I dont understand

You

It’s been months and I still can’t get you out of my head.

Unintentionally I see if what I’m doing would make you jealous
And when I realize this, I get angry with myself.

Why am I doing this?
Why am I putting myself through this pain again?
All because of you?

I had another nightmare about you again last night.
It’s the third one this week.
Why are you appearing in places I have no control over.

I was okay,
I was gonna make it,
I was gonna be happy.
And now these stupid constant thoughts of you are ruining all that.

What’s worse is I can’t tell anyone.
Everyone thinks I’m over you,
and if I bring you up one more time,
I’m positive they will ridicule me for still hurting over the guy who constantly hurt me.

Why is just the thought of you,
Cashing so much pain?

- something else that I needed to just let out

“wow there are so many fake nerds cosplaying these days!!!”

hold the fuck up. first of all what the fuck even is a “fake nerd”

second of all, if you think that a cosplayer who spends time, money and tears TO DRESS UP AS A FICTIONAL CHARACTER somehow falls into the “fake nerd” catergory, you are sadly mistaken. cosplayers literally become one with the character. how is that not “nerdy”. i dont understand.