’t know. There’s even evidence of it once in a while.

But time and time again, Amethyst has good reasons to be very emotional and yet she stops short before crying. She redirects herself into angry outbursts or collapses into sullenness. Consistently.

Big emotional moments for Amethyst include “Tiger Millionaire” (no tears):

… “An Indirect Kiss” (no tears):

… “Maximum Capacity” (no tears that we see anyway):

… “Reformed” (no tears): 

… and “Cry For Help” (no tears).

Of course, “Cry For Help” was also a big deal for Garnet, and she had an angry outburst there too:

But then in the next episode, she’s so conflicted over her internal struggle that she becomes even more silent than usual, with Ruby’s intense emotion being chilled with Sapphire’s fatalistic denial, and once it’s too much for her, she doesn’t cry … but they do.

In contrast, Amethyst has an arc with multiple episodes leading up to her feeling more and more damaged and worthless, hating her nature and her limited abilities, but she doesn’t cry until she’s FINALLY pushed to the brink in “Earthlings.”

“What was I supposed to look like?”

“You didn’t need me at all.”

“Busy making egg salad.”

“Now I’m the worst Crystal Gem.”

“You almost won with a rock!”

“So it’s true… .”

“Us worst Gems stick together, right?”

But besides this, of course, Amethyst did have the one notable emotional outburst that came with tears. And that’s “On the Run.” She went through sarcastic mocking, sullenness, and literal violence before she got to the point that she could cry, but she did get there. And then cried for approximately the entire last two minutes of the episode.

Amethyst can cry. It’s just that other responses come more readily, and she defaults to those before tears finally come. Garnet, though … Garnet doesn’t cry easily, but crying doesn’t seem to happen for her only when she’s been through everything else. And that makes sense, because she’s got to have all that emotion Ruby has in there somewhere, and it’s not just anger we’re talking about. Ruby is extremely demonstrative with her emotions, including love and joy, even though she can really only focus on one at a time. As manifested in Garnet, Sapphire doesn’t hold Ruby’s emotion in check; she just modifies how it is expressed. It’s still there. Garnet is the feeling between them. She even says so in a song. 

I’d be willing to bet she gets teary-eyed behind her shades more often than we’d ever know.

You know who’s only cried once, though? Peridot.

You know who never cries? Lapis.