It’s been months and I still can’t get you out of my head.
Unintentionally I see if what I’m doing would make you jealous
And when I realize this, I get angry with myself.
Why am I doing this?
Why am I putting myself through this pain again?
All because of you?
I had another nightmare about you again last night.
It’s the third one this week.
Why are you appearing in places I have no control over.
I was okay,
I was gonna make it,
I was gonna be happy.
And now these stupid constant thoughts of you are ruining all that.
What’s worse is I can’t tell anyone.
Everyone thinks I’m over you,
and if I bring you up one more time,
I’m positive they will ridicule me for still hurting over the guy who constantly hurt me.
Why is just the thought of you,
Cashing so much pain?
- something else that I needed to just let out